freedom – Poétique

Antithetical

He loves the contrary
Adores the mess
Embraces the ugly
And dances with it
In the darkness

What a deeply murky soul
Delighted in the bleak
Chaos catalyst
Shake you off

Do your worst before the devil
Call the corners to your sad
Let me go let me run
Sliding out of your
Twilight zone

Free from wonder
If you care pretender
Your lack of empathy
Listless enthusiasm
No more chains
Free from you

When you shine
People try to dim your light
Suffocating the glow
With their insecurities

Short distance
Free of you I run

Courage, Justice
Temperance
Practical Wisdom
Restore the flow
Show Who’s Who
In life
Sometimes We Win
Sometimes We Lose
As long as you have
Done your best
There is literally
Nothing Else
That Can Be Done
Therefore, Feel Peace
About the effort
Accept the result
With equanimity
Mental and emotional
Stability and composure
Especially under stress
Or tension
General calm
Yet and still
If the result is good
Don’t become
Arrogant or conceited
It could always
Go the other way
Easily
Slip and fall
Crack your head open
Pulling your teeth out
In distress
If the result is bad
Don’t let it effect
Your sense of
Self-Worth
It’s the idea
Of what really is
Truly yours
And what isn’t
Achievement of Ataraxia
An inner tranquility
Resulting from knowledge
You have done everything
It was in your
Power to do
Let the chips fall
Where they may

Facetious

Now that I have enough money
I don’t need you anymore she said

We relocated and she was secure
She took me to a few places that were
Familiar to her and expected me
To fly out of town

But I decided to stay

There were also temples all around
Reminded me of Thailand
From one end of the street
To the other and a new
Dog companion I thought

I could live here

I can find a place
I too have enough money now
So really we were both waiting
On one another to become
Financially sufficient

The dog was happier with me
The apartment they were living in
Was really too many floors up
We needed ground level
Something more about him
Not them

I went on the hunt for the new place
The sun wasn’t out quite yet
But it was still light

We made it back to the mall
Where her new job was
Fancy taking care of rich children
They needed love too

But the rules were stricter
I didn’t know how to love you either
She said something like
Your brother said

I want you to be happy now

Avowal

I wanted freedom and validation
She gave me both of those
Even with the kiss of goodbye
To a boy who would have been
Lucky enough to receive one
At all but she gave me that
And freedom and validation
Through all of that she gave me
Peace and confidence when
I had nothing to hold onto
Even if it was temporary or
Just a blip in time she shared
That part of what it means
To embrace myself and the
Worth of a thousand horses
Running wild treasuring
Their hooves of independence
On the earth like sunlit mirth
On their backs I can see myself
I can hear myself and feel
What it is to be inside myself
Again for the first time
In a long time again

Alone

Alone and detached
A solitary fellow
Typically good at privacy
Am I a tower of a person
What does that amount to?
Like a skyscraper
No one can reach the top of
I just wanted you
To be nice to me consistently
Crazy provenance
Broken reality
How exhausting but also
What liberty!
What freedom!
What destiny to reveal
My greatest ecstasy
The heirloom to a story
My body has yet to tell

New

This isn’t reversible
Lover beware
Broken in so many places
Try not to stare
At my vulnerabilities
Callousness despair
Inhibit your cruelty
When you take down your hair
Find a new way to scout
To shout out
About yourself
Don’t take away my birthday
Just out of curiosity
Did someone neglect you
Forget to protect you
We will no longer need to
Pretend that you care
Wish for what we cannot be
I am dancing in my liberty
No longer detest that I’m invading
You when I call
Don’t have to think about it
At all
Boundaries
Fuck the boundaries
I’m ready to meet somebody new
And uncover a mountain of love
Uncover a mountain of truth
With me would you
If you care for love
If you care for intimacy
Heart shattering ecstasy
Position yourself
In close proximity to my energy
Remembering please
Allegations of interest are waisted
In ambivalent spaces

Another Day

Jealousy or truth
If you like dessert
Desire to peruse
To find your way
Across the floor
To then behold the nearest spoon
I’ve made the sweetest
Honey dust just for you

Oh manipulation
Undefined a simpler way
Of saying thank you
To you for pleasanter times

For all the everything
Each casual nothing
All is forgiven
Clocks unwind
Nothing needless be returned
We both know
The greatest gift
Will always be
In the reflection
Of the mirror to
Our freedoms

Light the candle
Not to betray but to
Accelerate the fire
Of a burning cirque de soleil
For each warm color
Juggled out through the
Window on display
Is not with doubt
But hope for giving
Up the trapeze
Flight midway

A lesson left in letting go
Not holding on
For what is gone
Another day

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