Keeper of All Broken Hearts

You are the keeper of all broken hearts
No one is safe from the start
You hang them to dry
While your lips tell a lie
Collecting and tearing apart

How many more will you burn through
Stealing their trust like you do
You hurt those you love
And when push comes to shove
No one else matters but you

© GÄ

Waiting to Happen

Dimming Me
I’m sorry
We lost our friendship
Slimming me
What a trick
Where did it go
A Pyrrhic victory
An empty chalice
A broken medal
Nobody wins
The last word
Is nothing
We were equally invested
And now we’re equally
Uninterested
I’m sorry
For what was destined
We were worth more
It was only a matter of time
Before I would be
Just another accident
Waiting to happen

© GÄ

Better Habits

Landlocked like Serbia
Drinking a thimble of your poison
I could not have been
More shocked by your departure
Nor more relieved
That I should not also have to wait
For your return

© GÄ

Other Than You

I put my weight into it
Bandaged all the cuts
That threatened my excellence
Standing on a glacier
Cruising round the curves
Of your Antarctic heart

You are the perfect picture
Of my death as a living love
Mental anguish
Flailing around
There’s nothing to be gleaned
I let you manipulate me
Petulance on my part
So cathartic
To have you touch me again
With your words

Shamefully

I shouldn’t have trusted you
To love me
Are we so broken
That you can’t see over yourself
Having trouble
Hurdling over blameless pride
The bricks are stacked
Exceptionally high
Are there any feelings left inside
Almost no
A tragic sigh
And then comes the chance
For freedom

To lay next to someone
Other than you
To take their fragrant breath
Into my lungs
To find someone
Other than you

© GÄ

Scraping

Cutting away at what’s left
The ridiculous happy before
The aftermath of your absolute
Absence

Pulled out the measuring cup
To see how much love was left
I couldn’t fill it up like I did before
I couldn’t find the same amount
That poured out once before
Memories

I searched to see if there was
Even a hello a small opener
You know the way a friend says
I miss you and I’m sorry that
I hurt you too buddy
You know

It felt better when I realized that
You weren’t there at all that I
Didn’t have to say goodbye
I just saw you floating in the sea
A distant anchor to my ship
You know the one you sailed
With me

Intimacy of the mind can be more
Difficult and transparent than
Sex

Because the exfoliating feels so good
I coast along here a more distilled
Version of myself remembering
Your beauty and knowing
I can say nothing

You understand
Even if the chains that hold
My ship in place are covered
In cobwebs the ghost that floats
Above the memory of us
Screams in silence

Our friendship
Is just a vacant boat
That we can reconsider
When the sun returns to melt
Your icy heart

© GÄ

Dinner With a Ghost

When all you want
Is to be held
When all you want
Is for someone to feel your pain
I can do that
I know what it’s like
To want to be held
I know what it’s like
To want someone to understand that pain
To say I’m sorry
In the deepest sorted quarry of
Ripped off emotion
An ocean
Of true love
A selfless offering yet
With my own need to be loved

Jump in head first
Feet first it doesn’t matter
To absorb and be absorbed
I somehow thought I was different
Now I know that I’m the same

Glossing over me
Taking off the show
To hold a frame of mind
In place while
So many fantasies are falling apart
So many pieces from
A broken heart

Can’t fix the hurt
Can’t fix the hurt
It wouldn’t work

Chasing the hope of
Having you close
Is just like having
Dinner with a ghost

© GÄ

Broken Limb

Do not make me
Defend myself in my own house
Hanging from a thorn
Upside down
Wishing I was shooting
Like the stars that you
Stole from my eyes
Jumping over the
Red path of rosy blood
Spiraling down into a verbal bath
To taste your lack of concern
This just gave my heart
The choice to beat
How can I be better he asked
That’s nobody’s fault
Said the raccoon
She just has an awful personality
Now I know I said to myself
How everyone else you’ve deserted feels
Like a broken limb

© GÄ

Still Alive

Death of a friendship
It’s a strange thing
Feeling like you’re there
Feeling like you’re nowhere
Sensing what we had
Distasteful nothingness
Delivered on an empty platter
Of whatever is nothing
A forked tongue of fruit
That used to be something
Now just pacifies everything
Take it slow sounds more like
End of the road for me
That’s okay
At least we can be certain
Of one thing

Mourning our deaths
Even though we’re both still alive

© GÄ

Repeat Offense

I get most things that I want
She said
That is true
Except for one thing
And that’s you
I recalled

Constant
Unfailing
Unwavering
Love
That’s all
I want to be
I recalled
That’s all
Just that
Like a dog
Constantly
Full of and
Giving love

Lapping at the
Cheeks of adoration

Is this sweat or tears
Chopped up logs of fear
Or are you the fireplace in me?
I rub my fingers together
Rough like crocodiles
Two matches
And a pile of ashes

Is the attraction just an image
Or a person
Same people
Same outcome
Looking for a different one

I began to love the sound
Of her leaving
But of course
I missed her too
The way a person
Misses the apples
In their absence
From the orchard
In the winter
Although they’ll be
Invited back

Unlike her

Some things are hard
Some things are soft

And apples bruise