Construction

Once you have been hit
You no longer know what
It is like not to protect yourself
Once you have taken a bottle
You never know what
It is like not to be drunk
Is it better to know
Or to live a life of unknowing?
Let’s play a game of I’d rather
Then we can truly find out
A place where we can
Hear our own thoughts
It’s unlikely that I would
Operate a crane but if I
Measured the wind speed
And the weight capacity of
My emotions I think the memories
Would all collapse
Is there a priest in the room
That could offer a holy moment
A friend to lock eyes with
I have a feeling if the water
Was dark enough to cover up
The guilt of mistaken plots almost
Everyone would agree to
Keep it a secret
Is there any reason to believe
That loving a different way will
Bring back the beginning
So we can start over again?

© GÄ

Échafauder

Ill ne baba je I kept repeating
What’s wrong with your father
When everything makes you sick
You see the weakest dog in the pack
Being attacked you want to protect
Them like other dogs may want to rescue
The weakest one stays calm so
They do not hurt him and the crazy
Lady of the neighborhood should be
The one who is protecting her own
But she cannot even protect herself
From the man she has bedded down
With because he is the one who enslaves her
But her story was a great one once she
Is actually an inspiration and an angel
And her life went a different direction
So the rejected become again we too
Were also amazing and then we are
Discarded doves lain on the wayside
Even to ourselves and we must remind
Our inner guide to kick ourselves up
To get out of the sewer that rips the gold
Of life out of your gut that makes you ill
Ill ne baba je she said, very interesting
Everything makes you sick?
The woman repeated at the table
And the broken records still can play
They don’t have to be perfect
They can still make music but you want
To throw them away as your eyes lose the light
Like the light in the eyes of a child
When we are most tired exhausted spirits
We still have to fight to be good
It’s like eating fire even when you don’t
Want to feel good to remember
He’s not going to go
Do you protect the father you don’t know?
So what is your father?
How do you know if you are good
When you are a fatherless child
Moth in the water

© GÄ

Morning Muse

A cool morning so brisk
Walk upon my yesterday and the
Shattered expectations are like
Frosty glass over the ground
A quiet stroll in canopies dark
Keeps peaceful moments
On the brow if to believe
Having alone time is a thing
On an earth filled with so many
We have to catch a place
Where we can commune
With the stars and with the moon
Find our logic that is buried
Deep beneath the noise and
Chatter of a daily grind
The lip of the horizon
Is burning pink where the sun
Has come to consummate
Today which was tomorrow
I kissed the pillow half an hour
Before I woke and thanked you
For being here even though
You are a shadow of my dream
You smiled and held me like
A vapor betwixt in sleep and
Cradled thoughts
I’m not completely resolute
On who you are

© GÄ

Délicieux

Over you over me
Onto the next ecstasy
Creating new souvenirs
Cheeks in pain smiling
With possibilities and the
Hate is oozing off of me
My stomach hurts from
Laughing so hard and I
Could almost die from the
Release is this what
Tears of joy feel like?
No more lies and finally
Free from the pretending to
Love me like you said
There’s more hope in the
Room then there is space
To breathe I can’t believe
I couldn’t see it before
I just forgot about the message
Experimental music on the
Greyhound and poetry
Living without you is
Encore plus délicieux

© GÄ

Selfish

The intransigent woman was
Selfish in her plays and so the
Boy made sure to get out
Of her way he didn’t have
Whatever it was that she needed
The most beautiful girl
In the world to herself
At the time the rain was falling
Most would find her behavior
Exceptionally appalling but to
Sit and drink tea with the enemy
Seemed quite natural for to find
A clever moment to reside
In some personal protected space
Made room for manners and
Insatiable grace that could not
Be found by blowing his top
The leaves covered the trees
In what seemed like the reddest
Fire burning louder and brighter
Than any pain or discomfort
Could protest and at the beauty
To remark and gaze upon reminds
One of how short life has become
Water dripped down from the roof
Onto the ledge and then again
Upon his forehead and the ground
Shook beneath his feet in what was
The greatest understanding for
What to behold in this life is
More beautiful more gorgeous than
Any willfulness to battle with
A girl who is drowning
In her world and of her needs
Whose lips were burning to kiss
And make out with herself
There must be more to life
Than just to be concerned
With your own wealth
Maybe I gave too much

© GÄ

Weightless

After a far less harmless
Defenestration of rejection
With cause for expulsion
My heartbeat became brighter
Less drag from the snag
Of past emotional bagage
The chest and shoulders
Stand much taller
The inspiration explodes
A new beginning for windows
On a familiar old path
Which is the innate step
We are each born with
I look away from stagnant
Poise and ponder my greatest
Moment for escape
Batten down the hatches
And eject my best self into
A catapult of revelation
Who needs the weight?

© GÄ

Smashed

The only way to love you
Is to never need you
And when I don’t want you
I can love you all the time
What a delectable compromise
You’re a bad influence
A hard habit to break
But once the spell is broken
Oh how much better we feel
I broke dirt in the ground
Planted a tree I was nursing
For three years long
And then suddenly one day
It was time, I could have
Never known that it was
All for this crushed splintered smash
To let go to find bliss
To agree that photographs
Will be enough to reminisce
About you and what solid flat earth
A beautiful path
The sapling almost
Did not want to come
At first the clay all fell away
The terre was dry and crumbly
But I confronted it
From all sides and with
Sore arms and bright eyes
I scooped you up and
Walked you out into better company
To remind me of the company
I should also keep
Many trees to look up to a forêt
Many fellow conifers to inspire
And the space around is wide
I will stand along side
I am to record a file a testament
To our growth in the mourning
Of the loss of our bad influence
Where our roots can grow strong
Oh how much better we feel
But once the spell is broken

© GÄ

Inside

Separate heart from head
As long as you have to
When you carry a weapon
You’re not being a happy person
You’re looking to protect yourself
Or get into something
For my own sanity
I step back into the light
Take back broken pieces
Of my soul welding them fast
Burning them bright
Is it ridiculous to think that
We could find peace
Anywhere else than
Standing at the edge of a wishing well?
The story that I write
The history that I live to tell
Says farewell to the backside
Of impoverished heartbeats
As the leaves are turning
So is my body and the
Welfare of my nature
Internal song is a personal lyric

© GÄ

Anywhere

If I had stayed in Texas
Would you have stayed too?
Did you want me to grow up there
Or did you want me to hang on
Because you were my mom
For me everything pushed
Against me and out of the way
Questioning my sexuality
Fighting most of my life
Never giving up ready for every
Conflict that came my way
I am more taciturn these days
Less interest in fighting for
Peace more interesting to find it
Done and dusted on investing
Deep emotional feelings where
They end up in a muddy
Unwanted swamp for no one to care
I can’t see past my nose any longer
To argue with the neighbor
To beg you to come back
To fight for a space that already
Belongs to me if we’re abrasive
All the time when do we stop to enjoy?
What’s the ploy to gain power
Or advantage of myself
If already having it leaves no need to
Live a life of defending it every day
It feels like I’m being led down
Some medieval path that is
Forcing me to draw my sword
I’m pleading for peace and a place
On the earth where others can
Reflect upon and enjoy it with me
It could be anywhere at this point

© GÄ

Shy

Doesn’t matter if you follow
Every step everything correct
There is no perfect yes
One plus one does not
Always equal two in life
A sure fire guarantee is that
We can depend on inconsistency
The coruscating path is
Checkered with light up
Disco tiles no one can resist
Mother Nature has a way
Chaotic tendencies persist
Sometimes you need a nothing day
A do whatever day
A pick tomatoes day
A harvest your thoughts day
Looking into your eyes
From behind the counter
Your smile took my breath away
Only a few minutes longer
And I lose my mind
From overthinking
What I could have said
I’m bad at this
Maybe next time

© GÄ