Poétique

Supernatural

Of course I would
Fall in love with a ghost
Of course I would
Miss my window of opportunity
I could retrace my acts
Sixteen days later
And still not find your footsteps
Kind of remarkable
Kind of like moss
Always there but maybe
Just in the background
And we miss it because
We’re not looking for it
I certainly wasn’t looking for you
But somehow my eyes found
What the heart wants
When I looked at you
Of course I would
Not realize it would be too late
Of course I would
Think about you endlessly
Through the night
I went back there today
Again because I also
Didn’t forget about the way
You came running out the door
After me
Of course I would
Ask you about plants
Of course I would
Wish I said something else
Of course I would
Never see you again
Of course I would
Fall in love with a ghost

Marks the Spot

You broke me open
With cracks of light
Love lava pouring out
From everywhere
Each pore is erupting
Where is it all running
Off to
Where am I
Found
Is it always this explosive
To feel love again
Do we have to sew
My head back on
I am a permanent balloon
Drifting heartfelt
Oozing over
I am the number one
Fireworks producer
Creator of sparks
A dynamite cart
Pushing fast towards you
Off the edge
Crippled emotions
A happy beast in flight
A love feast in sight
Morning and night
Sun and moonlight
Lover in bright colors
I can feel you walking
All over my territories
Discoverer
You have uncovered
My treasure map
Your X
Marks the spot

I Was…

Hoping that I’d find you today
To give you a small note
I was hoping I could ask you
If you want to spend time
With me tomorrow
I could already taste
Your kisses
I already imagined
You would want to leave
Your mark on me
A love bruise on my neck
I had to ask you to stop
To pull away
To keep my image professional
Although I really didn’t want to
I hoped to say to you today
Everyday I say maybe tomorrow
But today is the day I say
I found you
You’re hard to catch
But unexpectedly easy
To find at first
Looking up into your eyes
Passing by
I saw you
You came and found me
And then you were gone
Where were my words
Why am I bad at this
I wasn’t looking for it
But now I’m thinking of it
I was hoping that
I’d find you today

A Good Man

I just wanted to be
A good man
Hard working
To have someone
Love me like that
Look upon me fondly
Lean into me
So that others could
See that love
Our love
But she wanted to
Compete
With everything
Is there also even
A competitor title
To be loved
To be the better lover
Without being there
To love you at all
I just wanted to be
A good man
And to be loved
But she couldn’t
Love me
She was too busy
Being the loudest one
In the room
The brightest star
Now I know
She wasn’t capable
At all

Salt

True love never dies
How could it when
You’re so entrancing
I find myself cowering
Like a flower from
A sunbeam that is boiling
Frantic not to blindfold
Myself from your light
In an open all night church
On my knees asking
The universe to make a way
Acrimoniously without
All the pieces I had dreamt
Of disintegrating
Like sweet sugar on
Your flush hot skin
Smooth like amber
On my tongue
You can’t be genuine
If you’re not and I
Surmise that you are
Beyond belief
Abracadabra
Oracular a magician
Of sorts that stirs a
Fire in me belly
With your wand
Lighting the undergird
Of my spirit with a
Fortitude that beholds the
Salt of your earth

Bullseye

It’s easy to talk big
But I can jump in
Really hard and mean it
The important thing is
Not whether you can
Believe me but
If you can remember
Anything can happen
The great peel of excitement
Is always slipping off
The edge of my tongue
And often times
I end up
On the floor somewhere
But how do I get there?
Trust and honesty
Being trustworthy
Of anticipatorily redeeming the qualities
It doesn’t matter anyway
The dirt comes off the heel
In the same way
Every time
With a rinse and a scrub
I won’t shut down for
Any lack of what was hoped
But what was hope
What is hope?
Sometimes like smoking
The dope of someone’s lie
Their inability to try
Or just a handsome cup
Of almost
Barely there, I…
Barely enough, I…
Why commit to anything
If you can be free to commit
To nothing everywhere
I want to meet someone
Who gives a shit

Cup of Possibilities

Lack of a two step plan
Leaves me with a lot of
Don’t just say it
Because you think it’s
What I want to hear
I crave what I know can exist
But have no evidence
Of such bliss
Just tiny fragments
Of assembly
Or mirror images sparkling
Like crystal shards that broke
And fell down from the frame
Of which they came
And then were somehow
Glued back together again
Onto the dress or the suit
Of an other
On a garment
That looks back at you
Like the stars do
Glimmering with
Desire and hope
A small favor
To ask from a big
Cup of possibilities

Someone Else

When in Rome
Do you resent
The way I smile
Overgeneralizing
Emotional reasoning
Cognitively distorted
It may not be true
Contorted views
But it feels real
When I’m with you
When you want it
The way I sing
Grabbing away at life
Never repealing
Would you
For fame
Throw me under a train
So you can have it all
Without me
Certainly if you resent me
How could you present me
To others
To the world
Too much art
Overspread
Too much good to bear
But not for
Someone else

It’s the Truth

If there are
No more requests
I’ll let you go
For now
I don’t want to
Slap myself
Or wear a sign
Around my neck
That says
Don’t manipulate me
With the obvious
Love story
Don’t allow me
To manipulate you
By sending charming
Hearts to hopefully
Make myself feel better
Or to convince myself
That you love me
Even if I
Made a mistake
Because I know
That you love me
I’m just really bad at
Telling myself that
It’s the truth

Cute

Oh my how
You look so cute
When you’re ordering food
Like a media darling
How do you adorn yourself
Every morning
How do you resist
To kiss yourself
I have no meter for
This sort of thing
It’s like taking a cool dip
After a long hot walk
To savor you
To put my arm across
Your back
To rest my chin
On your shoulder
To smell you
And feel your hair
Brush up against my lips
I’m not sure that
I’m equipped
To find the words
To tell the truth
Except to say
You look so cute
When you’re ordering food