The Question

I remember us as we were
Best friends in an oblivion of lust for life
Running to the beach every Sunday
Finding a reason to wake up together
You loved the time we spent together
The ideas that I shared with you
Willing to fly to any height
And once we reached the top
Of the never ending gift of forever
You found a way to say
Do it my way

Step by step innocence
Bringing me closer and closer
Never knowing that I would lose my Friend
And gain someone
Who wanted to control me
Out of fear for losing me
I’ve seen your kind before and left
Watching what I wear, when I sleep
Who I talk to and if you cannot control it
You take the friendship away
And punish me by removing yourself
Entirely from the picture
Temporarily erasing
The dream

I know you
Here I am again praying to resist the urge
To want to escape from you
Through some mind altering substance
It’s always the last card you can pull
Push me over the edge to get your way
Make me vulnerable enough to stay
The way you want me to

Is that how you want me?
Is this what you want from me?
We are moving at different paces
Different speeds
Different marathons
And you say you can’t receive me
Is it because
You’re too busy receiving yourself?
Am I just fucked up enough
For you to love?
Do you want something better?
Or should we always stay the same?
Never to blame
Always right
Forget the insight
Just continue to be
The same person
That no one will ever get to?
Yes I’m talking to you

What do you do
When you don’t have to track me
Like a wolf after prey
She is ready to find you
To control you to protect you
From yourself

Do you see me for who I am?
Can you glorify that?
Can you lift it up
Without wanting to possess it
To take credit for it?
Must you receive recognition
For everything you do?
Is this relationship just an opportunity
To get it right for yourself
And if it’s so
How is controlling me
Allowing you to see clearly?

You are the question I cannot answer
The flame I cannot light
The dance floor I cannot find
Always hiding in the dark
Behind the trees
Catching everyone off guard
Including yourself
Wouldn’t it just be easier to open the door
When someone knocks?
Hiding from it all including yourself
In the tide amongst the rocks
There is a wall to get to you
And many have refused to climb it
Those that have tried
Are met by more bricks
You continue to build the closer I get

Every color changes
Every pathway ends
Every cloud floats away
I want to breathe your essence in
But you keep it caged so well
That letting go feels like death to you
Just like the bird
You let escape from our home
I can find you too
I can catch your spirit
And bring you home too
If only you could set yourself free
Just enough to believe
Can you answer why
This is the question
For me

© GÄ

Published by

Geino Äotsch

|B|arber |M|usic |T|ea I am an artist & an advocate. A spiritual lover. Executive Director for ALARK.org Author of Poeticword.com & tHEtERRYtREE.com Creator & Owner at Goldenlungtea.com Music & Hair at Geinos.com