Cōnstellātiō

I’m running what feels like
A big constellation
Over here keeping track
Of every part of my heart
Every element every star
Familiar with every point
Knowing where to go
I feel the location and sense of
All of the dots I’m connecting
Soul map self map major and minor
In the summation of my whole
All the working lines
Forming a picture pattern
Of my life particles assigned
Parts I have kept
Parts I’ve let go
Where I’ve set things down
Where I’ve strung things up
Asterisms that define
My existence as a whole
Hanging in the upper left corner
Of every day and time
Orienting the clusters
Of my home in the reflection
Of my eyes
Meaningful fragments
In the sky of my mind
In the celestial sphere
That combines
A set of stars a set of parts
For you to look upon
To observe them
And to guide if you look up
To the sky through the North Sea
Mountain wide
Head heart and divide

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Undying

Each day that passes by
I am reminded of the peace
I’m feeling free from wanting
To capture your attention
To feel important in your eyes
To be seen and heard for
Who I am and how much
I have loved you
I seem to think more clearly
With sidewalks beneath my feet
Dog at my side with my own thoughts
There is light passing through
The fall grain and moisture
On the grass like the dew that
Rests on my mind when I
Contemplate the abstract existence
Of being within all together
And detached separately apart
As myself an undying friend
Eternal flowers

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Fractured

In a dearth of supplies and
A day of bloopers I am
Reminded of the shape of you
In the creation of a perfume
I climb round the edge
Of the coldest cliff
Sharp mussels clinging
To the rocks and the
Bottoms of my feet
How did we meet
In a world that is so big
Even that we did the anomaly
Reminds me just how small we are
In the air the fragments
Of a scent I cannot
Seem to bottle but to describe it is the
Fragrance of a beating heart
The breath of a flower
And the tear of a cloud
Finding my way to the top
I pull myself up by the
Roots of a tree that found
It’s way out of the earth
And into the side of me left with
Nothing but the scratches on my skin
And the aroma of a new parfum
Fractured by the light
Healed by the gloom

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Halved

Crackling stars in the sky
Casting electronic light
Circulating leaving astrological
Questions pondering my parturition
Maybe I was meant to be a woman
But I’m not giving up my manhood
So I’ll be a domestic mouse
Not too demanding if you
Feed me cheese and peanut butter
Put a tuxedo on me and I’m actually
A man of good measure
Fought hard to be this boy
And even a garçon one might say
I can serve you up an ice cream
Before it all melts away
I’ll build things like shelves and
Sparks in your heart
Even hammer out belts
Put food on the table
Pull the sheets off make the bed
Take care of you always
It’s a woman’s work they say
No hill is too high
Warm up your blue
Dry the water in your eyes
Might be a man’s job too

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Du Tout

What does it mean
To stand alone?!
After many months, years or days
Of people pleasing
Or simply wanting to do right
By others and somehow
Left out feeling weaker
Than I was before
I think I finally found the strength
To stand beside myself
Knowing that
To be true to yourself
May leave one standing alone
But not without feeling
Stronger about the innate power of
Our own emotions shuttling through
Striking a chord of harmony
Warning us internally
Of what ultimately balances
The two halves of oneself
Into a convexity of dangling
That hangs inside a universe
Which has no linear relationship
To standing up together
Or alone at all

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Ossify

I’m doing such a good job keeping alive
It’s almost lonely
Bone strengthening
Some might say

Like calcium deposits

It’s tooth grinding the way you were
Baiting me with obituaries
How disgustingly coy

Projecting infantile rage
All over me in a figurative food fight
With spit and disdain
I can only say that
I don’t blame other people
For my shortcomings

If I should also have a death
Happen upon me I’ll remember
To reach out and apologize
For not being a good friend to you

I should like to return the favor

After all that love spent
You’ve left me ossified

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Solipsistic

Like walking through a bad dream
Looking for a partner or a good friend
In an underworld where only the self exists

Purloin my love
If you must pilfer my heart at all
Inalienable after all
With a history like hours
There’s no erasing

Beguilingly so

If there’s also nothing left
To give up on
I would not have kept trying to find you
In the weeds of time
With the sunlight
Woven over strands of your hair
In a window of possibilities
Or lack thereof

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Nest

White beard dark skin
I was supposed to have kids
What happened to that dream
Wake up another business
In my head the prophet said
Love one another maybe
Community is the answer
Not my own child but a
Caretaker to all
I saw the snow fall yesterday
On a mountain though
The town below was warming
From the sun I sweetened
My tea with love
Warmth against my lips
Both feet into the ground
Doesn’t feel like we’re missing out
In a soil of potential music
Crystals and folks are
Always feeling better
When the mandolin is playing
In the air and in the streams
Of collective consciousness
Colors are pervading anything that
Has been felt lost or forgotten
Fulfilled in a simple moment
That embraces every possibility
Even though the question stands
Why do seagulls sound
Like they’re crying?
Perhaps an empty nest

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Hence Why

Today I want a porch swing
A bottle of wine and
A cigarette with you
It might hang on me tomorrow
But today that’s what
I want with you
Been awhile since I had
A case of the cocktail flu
Rinse wash repeat

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Adulthood

We say more words when we do drugs
Don’t lob my heart or be absurd
I thought you might be my
Most consistent friend
You know my longest friend
Sort of like a sanctuary
Without the religious parts
Oh, just like one of those
Places you go to laugh eternally
Until your stomach hurts
And they have no order or rules
No effort or strain
For how to go about
Having a good time
Telling us how to live
Following some strict regime
Why did we have to grow up
Up up and away
We’d gotten on so well
Before we became adults
And here I am
Examining my own life

© GÄ