ghost

Brontide

Bamboozled me into believing
Something else was true love
My success is her demise
Even if she walks like a ghost
In the background of my life
She is ingrained in the fabric
Of my watery living past
Left to haunt me like an apparition
That only he who remembers
Or chooses not to forget by
Looking back through images
Like a video in his mind
And pictures of a vibrating history
Shaking the walls of his soul
Is left desultory to want to believe
Real care existed or did it just live
In the past not consistent anymore
Or forever a stratagem to
Love without measure
This was always his hope

Even though you said I didn’t fail
Inside it still feels like I did often times
Winnowing out the grains of my soul
I have a sadness to behold
My head will not be buried
As the ostrich of the Miocene
I wear my burdens nobly so
Though not as a mark of achievement
But rather a scar to indicate
How I could be better
There are no shadows wide enough
To cover my human mistakes
Which now air themselves about
Like retired dandelion wishes
Suspended freely in the sky
We can also save ourselves
But we cannot always save the world
Behold the light in my eyes
Can you visualize how deeply I loved
Interpret this from celestial perspectives
From above my forehead is a map
And our voices are magnified
Now a ghost in the tunnel
Traveling vocals in between
You speak my name and
I come running to be seen
Once again by you
In my earthly state of being
My journey is yours
Send out the signal

Supernatural

Of course I would
Fall in love with a ghost
Of course I would
Miss my window of opportunity
I could retrace my acts
Sixteen days later
And still not find your footsteps
Kind of remarkable
Kind of like moss
Always there but maybe
Just in the background
And we miss it because
We’re not looking for it
I certainly wasn’t looking for you
But somehow my eyes found
What the heart wants
When I looked at you
Of course I would
Not realize it would be too late
Of course I would
Think about you endlessly
Through the night
I went back there today
Again because I also
Didn’t forget about the way
You came running out the door
After me
Of course I would
Ask you about plants
Of course I would
Wish I said something else
Of course I would
Never see you again
Of course I would
Fall in love with a ghost

Chance

I had a chance
To take you in my mouth
Okay wait
Let me slow down
Breathe a moment
Grab the leftovers
Hold on
I don’t have the qualifications
To unpack that
But I can open up
To becoming more excellent
Future up to being
More extenuating
Less guarded
More humanly susceptible
My finest grace will be
Not to become a ghostly version
Of myself

Dinner With a Ghost

When all you want
Is to be held
When all you want
Is for someone to feel your pain
I can do that
I know what it’s like
To want to be held
I know what it’s like
To want someone to understand that pain
To say I’m sorry
In the deepest sorted quarry of
Ripped off emotion
An ocean
Of true love
A selfless offering yet
With my own need to be loved

Jump in head first
Feet first it doesn’t matter
To absorb and be absorbed
I somehow thought I was different
Now I know that I’m the same

Glossing over me
Taking off the show
To hold a frame of mind
In place while
So many fantasies are falling apart
So many pieces from
A broken heart

Can’t fix the hurt
Can’t fix the hurt
It wouldn’t work

Chasing the hope of
Having you close
Is just like having
Dinner with a ghost