Contrabass

A tremendous amount
Of accountability one can almost
Hear it ringing across the chasm
A coulee calls back
Reeling

“Just live your life!”
Who cares?
Write it down
Stick it in an envelope
Lick it and seal it
Over the pond across the globe

Pick me up
Set me back down
My heads on fire
About to blow really

Do everything right
Still get it wrong

Do it wrong
Maybe get closer

She’s shrieking out on edge
Storming down the door
Time can’t get it back
Counter clockwise old school
Headlights in his eyes

Fight and torment till we die
Look under the hood
See if he can find anything good
Against the odds

Barrel back or don’t
Maybe an instrument to
Activate her voice
Loud louder loudest

Miss the kiss just a wish
To find hisself again
Saturday night almost
Lights out but stay up late to
Make up for the wait
Work work work
That’s all we do

Screw the rules
List writer box checker
Doesn’t go according to plan
Whatever man
Did everything he can
No follow through at the end
Makes for a tall glass of
What the shit is wrong with you
Again and again let it go
Amen

© GÄ

Fault

It still feels like
It’s my fault
There’s no coming back
From the loss of a loved one
Just moving forward
Sitting at the edge
Of my bed
Not in any way
Purposely thinking back
A trigger a shot
There you are
Something climbs into
My head to remind me
Of the things that we did
When we were kids
Was it something I touched?
I can’t remember what
Tripped it but the sound
Of your memory
The echo of your
Presence rang
Throughout me and I
Felt guilty again
In the web of my feelings
I was caught
It still feels like my fault
That you’re not here
Even though you
Are your own person
Your own being
I felt like your keeper
Like I failed at attempts
To protect you
Always thinking
There was one more thing
I could’ve done to
Retrieve you
From yourself
I miss you

© GÄ

Miss You

Then there
This that
Where what
Tsk tat

Emojis wish
That they could show
The hugs and love
We feel
There’s no comparison
To what the real hug
Actually appeals

I miss your face
I miss your love
I miss your warm
Inviting hugs

When will we meet
In fields of barley
Running towards each other
Hardly feels like it’s tomorrow
Why in fact it’s feeling
Farther and farther and farther
Away

I won’t give up
And don’t you either
I’m a tried and true believer
That the day will be here
Sooner than we think
Even though it’s hard to tell
I truly hope
You’re safe and well
See you again
When we can laugh
And looking back we can relent
About the time we spent
As isolated friends

I send a kiss to you

© GÄ

Beneath the Night

Given the choice
I miss you like the dream
I never had
Between alone time
And socializing
I miss touching
I miss holding
You
In between time
I will almost always
Surround myself with
You
In fact
I miss you and my need
To be around you
Is so strong
It sometimes gets
In the way of
Everything
My responsibilities
Included
I prefer to play
Rather than work
I’m not responding
Well to orders
Unless they come from
You
Trace my borders
I want to bond
With you over our mutual
Stubbornness and lack of
Laziness to love
Each other
Not to mention
Jumping into
Pools of sweet
Aching memories
To hold you again
And again
I love to miss you
I live to kiss you
Meet me
Under the bridge tonight
I’ll miss you much less
Making out in the light
On the left side
Of the creek
Beneath the night

© GÄ