My Mum

Aggrandize the case scenario
What’s the point in having
A baby if you don’t want to
Love it after it grows up?
Sweep it under the rug
They say no one will know
The process of grieving
Coexisting walking along side you
Several states between us
I counted at least three
How many miles can I see?
Eighteen thousand and eight
Twenty six hours I-84 E to I-80 E
The absence of it is the same
As living with it being even
Equal to the desolate drudging
Saved up for the living nobody’s home
A phone call away yet
How would you know if you
Never sent a card never
Wrote a line never called to find
Out if l’m dead or if I’m alive
You couldn’t know
Could be afraid to find out so
You’d find out later like
A phone call from a coroner
Or a stranger dialing in
Somehow I suppose they’ll
Figure your location but I’m not sure
The approach
You are so independent
So self sufficient
I saved your number in
My phone as mom just in case
Make it easy to designate
Who to call if they found me
On the floor, who it is that you are?
Now that I am out of the nest
Many years have passed
Living my life and all the rest
You did your cuckoo’s best
Sending me along now I’m free to fly
Who cares where or why sing the song
The actions of how much you care
Seem to hang vacantly as we stare
Without your daily presence
No anger on my part
Filling forgiveness
Up from the heart
The only constant is
To know that you will go
You will disappear again
It’s difficult to be a mum I’m sure
Or even a friend I’ve heard in the end
You’ve done as good as you could
Although I wish you
To be what you would for a lot more
Thank you for your attendance
When you have had it to give
No reason to hold it against you
You gave me a life to live
Though I’m not sure you’d feel it
My life that is if I lost it
Even if I did

© GÄ

Sleep

More sleep the better to keep
A bear at bay in the cove
Midnight strolls along the cost
Feels good to know that there’s
A getaway a hiding out
A hibernation of sorts at least
Once a week more sleep
More sleep the better to keep
My wits about me like the
Bear at the beach with
Water to keep me grounded
O! The sound of an ocean
Curled up at the bottoms
Of my ears a tunnel an echo
Of hope to feel rested
A deep convalescence along
A sandy floor below the tide
To keep my slumber sweet
Before the shore fills up with
More to do a step away into
A grand span of restful wings
Thoughtful dreams subconsciously
A seagull sings to me my mew
Comfort in the song a chuckling
Display of careless blue
Freedom to the sky cannot deny
Liberty in waking moments
More to enjoy them like the
Birds and the bears when we
Sleep more sleep the better to keep
Our hearts in happy places
The brain is surely waisted
And says Hey! Thanks for nothing!
If we dare to care for less than
Fifty winks which beats the forty
You’ll see to cozy up a touch
Longer than a nap just after lunch
Cinquante clins d’œil
Is just the snap it takes
Aback appreciation to enjoy
All the dozing we should keep
Nothing does the trick like bears
To get some sleep

© GÄ

Old Friend

Wouldn’t it be easier to
Let me go than to randomly
Like posts that are
A million years old?
I don’t want this to be
Like jumping beans
In my head
Get out of my head
Should we
Smoke the peace pipe?
Is there anything we
Missed along the way?
Do we need to return
Anyway?
Should I proceed with caution
Yellow light traffic up ahead
Any kind of commotion
Is better instead of the
Memories I have of our
Last encounter
A lot of back and forth
About your being right
And me being stupid
(Too needy also that night)
Whatever you didn’t want
To deal with at the time
I try not to forget
Because forgetting is like
A quick shot into the
Mainline of pain
I’m almost there
I wish the friendship
Had a little something
More to behold
I mean…
Wouldn’t it be easier to
Let me go than to randomly
Like posts that are
A million years old?

© GÄ

Uplift It

Your enthusiasm is electric
Did somebody turn off my light
Change the perspective
Or am I really just
Boring as fuck
Did I pull the wool
Over my own eyes
Rug out from under my own feet
Peek through the blinders
No use for me even to cry out
If I thought that I got it
Then I brought what I wanted
If I show how I brought it
In the footsteps I’m walkin
Am I throwin up red flags
If I see that the way that
It plays out is the same as the day
That I caught up
With the way that I brought it
Did I turn all the lights out
Is the switch that I lost
On the wall where I left it
Then why not just expect it
Turn it back on don’t just forget it
Score it out lighten up so I won’t
Catch a network of feelings
I’ll find hard to neglect that
Turn the light on respect that
See the mess and say yes to the
Cease and desist in the distance
No need coexisting
Perfect pictures created
With no time being wasted
As myself I have faced it
And the look in my eyes
In the mirror I’m reflecting
Will begin to uplift it

© GÄ

Funny

Maybe I’m just not fun anymore
Isn’t that funny
One can only spend so much
To feel better about it all
Perhaps I’ve misread the
Situation
It’s not like baseball
Just so many innings
So many strikes and you’re out
It’s more like every day
Who knows how it’s gonna go
Not like you’re waiting to
Find out if it’s gonna be a duel
Misreading the moment
Hair slicked back do we draw?
It doesn’t pay not to show up
On the other hand
What are we missing
Maybe a trip to Iceland
Could be somewhere else
The magic could be
Hidden under the dust
On the coffee table somewhere
It would make it a lot easier
If the answer to all of this
Was there
Wouldn’t that be funny

© GÄ

Dead or Alive

Behind the broken clouds
The moon resumes a light
Deep within the woods
Underneath the sky
The underbelly coat of the wolf
Throws us out into the crosshairs
Aiming fearfully taking shots
Descending to the lake
I rest my head to think up thoughts
Of how to be clear in the moment
Not rushing out to the sea
The night birds chirping
Chatting up the frogs to sing
The dawn is cooing round
A corner where the sun
Will soon ignite along the edge
Mirrored pool at the base
Of every tree that looks upon
All the shadows that will be blankets
Resting over sticks and bones
Home to old residential thrones
Nothing is definite in this world
Where there is success
There is surely demise
And who draws the lines?
Obviously these are lies
Who says that rock is on our side
Who declares that the earth
Belongs to any of us
Dead or alive

© GÄ

Former Friend

If still we lack a reason
To appreciate what’s given
The only sadness I would know
Is how not to go on living

For everything our friendship lacks
Our care says so much more
Than to let the spirit
Of an amazing connection shared
Float out beneath the door

© GÄ

Entrance

Did you think that I’d forget?
I cannot solve the insolation
You are the only proof
That I could not prepare my heart
For your sunny entrance
Nor could my intuition
Protect me

© GÄ

Get Here

Our heartbeats are contiguous
Drumming in the alchemy
Of our love as it’s floating up
I dreamt I woke up with
Your bare foot on my face
À l’envers somehow twisted
Reversed on the other end
Of the bed I’m laughing in a moment
Or two before my conscious shakes me
Awake to realize you aren’t here
I tugged at my ear maybe
To make sure it was still attached
Or just to rouse out some
Form of clarity trapped in the
Misty interim of lucid fog
While your scent still hangs
In the dark and silent air
How can your cologne still be here
Like a favorite sweatshirt
I stole from you or even begged
For you to leave for me to breathe
Would you be pleased to know
I’ve missed you this much
Even though we’ve never met
There is a rose on the window sill
That I keep swapping out
Freshly new a different hue
Until you get here

© GÄ