Otherness

There’s water in my head
That’s trying to get out
Because I miss you
But instead of reaching out
To you beyond my hubris
I am stunned by the mystery
If not knowing only what our
History could cause or what
Foreboding actions would be
Flawed what my distractions
Should create for to receive you
Or for what we are revisiting
What is on the other end?
Resisting to be constrained
To be completely open hearted
Could we open up a floodgate
Of who knows it, or what finds us
Underneath departure from the
Dark acceptance to the light
Inner primate emotional fight
Rejection and reception cry
Send me an angel, one who
Fills my cup with that of
Extreme otherness

© GÄ

From Doom

It’s how the story goes
The most beautiful self
You cannot share the rose
Too beautiful for the world
When your flower arises’
Hands take lead to heed
And in stolen demise
Tear away at the stem
Your vibrant arms
Your flower of life
They hoard for themselves
Your beautiful light
Those fiery petals
Rising up towards the sky
Are twisted off and pocketed
In a burglars surprise
Reach out to protect you
I will arouse what you gift
To require your safekeeping
Before the bandits of life
Twist off the remaining love
Snap off your precious sight
Come round ringing
The kissing bells
Circular fire blooms up
Stepping over the devil
As you light up the room
Impeccable love to stand guard of
From doom the flaming wings
Of the angel uncovered
Exposed you are to me

© GÄ

Deep Inside

I feel like everything
Is slowly closing in
Like the angel of death
Rests upon me
Because the people that
I cared for
Don’t know how
To care for me
I lost my excellence
I was trying to succeed
Is it the expectation
Or the missing destination
I ask

No need to die tonight
No useless selfish cries
What is the superficial
Would it be more important
If it happened in Maine
Would it matter more
If we had something to gain
Does it matter
Anyway?

Day after day
Each moment
Each pathetic fallacy
Is it one step closer to
Something really great
Or one step further
From a meaningful way

© GÄ

Angel

I think I met an angel tonight
I asked him for a cigarette
He gave me two
And asked me if I wanted to talk

I told him everything
As he helped me off the bus
I fought my tears
And as we started to walk he said

You are lost in your own world
You cannot break free from the life
You have known
You are lost in your own world

As my tears began to dry
I forgot how it felt
For someone to be so nice
Will I ever be alright?
He said

You are lost in your own world
You cannot break free from the life
You have known
You are lost in your own world

Have you ever wanted to die?
It’s so strange to think that I
Could go from wanting to die
To wanting to be alive

She is lost in her own world
She cannot break free from the life
She has known
She is lost in her own world

© GÄ