Tag: before

Beforehand

Oh no. Now you won’t think
I’m amazing anymore
Was my behavior flagrant
Who could tell but his insides

She was my secret weapon
And my worst enemy

Would you have cared
If she resented you
In the way mine did me?

Should our lovers resent us?

I just wanted to be your friend
To somehow empower you
Find a sidewalk that never ends

Not trying to become a billionaire
And if I was, not at the expense of others
Rich with friendships perhaps
That’s a wealth to be happy for

The longer we know each other
A better possibility to deepen
Connection and also the more it
Can hurt when she says
I already have a person
Even if you were only
Best friends once upon a time

© GÄ

Synthesis

How pastiche!
Fetching after ourselves
Like we do when it hurts to remember
And also when it hurts to let go
Holding on at both ends
Maintaining the broken soul
Patching the holes
Only becomes remarkable
After you’ve been doing it
On your own for sometime
Creating our own mysteries
Hiding things from ourselves
Resonating with independent
Thoughts preparing for death
In ways that we actually cannot
Hair stands up on the back of
Your neck to warn you
An end is coming with
Coffee or no coffee
It’s out of your control
Ants march on
Some of them die
Others return
Is it an exchange of another
Soulhouse where the
Reincarnation keeps repeating itself?
How does the army
Keep going headstrong
Or headstone one way
Or the other we meet the
Meaning of both at some point
A copy of ourselves
Next timeline déjà vu

© GÄ

Before

Demonstrative and beguiling
Rip away at you from all sides
Nothing to gain from your death
And still they don’t trust you yet
Grumbling and stumbling
Into a resistant consistency
Can someone tell me please
How many licks does it
Actually take to get there?
Is the goal to be something
Or to become something
To end up with nothing or
To have it taken all away
Aquire the whole then
Leave it all for the crows
Make an impact publicly
Or quietly from behind
The scenes the serenes
The satisfaction guarantees
All add up to one more
When I had so much less before

© GÄ

Notes

It’s hard to see beyond the parts
Do you want to read my journal notes
We could play hide and seek
Or would you just run away from me
If the light is yellow
Would you pretend that it’s green
Never put off saying you’re sorry
Especially for someone you love
Did you love me?
You couldn’t really say you were sorry
I couldn’t expect that realistically
What a weird fake reality
The life that I wanted to make
Without you is finally happening

© GÄ

Before the Alarms

Strategically you could in a way
Create a space to be with you
There is nothing more desirable
To me than a lack of
Complications

Me there with you simply

To see what your heart sees
During the day
To wait for you impatiently
Hold me
I am more than one way

You are absolutely right
Every moment for me
Takes a drink from your glass
And if not love at first sight
At last

What you say I need
Is all I want
So far in distance but so close
In the way that you’re discreet

What

Uncertainty can be strong
But loving me is even stronger
And this reflection of your love
Would be enough to create
A gem that has not yet existed
In the world between us

A most coveted ring

Imagine me around you
When you close your eyes at night
Know that dreams have a means to
Build a bridge before the alarms
Wake us up in the morning
Just as the dawn would find me
In your arms

© GÄ