It felt like a test
As if she was waiting
For me to react to see
If how she behaved
Was still worthy of my love
She knew better
But she pretended not to
Or at least it looked like
She was pretending
Maybe she wasn’t
Playing dumb
Bodily strength was
Held onto by some
Mental grasp for reality
That lost hold of
Everything else
Crying for what was no longer
Yearning for separation
To finally embrace peace
To say goodbye is not enough
Leftover plates full of pain
And sanity is everything
To gain
I remember wanting this
Planning a trip to Egypt
And falling short of all fear
Of expecting to hide in a tomb
If she brought her behaviors with her
For what is missed is what
Was wanted
For what is kissed is what
Is goodbye
Also good luck is bad luck
Solitary confinement
Played out by what is
No longer needed
When all you wanted
Was to be needed
And he moves through his life
As he is free and he is chained
And he is free again
Better than he was before
But later than earlier
And now present fusion
Scratching at tomorrow
We are so much life
We can live again
The way we were before
As we are now
Before he was distraught
© GÄ
Poétique 