Validation

Someone to celebrate the wins with
Someone to celebrate the sins with ha!

Best I can do is to laugh with you
Give you the benefit of the doubt
That you will pay me back later
Expecting nothing in return

Meandering through belongings
Determining what’s important
Versus what has no value
I stumbled upon my vulnerability

It was unrecognizable
Ultimately because I grafted no surety
Upon its face or scent
As if I’d never seen it before
Everyone knows it’s there
Buy many are unaware of how
It exists

She said:

Dialectic
Inconsistency is destabilizing
Back and forth houses
Can extinguish
Cheerleaders praise
Feeling special or cherished
Feast or famine
What is the reality of this?
And the confusion of that?

Home
Didn’t provide that feeling of safety
It created a fault line {in me}

You know
Love languages are formed
By what you did or didn’t get
Everybody has that

Rely on yourself

To what degree do you feel comfortable
Giving yourself that validation

It’s a steep question
I’m not sure I know what validation
Means now

I’ll get back to you

© GÄ

Avowal

I wanted freedom and validation
She gave me both of those
Even with the kiss of goodbye
To a boy who would have been
Lucky enough to receive one
At all but she gave me that
And freedom and validation
Through all of that she gave me
Peace and confidence when
I had nothing to hold onto
Even if it was temporary or
Just a blip in time she shared
That part of what it means
To embrace myself and the
Worth of a thousand horses
Running wild treasuring
Their hooves of independence
On the earth like sunlit mirth
On their backs I can see myself
I can hear myself and feel
What it is to be inside myself
Again for the first time
In a long time again

© GÄ