Poem – Page 11 – Poétique

Palaver

Throwback to both
Immediately and momentarily
I was in control only because
I knew not to be actually
Pretty damn close to where
I was supposed to be
All my memories are here
Tucked inside my favorite
Pillow for the best sleep

What verdant dreams
Why do I feel without you
That I am lonely
Is this a message
That is only
A case of your love

My love for you is ready
To describe the most
Important thing it sees

In my eyes, your eyes, you rise
Cover me so sweetly
That I won’t get out of bed
Now how to tell you
I don’t want to be anywhere else

A place in my mind
I wait for you to find

Cozen

An overt covert mission
Lighter thief and alien chief
Salty lips with tight grips
A blissful glacier cycling
In order to retrieve clarity
From ignorance peacefully
Lying solely in our ability
To do so between we annoy
We revolt and we cannot see
Hire a martian to do the work
Pillow perfect dilute the
Experiment in a sandbox of
Soft explosions and
Scraped up knees play
In the court of existence
Open the galaxie’s mouth
Sleepwalking through the gate
Each promise stands to
Create a coincidence
Safety strategy
Trickery effectively
Express your importance
Treasure those that treasure you
UFO’s the heart can feel
Fly above your head appeal
Thumping in your chest
Dialectical dressings
Lights you don’t remember
Choosing left

Foyer

Questioning his behavior
He ran down the back stairs
To burn all of his leftover
Belongings in the fire pit
Outback closer to the ground
With the fish near the pond

An appetite for connection
Holding back the curse words
Fat chance for finding his way
Back up the stairs after
Years of caring with
Passion and fatigue

Tattoo me vividly across the wall
Take back love take back
The gifts in the eyes of failed
Spells and private alchemy

Blood before me
How many times was he
Dreaming as a child
Headrest on a turntable
When will love become
A fact of the matter

Is fated anesthesia just a
Casual experience or a
Basis for physical exhalation
Who’s the designated driver
Anyway?

Strolling to the gas station
Another bottle of liquor
Quickly no, quicker
Before we fall down
And our legs buckle out

Would anyone know
Loving someone so much
Could be so expensive
Before they signed up for
Aspects of what appeared to be
An indestructible flame

Too persistent to resist
What comes within us
Ascending that consciousness
And all the birds of tension
In the world flying
Off his chest

Gein-za

Confucianismes love
Beyond the family there is
A lifelong journey
A certain…
Wherewithal

Undoubtedly we
Wish to carry with us
One greater goodness
Without themes of life
Bearing witness to our
Unforgettable scars
Bleeding internally
From the heart

Homesick, lovesick
Wanted only by ourselves
In the memory of needing

Stamping away at the ground
A perfect sun outlined
In the tacky edges of
A magnetic appeal
Forcing the heavy lids
To erode and rise against
Bitterness

I’ve hoped to catch the moon
In a yellow river of grief
Woven together in rippled
Sacrificial numbers of disunity
Maroon prophesies
Dripping from my lips
And ancient light
Echoing from
Our wrists

Celebrate the basis
For a lifetime lived
Friends departed
One final kiss

Muditā

If I lived up to the
Loss of what everyone
Wanted to replace this with
I would have been
A miraculous man lest
My bones are sore
Perhaps I entangled myself
Beyond unraveling

Just like the canary
Singing at night
For the first time
Heart opened wide
Willing to share what
Wasn’t known in vulnerable
Moments enchanted by
A certain muditā

Altruistic joy
You share with me
What I feel too belongs to you
And to us a countess to
Compassion

Say what you mean
To mean what you say
Twenty seven minutes later
And we’re still arriving
In our favorite place
Together residing
In the other

Torpor

Ennoble my depth
Did you think I would send
You away?

Heartbreak immaculate

Jeopardize our everything
Knowing your worth
A heart full of historical
Love?

Just to give you a chance
To enter the Sagrada Familia
With peace in your heart
Calm soul

Farrago I would never
Want to let you go
Call me back into the bed
Meditation in my head

Hold me down begging
Myself never to ever
How to leave you
Let you go

Parting ways was
A deepest sorrow
Every tomorrow
Is fully missed
Without your
Kiss

Did I give you the
Best send off
Receive the request
Correctly?

I held you close
Even down to bones
And strong we were
Holding on
Emboldened by
Our love

When to know the right
Time is never knowing

Honoring the moment
I am empty full of
The most beautiful
Memories that only
You could gift me

Selfling

She took it upon herself to
Make it painful for the rest of us
A priority and a duty
To disturb the peace
It brought her joy
To purely destroy

This one wouldn’t tell me
Anything on her own
I had to catch her
In the act

Her secret life
Didn’t include me
Although I told her
Everything

Kiss her head and
Off to bed is
Poetry in motion

Ending of a dark period
After one year long
Self imposed restrictions
Waking up bathed in
Self confident permissions

Ready

You make me feel like
You see what I do as important
Like I’m smart or something
How do you do that?
Not giving everything up
One breath at a time
I can taste our future
It’s hard to believe

Apologia if I sound unrealistic
I always wanted to be more
Interesting than I am
I’m not absent of confidence
Just wanted to grow up
In Greece or France
Speak a second language
Fluently not bits and pieces
Not levels to herald but flow

I was taught to be happy
With what we’ve got
That’s the spot
This whole capitalist shit
Is not where it’s at
It’s in the beating heart
Of your smile
In the moment that I
Tell you that you’re beautiful
And you receive it

That’s the magic
I want to wake up to everyday
That’s the potion
I want to drink
That’s the weed
I want to smoke
That’s all the drugs
That I need
That’s your love

Distortion

I feel weird today
Very strange like I
Just woke up from a
Full night of drugs
But I don’t do any drugs
So if this is how it feels anyway
Then maybe I should

What’s the trade off?
How to go on fueling inspiration
How important is the truth
Upfront it’s much more interesting
To just go along with everything
If you really want to get to know
The person inside you’ll
Find out later

What’s the truth?
Even if we speak the truth-

Does anyone give a shit
About honesty until they
Really know you

And even then
How much do they
Truly care?

I read graffiti
On a dumpster today
SPEAK TRUTH

If you ever find a way
To get out of the system
I’ll follow you there

Bigger

I loved this about us
A vibe that was undeniable
No need to test the waters
Curiosity in my lap
We had it all
No looking back

In obeisance I bow down to you
To remind me of the good
All things beautiful like a flower
I drop my chin to the ground
In the glory of your morning

Retrospecting back at life I am
Honored to be in your inspiration
Blue eyes he said
She recalls your flamboyant
Nature floating around
Speaking your heart

What paucity are we weaving
In and out of these smaller than
Grand scheme moments
In one lifetime, one timeline
Did I wake you?

Did I give up on love?
Did we less it up?
Or was it the safest thing to do
Can it be bigger?

I miss how you loved me
Even though we were broken
I still dream about you
And what we once always knew
Oh, how we wanted together