Fighting to thrive
To make something of this life
I feel it burning from beneath
And still I cannot seem to reach
The truth that says
In conclusion
“You are not alone.”
Appearing that I feel
As if I’m not doing enough
In order to protect
Any mental rebuff
I create a shield
I form a barrier
Is it running away…
Am I avoiding the terror?
What of not growing!
If I cannot stay
Have I delayed the inevitable
Early childhood
Was tumultuous too
Later years I have
Tried to protect myself
Eliminate what can permanently
Hurt yet am I not growing
In this way if I reject
Do not allow myself
The exposure to the pain
Stand up and face it
Lay down and take it
Evoking experiences in
Perceptions that resonate
Do it because you love it
Not because it gives you
Grief or pins you down
In misery that’s what
I was taught by my grandmother
She wore a very special crown
Until I am vaporized
And deplete
Like the rest of us
What more can we do
However we play the harpsichord
We must all go
Light falling through the idle
Window pane and the wind
Conducts an orchestra
Of grass and palm outside
If but to comprehend
Even one speck
© GÄ
Poétique 