still

I had a dream last night
That I held you; scooped you up
While you were dying again
I watched you breathing slowly
I remember when your
Aptitude was faltering like this
Fading before my eyes
But still hanging onto
The breath of life
We find ourselves aching
From stress but keep moving
Of course I can’t really tell
But the shivers seem abnormal
I want to ignore the way that
You’re sleeping but
Maybe your heart is overworked
Some part of you is giving out?
I would never be ready
I’m not sure how to
Handle the exit approach
I saw you looking confused
Earlier today
So much to celebrate and then
Nothing is too great
If you’re gone
I could sing you a lullaby
Wake up alone
If I fall asleep will you still
Be there in the morning?

Solo

I loved so hard
So many
Did I give up or
Did I lose touch
Where did we go
Am I still alive
I can feel the end
But I’m still breathing
I thought I would be
Already gone a wisp
Not quite tortured
But my feeling of love
Has been completely
Torched now standing
Out of the line of fire
Save yourself
To be alone
Why do people say
They are always there
When in all actuality
They are not?
Is that what we call
Wishful thinking
Or is it just a lie

Hold Still

Am I too forthcoming
I swelter
Looking in one door
When you’re looking
Out the other
Like a vacation
Without you there

The sky, the light, the dark
A slipstream of fundamental
Uncertainty
Certainly you want to
Be here

My contemporary counterpart
Across all of time
Intoxicated helplessly
Restlessly divine
Always comforted
To discover you
Indirectly

From everything that
Cradles your body and spirit
If we live, we live
If we die, we die
Whether we live or die
We belong

Like the words to a song
Even to one that knows it well
And I can only wonder how much

Hereafter we will tell
Stories of the beauty
Of your laughter
Inscribing it
Peeking through the clouds
To find even a crooked path
To the foot
Of your door

Have I mislaid my steps
Hearth and heart
Across the space
Not too far apart

I know I’ll find you
Just hold still