Poem – Page 39 – Poétique

Unknown

The unknown is not scary
The unknown is definite
The unknown is moving
Like a song
The unknown is changing
To be open to be wrong
To accept the possibility
Of anything
Is to evolve
Into the unknown
We cannot
Prepare the self
To lose even your most
Treasured possession
For what is left
Your best friend
Your favorite pet
Nothing is permanent
To discover the purpose
Even to dream of living
To the centennial year
Receiving forgiving
Is not confirmed
No control
No confirmation
Water pours out
From the end of a hose
Until it does not
The future is unknown
We cannot see
What we do not know
The unknown is unsettling
The unknown is indefinite
The unknown is still
Like a rock
Do not be overcome if
To wake up to what you have
Is gone and so long
To know also that
What is present is good
It will not matter what you’ve got
How much or how little
The unknown is riddled
With uncertainty
What is real
What is not
Find your home in yourself
The world bets on a guess

Anymore

Are you evil
With all your friends
Or just the ones
You want to miss the most?
Devouring all innocence
Hungry for more hearts
A secret cave
For killing love
Black eyed
Black heart
Ignorance plays
A solitary part
A bit like getting
Shot in the ass
I just wanted to connect
But I was met
With a world
That was too busy
A face that was
Too pretty
Your absence
Makes you guilty
To the murder of
Our friendship
Your silence is a
Criminal impersonation
For the deceptive one who
Used to plan their
Destination into my arms
Pretend to be there
Pretend to charm
But what you really end up being
Is alarming if you think about
What we used to have
Think about love
The meaning of flowers
Funny how nobody wants
To think about that
Anymore

Now Somehow

To feel like
I’m a kid again
Hanging out in my house
The sanctuary that I dreamed up
As if my mom or dad
Would come around the corner
To surprise me to tease me
To feel again like I did
As a kid
Taking my socks off
On the couch
Pushing my bare feet
In between the cushions
Old tv shows returning me back
To the place where I can
Pretend that I’m on the divan
That I was on so many times
Before when I was young
Kool-aid in wine glasses
Fantasizing the future
I created the space how can I
Have it again in this
Grown up body
When I was there I looked ahead
Here I am now looking back
In this grown up life
I want to feel the freedom
That I did as a kid
As the adult that I am
Now somehow

To Another One

Like a dark tide
Wading low out in the distance
There was no comfort
To keep me on the shore
So the dark blue
Electric feud
Calls no one
The bleak empty sea
Of our past memories
Swept away with today
In a boat of irresolvable
Friendship
Not even the
Illuminating scent
Of our past
Could be unsunk
Whatever moon was meant
Whatever time was spent
Whatever sun descends
On the horizon
Of what we once possessed
We will no longer commend
For what we cannot apprehend
To close the door on one love
Is to open up the heart
To another one

From Doom

It’s how the story goes
The most beautiful self
You cannot share the rose
Too beautiful for the world
When your flower arises’
Hands take lead to heed
And in stolen demise
Tear away at the stem
Your vibrant arms
Your flower of life
They hoard for themselves
Your beautiful light
Those fiery petals
Rising up towards the sky
Are twisted off and pocketed
In a burglars surprise
Reach out to protect you
I will arouse what you gift
To require your safekeeping
Before the bandits of life
Twist off the remaining love
Snap off your precious sight
Come round ringing
The kissing bells
Circular fire blooms up
Stepping over the devil
As you light up the room
Impeccable love to stand guard of
From doom the flaming wings
Of the angel uncovered
Exposed you are to me

For Light

Words on a mountain
Chest to chest
Bone to bone
Insurmountably inside
A quiet terror to surmise
When the point of exit
Is impossible to find
Somewhat lost at sea
Energetically reprieved
By the traffic that surrounds
Every tire that forebodes
An accident of circuitry
A heart attack no one can grieve
Carefully reintroducing
Drops of love like alchemy
One drip at a time
Streamed into the vein mainline
Running fast beyond the sordid
Greed of unjust wars
On shame and lust
Swole up into a canyon of trust
Here comes the sun
Say hello to the light
Say goodbye to the dark
Let the fangs of the perfidious
Past slither away in the grass
Of history gone by
No matter how many decades
Former fate
Previous destiny
New bridge
One broken window
Is another opening
For light

A Good Man

I just wanted to be
A good man
Hard working
To have someone
Love me like that
Look upon me fondly
Lean into me
So that others could
See that love
Our love
But she wanted to
Compete
With everything
Is there also even
A competitor title
To be loved
To be the better lover
Without being there
To love you at all
I just wanted to be
A good man
And to be loved
But she couldn’t
Love me
She was too busy
Being the loudest one
In the room
The brightest star
Now I know
She wasn’t capable
At all

Salt

True love never dies
How could it when
You’re so entrancing
I find myself cowering
Like a flower from
A sunbeam that is boiling
Frantic not to blindfold
Myself from your light
In an open all night church
On my knees asking
The universe to make a way
Acrimoniously without
All the pieces I had dreamt
Of disintegrating
Like sweet sugar on
Your flush hot skin
Smooth like amber
On my tongue
You can’t be genuine
If you’re not and I
Surmise that you are
Beyond belief
Abracadabra
Oracular a magician
Of sorts that stirs a
Fire in me belly
With your wand
Lighting the undergird
Of my spirit with a
Fortitude that beholds the
Salt of your earth

Cup of Possibilities

Lack of a two step plan
Leaves me with a lot of
Don’t just say it
Because you think it’s
What I want to hear
I crave what I know can exist
But have no evidence
Of such bliss
Just tiny fragments
Of assembly
Or mirror images sparkling
Like crystal shards that broke
And fell down from the frame
Of which they came
And then were somehow
Glued back together again
Onto the dress or the suit
Of an other
On a garment
That looks back at you
Like the stars do
Glimmering with
Desire and hope
A small favor
To ask from a big
Cup of possibilities

Someone Else

When in Rome
Do you resent
The way I smile
Overgeneralizing
Emotional reasoning
Cognitively distorted
It may not be true
Contorted views
But it feels real
When I’m with you
When you want it
The way I sing
Grabbing away at life
Never repealing
Would you
For fame
Throw me under a train
So you can have it all
Without me
Certainly if you resent me
How could you present me
To others
To the world
Too much art
Overspread
Too much good to bear
But not for
Someone else