Meaning

Maybe I’m keeping
A broken dream alive
What veracity!
Ode to truthful pleasures
The exterior is pristine

I think you would be proud
Of what I’ve become
And
What I’ve done

Garden flat
All though you may never have
Really cared about that

Neighbors said they
Liked the flowers
The garden is my sanctity
Does it also count
If it’s only me?

Attraction
Connection
Companionship
Something to do it for
An us factor to share
Are we holding onto
An idea for something

They were all contending
For his attention and love
But in the end none of them
Truly adored him

It was a trophy
Something to win
Someone could say
I got him!

What would it mean to
Genuinely love him

Parts

I cried so much last night

I’m taking myself back
All the good parts
That I built up but then lost
I did them for you
Now I’ll do them for me!

Bring back the parts that I
Manufactured in the hope
That it would mean more for us

A disciplined construction in a
Scaffolding of emotional security
That will mean something for me

All of the experiences I wanted
To have for us but were impossible
Could be had even without you

My life is not on hold
A spirit that’s beautifully different
Must fly even without validation

The price we pay to leave the
Best parts of ourselves behind
Is an arm and a leg

Delicious delivery
From mortifications
Otherwise displayed as
Exceptionally fun times
No longer cluttered and shrouded
I don’t watch murder shows
Because I don’t feel like dying
Word’s crisscrossed in my mind
When I’m dead these letters
Will carry more meaning
A heart held up to the sky
The sun is like silk fabric
On my face in where to find a
Beautiful delicious delivery
Of sweet light with my
Head resting in a bed
Of Queen Anne’s lace
Undefined by the apparent
Life in a gorgeous mystery

Seeking

Calling something bad
Isn’t going to make it good
Just like writing the word
Meaningful down and expecting
It to naturally
Somehow have meaning
On its own
Could be enough
You make it bad
You make it good
You give words the power
To have meaning
How can dreaming of
Being remarkable be more
Than just that
A dream
It’s hard to find a sense of
What life is possible to be
If not surrounded by
Voices that encourage
Us to stretch
Controversy mixed with
Antidisestablishmentarianism
Is there complacency in
Contemporary clashing
Or have we lost our will
To catch passion