Soup

“We don’t have any qualms with you.”
They said with a grin. What’s in the soup?

Good question after all these years of living
It had become more difficult to see
How things are when reflecting on
Pools of water in the ground like mirrors
How things were when we are children
Or even just a young adult I could recall
Turning pennies over and leaving them
For some one else to find on it’s head
Not tails but that seems awfully
Superstitious now with the way
The wind blows you learn to really
Leave happenstance to unpredictable
Movements in the forces around while
Caring deeply about the most important
Value in the moment if one can, although
There was always some deducing
To be had like,
“How will this affect us in a week or two from now?”
Same as,
“I’m taking my life in… but somehow I don’t feel like I’m here for all of it?”

Follow the system
Rules and regulations
Breathing is the minimum requirement
That seems to be checking out ok
That’s one way to check out that is
Acceptable in the business of
Checking things in or out

Stick around and find out what happens
Appealing and more interesting plan
Also still trying to figure out

What’s in the soup?

© GÄ

Out

Easy way out it could be considered
Take the long way home for me
Tonsorial effects kept the pennies rolling
In a somnambulating sort of way
At the time it was the only option to get by

A career did result from it so’s
Not to be waisted but feels hollow
Mostly without you being there
You can’t despise me
Any more than I despise myself
I don’t think you do at all really

Self deprecation is a personal affair
A jungle gym of insecurity you know
Running rungs one by one
Head above water that sort of stuff
But you couldn’t keep yours up
I never thought that would mean
How it sounds in this lifetime
At least even writing it down

As the days go by and we become less young
I think about youth and how much
Everything didn’t matter as much
As it does when we grow older
Shocking isn’t it? That’s sarcasm!

Struck me cold it did
Well worth finding it’s enough to
Dream of sitting in big chairs with someone
After it’s too late
Doing something of great purpose
A significance I wished for with you
Business in the future world
Now I do it for you

I can’t help but wonder if
You got the easy way out?
No maintaining bones and teeth
When you’re not on the earth
I can’t imagine any of us
Doing it deliberately but when you
Feel like the rope is frayed
It’s easier to let go of it
No need to think about
Doctors and dentistry like me
Or those of us that stick around
If you have any proclivity to stay

No drama for hysterics anymore either just
Empty promises and self preservation
Which ends on a sour note if we
Find ourselves safely wrapped in a freedom
Without hyperactively departing from the other
Or arguments with no reasoning
In a precious vault of loneliness
Who could hope for anything
But an exit
Why should we? Why do we then…

…keep going

© GÄ

Holding

Holding out for magnificence
Am I holding out for this?
Holding out for magnificence
Learning how to forget
Learning how to care less
Leave me on red
Leave me for dead
Dear to whom it may concern
Here lies someone
Who loved you a lot
Be there on the surface
And hurt even less
Holding out for magnificence
Holding out for the best
Give a lot to the surface
Save the rest for the best
Are you down?

I have so much to give…

© GÄ

Don’t Freak Out

Crazy frenetic
Cagey
Don’t leave
Your spacey
Socially distanced
What does that mean
To a lover
A first rate
Hugger
A moment in time
Setting everyone up
To draw
Non-intimate lines
Cabin fever
No instant
Reliever
Patiently waiting
Don’t think about
Dating or any
Kind of contact
That’s new
Even our mother’s
Must stand over there

In my dream
I see this practically
Easy to reach
Bridge that
Connects us to
Being with
One another
Tomorrow
Fast forward
To tear through
Like a bandit
Wearing a cape
Carrying a
Magical vaccine

Death has a way
Of controlling us
Love has a way
Of beholding us
Don’t freak out
It’s only a blip
It’s only a short trip
To stay

Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I love ya
Tomorrow
You’re only
A day
Away

© GÄ