Sometimes I wonder
If I’m doing a good job
If I’m just going
Through the motions
Or if I am still
Something to be found
For you
We are all
Checking different boxes
But without
Confirmations
We don’t often know
If we’re really doing
Anything at all
I can feel the essence
Of my presence
In your wake
I can sense the absence
Of what this would mean
If I left
I can do the math
For the difficult pieces
Of what that formula
Could create
But if I were to calculate
How much it actually meant
To be with you
I would still wonder
If it was in fact
Truly excellent
If I didn’t deserve
This mess or
If it was
Really better than the regular
Like a delicious cup of coffee
Or the most satisfying
Bite of fruit
I’ve ever had
It’s hard to see it
When you’re in it
If you can’t taste
What for yourself
Is ripened truth
Is it the successful thing
Others keep reaching
For to dream
To be adored?
For what you’re doing
Especially when you do it
Is to be with love
Then to go through it
What is it then?
I hope you know
That when we meet
It’s just you and me kid
Baby till the end
© GÄ
Poétique 