Cocoon

Sometimes I need to wrap myself
Really tight
Sometimes I need to let myself
Unwind
Sometimes I need to hide within
The cave of my despair
The despair that no one knows
That I protect them from
Because the beauty of the cocoon
Is in me
The butterfly is the becoming and
My truest shining self

Maybe this is hard for you
Troubling for anyone to see
This is why
I cannot show it to anyone
Because it is the part of me
That is dying
And beginning to be reborn again
The alien that pushes through

Maybe we can be more than friends
But maybe we’re not lovers
Because loving that part of me
Is the darkest part yet
And no one should want to
Even if some do

I may need to pass out
To feel myself again
The metamorphosis is
The becoming
The time to do nothing
The time to hideout
The time to hibernate
The time to call on the gods
To protect me
Even when I cannot protect myself

There is a precious light deep within
That wants to begin again and
Again and again
How many times can I portray this
In different ways?
How many days until
The ultimate conveys
The shiny gift of life

The one that has been taken from
Someone
Left here inside of me
It is in me
My unpredictability to confirm
To commit to a tiny sliver of time
That is mine

I can only share this with those who
Can handle this side
It isn’t controlled
It is free to roam about my soul
Investigate the whole
Every part of me

What have you been up to?
Working so much
Doing so much
All the time

This is a time for feeling and
Unreeling
The bitter sad parts that deserve to
Have a voice
I have no choice when I cocoon
When I weave a loom of darkness
Beneath the moon
Inside my heart

The answer
A rare sight of darkness and light

Sometimes I need to wrap myself
Really tight
Sometimes I need to let myself
Unwind
Sometimes I need to hide within
The cave of my despair
The despair that no one knows
That I protect them from
Because the beauty of the cocoon
Is in me
The butterfly is the becoming and
My truest shining self
Shining beneath the moon
Inside my heart

© GÄ