Shift

Benignly seated in a
Self made throne of wonder
All I need is for you to be nice
Lassitude for love

Winsome in my youth
A true impresario
I would write the words
Conjure the terms
Wonder if love

Could ever happen for me?

How could it be that
In all of my dreams
I would hold onto
Questions but
Miss out on reality

Both girls resented his
Brilliance for what it was worth
Sorting out his resplendence
Divvy it up between them
Stretched from arm to arm
Fighting for or against
One another, who could tell

As grey as the sky remained
Some soothing comfort that the
Sun couldn’t bring and the
Distance memories that
Remained in the sheets of his mind
Laying in bed half awake
Half dreaming of what he
Had hoped to accomplish
What had died and
What was taken

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Generous

Beware my love is strong
Nothing to make up for
Everything to gain
He said

Water was dripping from
The ceiling but unsure
Where it was coming in
Or from

Fall victim to generous
Mysteries that plummet
Forward into
Beauty

What nature do the stars
Hold in their light
With us standing
Beneath

Even a sliver of black
In the background of
Our story can tell the
Unforgettable

I am touring off the
Traditional imaginary path
Into a sea of light and
Darkness

Mixed emotions
Yellow sky

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Enflammé

Put a dint in it
Arranged abcedarianly
Turn up the cynosure
Count the bees
One by one
A flame can burn
Even on rose carpet
My emotions are
More effusive than the
Color of the background
Is it sexual or passionate
Or both by default
Misunderstood on both sides
Turn over rocking from
Corner to corner and
Light is painting shadows
Into the room with
What is left
I have more than enough
Somehow now the
Thought is having
Just enough to ensure
We are covered completely
For what comes not
Just the edge of the
Blanket but the
Entire comforter
Resplendissant

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Δυο

Try to remain sparkly
In a darkening world
Head is spinning keeping
Up with the ridiculousness
Of it all separate worlds
Put a wall there between
The worlds that make you
Want to be something
Do something with yourself
You lazy good for nothing
And the world that says
You are everything already
You don’t need to try
To become something
You are already everything
That is truly enough
Let go floating out
Into the atmosphere
Lasso the ozone of
Leaving our legendary
Marks behind
Just a few more steps
Before you pass the test
Complete the rest
Which is nothing
Made into something
Also possible by
Stacking rocks

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Stress

When someone pours their
Heart out to you
Show them some kind of sign
That you got it
The only way to get past the
Stress is to acknowledge it
And move on
Stop repeating the pattern
Own it in the moment
Five decades later
Still contemplating the truth
When you know it already
Listen to your body
Stop second guessing
To play this game with yourself
Is a special kind of torture
Out in the open
Stand up and call it
Perfect by nature
It will satisfy your want
A desire to be excellent
Not good
This kind of pressure
Cannot exist in a
Mediocre world
Today marks the day
No matter the time
No matter what comes
No matter what’s on the way
We stand for getting it right
In the moment
Stick to what you know
No need to experiment
With the lock when
You already have the key

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Climax

How could you
Be so flippant
With my heart
Archetype nebulous
Have I become derelict
No longer needed to be used
By anyone just a panache
Roadside waste
If nothing happens
Nothing to live for
Nothing to gain
Speak out loud about
The genuine pain
I found my apogee
Many cars waiting for
My happy return full
Of smiling faces that
Want to be with me
Peaking a climax
Allow me to elucidate
The feeling of love
Genuine care
Looking deep into my eyes
Is anyone there?
Anyone home to meet me
Where I’m at?
Anyone there?
Quiet porch swing vibes

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Oblivious

Can’t see me don’t know me
Oblivious to who I am and
What I need blind to my truth
Absorbed in your own needs
Blundering like a bull through
Life and everyone around you
Spacey unconscious and
Totally zonked whereas you’re
Forgetful to the point that
No one else matters and
Of course it’s sad
And of course we have
Compassion for this
But how do we survive
Around you when you’re
Out to lunch all the time
Negligent emotion waves
Goodbye to relevant
Feelings that are not your own
So no comment
What knavery!
All the strength and respect
Our connection embodied
You wrestled it to the ground
And killed it! Because
You would just think
All of us want more of you
When some of us
Need less

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Sixteen Percent

Packing and organizing things
After he left should I stay here
Or move to Florida I couldn’t yet
Figure the distance although
It seemed rational to do both
Perhaps a modicum of hope that
Would lead me to happiness
On both ends people most likely
Would wait but it’s a rhythm that
Is important to keep and he had
Somewhere to be by four o’clock

Someone said there was a snake
In the room at one time but he was
Only a pet I wasn’t sure if the truth
Was garbled but I kept picking up
The space knowing that at some point
I would either run into it or some
Remanent if it’s existence there

Underneath the table where
Not much has been cleaned for awhile
I found a couple of boxes of
Tissues practically full but had
Slid behind and so no one bothered to
Go under to retrieve them
There were soft cedar chips below
Which made me realize something
Had been under here but when
Or how long ago was unclear

It didn’t matter though I was
Having fun in this treasure trove
Of a place and the folks here wanted to
Do something about it but
No one had the motivation
So when he left we decided to
Dedicate a space of some
Of his belongings like a chapel
Or a living memoir or something else

And I could fly back and forth
From city to city living in
Both places it was just a matter
Of deciding whether to keep the
Old xerox machine that looked
Like it was some kind of
Makeshift table now
But upon moving it I realized
The decision wasn’t pertinent
Just yet

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Ensemble

De rigueur of attitude
And life lived is like preservation
Is there only so much time
A limited amount of space
Where there is nothing left
To share it has been spent
Every last drop expended
Only the end left and
A memory of the way we
Laughed and played
Together in the echoes
Of a burning heart
With our feet hanging over
The back porch and our
Eyes captivated by the
World around us
Of course the smiles in us
Is there nothing leftover
Or are we the ones
Who will keep it going
Even when their is
Nothing but an empty room
And the recollections
To haunt us or blanket us
In our dreams forever
How long should a
Friendship last?

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Déjà Vu

Is it jocose to think that
I could ask you not to
Dig a hole into me
Fight me
When I ask you for help

Fake dredging
Pretend sugar

Why
What for

Who are you really?

Emotional turmoil
Knowing you hurt me
When all I needed was help

My lord
Why do I help you
Why do I show up for a space
Where I feel disrespected
Unheard
Under appreciated

Pretend to catch me
Just to fall
Beneath the roots
No stability at all

Is there any escape
Will your ego rise up
To slap me in the face
Every time

Will you promise to do
What you didn’t before
And lie just to move on
Without having honor
Or accountability

Can you be a man
Of is it just a joke

Say whatever it takes to
Pass through the gates
Make excuses for your
Actions that do not
Match your words

Real care
Fake care
Where

Are you there
My soul is hungry
My heart is thirsty

You have drained me

Is it jocose to think that
I could ask you not to

Hurt me

Again

If you hurt me before
You will hurt me again

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