Combat

All the things I’m in my head about
All the things I shouldn’t care about
Do the little things begin to weigh in
Because I don’t feel like I can meet
The expectations of everyone

Around me taking down me in minute
Details that bleed onto the scope
Of things and we are allowed to
Have bad days but some of them
Creep into the next morning
Thinking about the residuals of
Yesterday as we push them behind us

Eminently struggling to cling on
Does it make us stronger or weaker?
Empathically I feel the stress of
Others pulling and tugging away at my
Everything I have to block it out

Send it away like a package
I don’t want or a letter that’s been
Misdelivered to an address
That no longer exists it is the
Unhinged emotions of blatant
People around me that are
Inconsiderate in how they persist

It all compounds me into a heap
Of how do I get away from
All of this mess but it is a
Question of life that is part of
Being alive and other than
Selling everything and buying a
Ticket for a one way trip
To live remotely somewhere
This place doesn’t exist on the planet

We are vulnerable and
Unprotected as sensitives
Putting on the alligator suit again
Back to life and bumper cars
One day at a time resistance
One breath at a time to find
The joy in a reasoning to live

© GÄ