Wins

Pondering the hurtles of everyday life
The black and white of not over analyzing
It is what it is no matter how you look at it
The end result is also the only result in the end
Like running through an obstacle course
Of used up tires careful not to trip
We slip one foot into each hole and
Quickly quip the other foot out carefully
The more we perfect the rhythm
The better we are at it
He begs to question is life
What it was always going to be
Or did he have something to do with it?
Having others around can make it easier
Having others around can make it harder
His perception was only his perception
It doesn’t mean anything to be caught up
Or cavity free because ultimately
It will come around and there it is again

Someone to celebrate the wins with
That would be nice no one there to
Cheer you on that you got over that hump
I remember some elders mentioning
“Must be nice to be so young, just over there having all the fun.”
Like someone had ripped it away from them
We don’t really understand this
Consciously at the time and why would we…
When we’re busy enjoying our lives!

Before and after a pandemic
There were dreams to read more
To finally settle the scoreboard
To do all the things that
We never finished before and wanted to
But they didn’t get done
We kept doing what we wanted
What we were drawn to; fun
Eventually the box is checked
The circle is complete
After weeks and months of defeat
Life is the extreme version of this
Loud jets in the cloudy mist
He ends up on the other side of
His epidemic still wondering
When will he finish everything
And with whom will he
Celebrate the wins?
Cold air fades out

© GÄ

Love Dream

To be in love with
Something or someone
That is as close as
You can get
To the one that
You had hoped to love
To feel
To share one breath
Even if it was
Only a fantasy
And you never touched
The person you’d
Been dreaming of
And yet
Though you found a lover
That is mostly the same
Almost in all gestures
In their face
In their words
In their eyes
To fall in love
Differently with
But almost
Exactly the same
In their hair
In their scent
If they smile in that way
Is it close enough
Not really
So what the truth
Becomes reminds
Us that the fantasy
Was never
Real anyway
In their hands
In their embrace
In their feet
Would I want
Someone to love me
If I wasn’t their
First sweet(heart)
Would they
Eventually love me?
Different scenes
An old video store
Someone else’s
Silver screen
When the affection
Is delectable
And real
The kiss makes it
Hard to reveal
Leaving to wonder
Do we love them
Or the person we
Hoped them to be
If we are always
Yearning for the
Thing we
Wished we had
In love to be

© GÄ