Contrabass

A tremendous amount
Of accountability one can almost
Hear it ringing across the chasm
A coulee calls back
Reeling

“Just live your life!”
Who cares?
Write it down
Stick it in an envelope
Lick it and seal it
Over the pond across the globe

Pick me up
Set me back down
My heads on fire
About to blow really

Do everything right
Still get it wrong

Do it wrong
Maybe get closer

She’s shrieking out on edge
Storming down the door
Time can’t get it back
Counter clockwise old school
Headlights in his eyes

Fight and torment till we die
Look under the hood
See if he can find anything good
Against the odds

Barrel back or don’t
Maybe an instrument to
Activate her voice
Loud louder loudest

Miss the kiss just a wish
To find hisself again
Saturday night almost
Lights out but stay up late to
Make up for the wait
Work work work
That’s all we do

Screw the rules
List writer box checker
Doesn’t go according to plan
Whatever man
Did everything he can
No follow through at the end
Makes for a tall glass of
What the shit is wrong with you
Again and again let it go
Amen

© GÄ

Labile

Easily altered his mind was
Tinkered with over time and
In the end he couldn’t remember
What really happened and
What didn’t ineffectual

Just to be loved and cared for
Turned into what can you
Give me do for me work for me

Nobody told me that what
You experienced was war the
Opposite of love

Meant for Hollywood
Born in the woods
Not much to write home about
Talented kid

Where did the rest of it go
All the good for nothing but stone

We had friendship
Somehow forgotten
We hand kinship
All of that vanquished
By the darkness

That couldn’t love what
That couldn’t accept
That wanted the worst
For the rest of us

And he woke up smiling
Remembering a different time
Washed over by forgiveness
In a way that no one needed to
Discover remission
Uncover compassion
Disasters of a plague

Family can do that
That’s why we make friends

© GÄ

Palaver

Throwback to both
Immediately and momentarily
I was in control only because
I knew not to be actually
Pretty damn close to where
I was supposed to be
All my memories are here
Tucked inside my favorite
Pillow for the best sleep

What verdant dreams
Why do I feel without you
That I am lonely
Is this a message
That is only
A case of your love

My love for you is ready
To describe the most
Important thing it sees

In my eyes, your eyes, you rise
Cover me so sweetly
That I won’t get out of bed
Now how to tell you
I don’t want to be anywhere else

A place in my mind
I wait for you to find

© GÄ

Foyer

Questioning his behavior
He ran down the back stairs
To burn all of his leftover
Belongings in the fire pit
Outback closer to the ground
With the fish near the pond

An appetite for connection
Holding back the curse words
Fat chance for finding his way
Back up the stairs after
Years of caring with
Passion and fatigue

Tattoo me vividly across the wall
Take back love take back
The gifts in the eyes of failed
Spells and private alchemy

Blood before me
How many times was he
Dreaming as a child
Headrest on a turntable
When will love become
A fact of the matter

Is fated anesthesia just a
Casual experience or a
Basis for physical exhalation
Who’s the designated driver
Anyway?

Strolling to the gas station
Another bottle of liquor
Quickly no, quicker
Before we fall down
And our legs buckle out

Would anyone know
Loving someone so much
Could be so expensive
Before they signed up for
Aspects of what appeared to be
An indestructible flame

Too persistent to resist
What comes within us
Ascending that consciousness
And all the birds of tension
In the world flying
Off his chest

© GÄ

Muditā

If I lived up to the
Loss of what everyone
Wanted to replace this with
I would have been
A miraculous man lest
My bones are sore
Perhaps I entangled myself
Beyond unraveling

Just like the canary
Singing at night
For the first time
Heart opened wide
Willing to share what
Wasn’t known in vulnerable
Moments enchanted by
A certain muditā

Altruistic joy
You share with me
What I feel too belongs to you
And to us a countess to
Compassion

Say what you mean
To mean what you say
Twenty seven minutes later
And we’re still arriving
In our favorite place
Together residing
In the other

© GÄ

Selfling

She took it upon herself to
Make it painful for the rest of us
A priority and a duty
To disturb the peace
It brought her joy
To purely destroy

This one wouldn’t tell me
Anything on her own
I had to catch her
In the act

Her secret life
Didn’t include me
Although I told her
Everything

Kiss her head and
Off to bed is
Poetry in motion

Ending of a dark period
After one year long
Self imposed restrictions
Waking up bathed in
Self confident permissions

© GÄ

Ready

You make me feel like
You see what I do as important
Like I’m smart or something
How do you do that?
Not giving everything up
One breath at a time
I can taste our future
It’s hard to believe

Apologia if I sound unrealistic
I always wanted to be more
Interesting than I am
I’m not absent of confidence
Just wanted to grow up
In Greece or France
Speak a second language
Fluently not bits and pieces
Not levels to herald but flow

I was taught to be happy
With what we’ve got
That’s the spot
This whole capitalist shit
Is not where it’s at
It’s in the beating heart
Of your smile
In the moment that I
Tell you that you’re beautiful
And you receive it

That’s the magic
I want to wake up to everyday
That’s the potion
I want to drink
That’s the weed
I want to smoke
That’s all the drugs
That I need
That’s your love

© GÄ

Bigger

I loved this about us
A vibe that was undeniable
No need to test the waters
Curiosity in my lap
We had it all
No looking back

In obeisance I bow down to you
To remind me of the good
All things beautiful like a flower
I drop my chin to the ground
In the glory of your morning

Retrospecting back at life I am
Honored to be in your inspiration
Blue eyes he said
She recalls your flamboyant
Nature floating around
Speaking your heart

What paucity are we weaving
In and out of these smaller than
Grand scheme moments
In one lifetime, one timeline
Did I wake you?

Did I give up on love?
Did we less it up?
Or was it the safest thing to do
Can it be bigger?

I miss how you loved me
Even though we were broken
I still dream about you
And what we once always knew
Oh, how we wanted together

© GÄ

Ruinous

It was a deleterious dinner
Every night was a fight
Fill your belly go to bed
Injury to the head
Intrusive thoughts

Protection
Protection

This was the medicine
To create the circle of
Guidance and keep the
Bad ones out

Like a gang for love
Not a group for pain
Stay away grab your stake
The vampires come to prey
On your beautiful light

Lights out!
Lights out!

No peace for you
If the world wants to
Beat around in your noggin
It breeds no permission
For stopping

Grab your tool kit and run
An ankh and a bracelet
For transmission

Abhor mistakes
No broken hearts
No shattered ways

Humble in love
Remove the piece that
Doesn’t fit, that’s it

© GÄ

Pages

She was reinvented in
The body of a man who was
Trying to fulfill his life
As a young woman
She wanted to start
A family and
Fall in love with her
Forever love

How long she had been
Waiting there was really
A question of time
Life expectancy
Uncertain

Not ready to abort the mission

There was a place to
Record the ending
Ancient but not epic
Head spinning
What’s the rest of this
Supposed to pan out like?
No answers just notes

Scribbling down her recipe
For what is to come
Like a psychic potion
Ready to drink a giant
Cup of moonlight

Her hair was falling down
In radiant waves
A memory of the sea
And best kept secrets
Though her truth was
On the first page
Of every book
Of his love

© GÄ