She took it upon herself to
Make it painful for the rest of us
A priority and a duty
To disturb the peace
It brought her joy
To purely destroy
This one wouldn’t tell me
Anything on her own
I had to catch her
In the act
Her secret life
Didn’t include me
Although I told her
Everything
Kiss her head and
Off to bed is
Poetry in motion
Ending of a dark period
After one year long
Self imposed restrictions
Waking up bathed in
Self confident permissions
© GÄ
It felt like a test
As if she was waiting
For me to react to see
If how she behaved
Was still worthy of my love
She knew better
But she pretended not to
Or at least it looked like
She was pretending
Maybe she wasn’t
Playing dumb
Bodily strength was
Held onto by some
Mental grasp for reality
That lost hold of
Everything else
Crying for what was no longer
Yearning for separation
To finally embrace peace
To say goodbye is not enough
Leftover plates full of pain
And sanity is everything
To gain
I remember wanting this
Planning a trip to Egypt
And falling short of all fear
Of expecting to hide in a tomb
If she brought her behaviors with her
For what is missed is what
Was wanted
For what is kissed is what
Is goodbye
Also good luck is bad luck
Solitary confinement
Played out by what is
No longer needed
When all you wanted
Was to be needed
And he moves through his life
As he is free and he is chained
And he is free again
Better than he was before
But later than earlier
And now present fusion
Scratching at tomorrow
We are so much life
We can live again
The way we were before
As we are now
Before he was distraught
© GÄ
Holding onto a broken dream
Mêlée générale
Is it Mary Joseph and the baby
What is the grand divorce
What chaos for us does it
Create?
Do we separate from ourselves
When our donors drive the wedge
Bust the distance
Crack the Kintsugi again
What we hold
What we let go
Upside down goodbyes
Are we left
Longing for the unit
An unknown ending
That gives us the ability
To believe nothing will work out
In the end so we
Abandon all our ships
Before they reach the shore
Conversation with a dog
Is more trustworthy
Companionship with
A bird is reliable
Even a cat who loves you
Half the time is
Sure to stay
And love you more
Left over bits
Targets for emptiness
And discrepancies
What is this
A search for
Reconnection to
A single super continent
Three becomes one
On their own
© GÄ
When you find your place
It’s like hope is accepted
Inside of you the machine
Is finally running smoothly
Closer to the equivalent
Of being found
Further from lost
And the dogs that
Are intimidating you
Are playful and welcome
You’re at ground level
Closer to lions and the
Cubs are your companions
And you feel safe in their
Keep and affection
For the unsettled feeling
That comprises your surety
Is the comfort that makes
You feel protected and replete
It is the natch of your
Existence to find a way
To embrace what is truly
There for you to embrace
Like a second part of you
That understands how you feel
More than just the flesh of
Another but an untouchable ether
Existence that can hear and
Receive you in a way that
Affirms your greatness
Defines your worthiness
Completes your whole
© GÄ
I kissed my opportunity with her
Grabbed her by the waste
And embraced her
I did that right but I didn’t know how to
Follow up to know and trust
That she felt the same
I blushed
I should’ve been stronger
I wasn’t strong enough…
I wasn’t strong enough to hold her
I couldn’t even stand up to
Stop the emotions that
Wanted to kidnap
Our only moment
No star is strong enough
To wish upon
Sanity is worth everything
I’m more awakened
By the absence
Of ignorance
Knit the sweater
Hook the blanket
Weave the security
Into your own fibers
What does it mean
To do it for yourself
Face against the asphalt
No other way to turn
No more tequila
Just the whole self
Completing the sound
© GÄ
I’m taking my shot back
At myself
At the stars feeling nudged
By the afterlife silently
Pushing pressing whispering go
Like a shout in my head
An electric shock to the brain
I can feel it in my bones
In the wheat beneath my feet
In the grains
Take your body back
And make it better than it was before
Take your mind back
And make it better than it was before
Take your soul back
And make it better than it was before
I remember you
Everything you did
You have to keep living
It’s all yours to have
On a path of loneliness
Or filled with a million friends
It’s all irrelevant
Just take yourself back
It’s all you have
Pulsating
The sun is rising in your heart again
The algorithm is setting in your hippocampus
Can you feel the rest of yourself rising
Taking every risk
A pillar of satisfaction
A fascinating stretch
A universal length
I’m not giving up on
This body {ANGEL}
This mind {DEVIL}
This soul {HUMAN}
A trilogy of stories
My muscles are telling
My fancy footwork is selling
A juggling act of kindness
And respect for humanity
Especially now when so many
People feel themselves
Falling part
Take yourself back
Pull the trigger
Shoot for the inner galaxy
Dusted diamonds
© GÄ
I forgot before I knew
I’m not shaped by what
Anyone else thinks about me
Do you agree?
Have you ever noticed how
People don’t listen when
They think they know
What you’re going to say?
Made me want to write a letter
It read: Dear So and So
I am not satisfied with
The way things turned out
But I still love you very much
Perhaps it’s not our destiny
To live together at this point
In our lives
Thank you for everything
I realized later it was a note to self
To feel like he left a message
For himself when he got there later
Individual realities to relate to the whole
In a philosophical dream I heard
A voice say:
We are more susceptible to the answer
When we are not confused by it’s question
We are more flexible in our response
To things when we illuminate the hard wiring
A green and yellow bird flew into the room
Fluent in Greek he said:
Being effected unconsciously
By those emotionally limits
The choice to consciously understand
His heart echoed back
“It is impractical to succeed
When we choose not to!”
Hanging on tightly to trees
Growing perpendicular
To the mountain
By allowing the choice
Not to is to be made
For us only by ourselves
The silence afterward
Could only be a lie
The hesitancy to react
Was his giant pink tongue
Licking the ground with
Wise salivation
© GÄ
Most people don’t understand my intensity
To be a fly on the wall where two people
Talk about you privately so you can
Discover your own truth
Away from the things that they
Are unwilling to say to your face
To protect your feelings
Or keep you from benefiting
From yourself; tell me
The message today is don’t give up
Choked up by the strains
It’s harder in your brain than it is in real life
Drubbing along without awareness
For the future blunders
Because how can we know
And you wake up and there’s
Another smack down
And what seems insurmountable
Is the next thing that you accomplish
That’s the turnaround
Even people that don’t move out of place
Can find tragedy knocking
On their doors blind or otherwise
Inhibited in some way
Poor underbrush burning
Like a campfire in the spring
Throw some self resentment
Onto the flames and turn the volume up
Perhaps there is a way to figure
It all out before the final clock ticks
Verdant green branches
Holding out for the lesser things
Are also supporting the cryptic rhapsody’s
That tug away at our heartstrings
And beg forgiveness for simply being
I can’t remember exactly what she said
Only that there’s more to life than this!
© GÄ
Why do I take a beautiful moment
And make it less because I didn’t do more
Do I have to be aware of what I
Haven’t done as if my body knows
I’m giving up on a moment just
To settle the score with it
Alternately missed at being special
Just as it is. A remarkable thing.
Work until I die that’s the vibe
Why sit around in one place
My spirit was not built like this
Beating at the drum of
Yourself because to do more is better
A tally is kept and you remember
You forgot something or did it
Incorrectly I’d rather celebrate the
Accomplishments of getting to
Where we are now because
There will be discouraging
Even seemingly evil hurtles
Along the road to wake up to
Everyday what I could’ve done
Is a crime that supersedes
The purpose of what most would
Hope to acknowledge as
A meaningful existence
© GÄ
Like walking through a bad dream
Looking for a partner or a good friend
In an underworld where only the self exists
Purloin my love
If you must pilfer my heart at all
Inalienable after all
With a history like hours
There’s no erasing
Beguilingly so
If there’s also nothing left
To give up on
I would not have kept trying to find you
In the weeds of time
With the sunlight
Woven over strands of your hair
In a window of possibilities
Or lack thereof
© GÄ
Poétique 