poetry – Page 31 – Poétique

Scoreless

It didn’t really matter after
A few days had passed
He turned the corner and
All the leaves were upside down

One gust of wind was just enough
To perfectly land them this way
Belly up the rest of the night
Must have been quite a sight
But the remaining plants
Weren’t saying anything yet

And then he heard someone holler
beyond the property line,
“In order to survive, we steal and we thieve!”

The texture in the air brought back
Memories of forgetting how to
Wake up regularly as if the
New day was the only thing
That mattered and no one
Knew how to keep score

As before life became like a card game
And we were all tallying our wins
Attempting to excuse our losses
When the best part was just
Experiencing it all by calling
An old friend who understood
Him better than the rest of the world

But he hadn’t had his coffee yet
Because he no longer drank coffee
And thus this made it complicated
To have the first conversation
On any dog walk because momentary
Silence was required to be
His whole self again but this was also new
Like keeping score so the decision
Was necessary to be made

There would be no more adding
There would be no more subtractions
He would only be

Venting

Clamorously to the Gods
When the flames are licking at your feet
You try to get away from the burns
Some times they touch you
And it hurts all up your backside
And you have the marks and the
Healing to do but if you can
Get out of the fire there is no
Need to dwell there venting deeply
As strong as the wind
Your tongue comes out lashing
Around like the fire that burned you
Even if you stay consistent
And you pulsate so exactly to the T
You can still be unnoticeable
You can still be incomplete
How can we be resistant to it
Even in solitude although
You have been told you have
Everything you need
You are learning how to inherit yourself
How much power are we throwing away
Giving up when we release our emotions
To others even screaming silently
And how much power are we
Gaining back in ourselves when we
Let go of the pooling sediment
That weighs like rocks in the gut
All sewn up and dragging around
When the combustible flames of
Untamed whips and chains come calling
To smack you down and around
We find a way to put the ashes out
Walking like a burning bright red ember
To appease the sickening that
Comes after as you process the pain
Of melting internally and you feel
Your heart aching and your bones
Cracking and breaking down you
Stamp out the disdain with your langue
Hot like the fires of underworld
Trying not to taste the soup of conversation
Before it can burn holes in you
You breathe before an altar of trees
Venting to the Gods on your knees

Grandiflora

With a grandiloquent tongue
The boy could not tell a tale
Not even one could go unspun
Without the flowery need to
Spin the words forth hence
Were always chiming out
With eloquence for even in
A wake of abrogating tide
His inner workings pushed
A gale of winds with currents
Positive and wide and so the
Outbursts became inbursts
To protect the shiny smiles
And his sense to make the best
Was what he wore to yield the
Wilds but still with all the
Gorgeous things that could be said
There rested stories left unshared
Inside his head and thus he
Needed safe passages and places
To commune and let the words
With ease flow out to not implode
Find a place wherein the sagas
Could be shared that he did hold
So unsaid words were trickling out
Unexpectedly he found them
Eventually creeping and seeping
All about the tiny cracks between
His tightly fused upper and lower lips
His feelings were determined
To be heard and oozed unhinged

Manager

She is astringent neurotic and militant
About how she wants things done
Haphazardly calling the shots
Enforcing rules and making her rounds

I passively asked her to back off
When I told her not knowing how I
Perform by way of emails sending me
Off to do better tasks and tripling down
Makes me roll over with sickness
At night who can find peace when
This is a means for finding out

Authority never bodes well with me
You’re not good enough that you’re
Not keeping up with a new standard
That no one has walked you through
And I look up to a bright pink hue
That is glowing above me it’s
Just the sky but formally spoken
I almost wished that it was aliens
For a moment just thought it might be
Convenient living in a world with
No room for error even in the tiniest
Regard just a little breathing room?

Who can be the stickler to a
Practice they know nothing about
Parading around giving orders
To those whom you have not a clue
What their industry entails

To work it out it’s like managing mansions
When you’ve only lived in apartments
Your whole life and again the sky
Creeps in ready to assist me in
Forgetting about what the world around us
Isn’t really making an effort to
Understand and the grass looks red
In this arrangement of orange ambered
Sidewalks dressed in the remaining leaves
The frost is new and so is also tomorrow

Combat

All the things I’m in my head about
All the things I shouldn’t care about
Do the little things begin to weigh in
Because I don’t feel like I can meet
The expectations of everyone

Around me taking down me in minute
Details that bleed onto the scope
Of things and we are allowed to
Have bad days but some of them
Creep into the next morning
Thinking about the residuals of
Yesterday as we push them behind us

Eminently struggling to cling on
Does it make us stronger or weaker?
Empathically I feel the stress of
Others pulling and tugging away at my
Everything I have to block it out

Send it away like a package
I don’t want or a letter that’s been
Misdelivered to an address
That no longer exists it is the
Unhinged emotions of blatant
People around me that are
Inconsiderate in how they persist

It all compounds me into a heap
Of how do I get away from
All of this mess but it is a
Question of life that is part of
Being alive and other than
Selling everything and buying a
Ticket for a one way trip
To live remotely somewhere
This place doesn’t exist on the planet

We are vulnerable and
Unprotected as sensitives
Putting on the alligator suit again
Back to life and bumper cars
One day at a time resistance
One breath at a time to find
The joy in a reasoning to live

Clouds

Clouds across my face
Why do I feel so displaced
One minute I am on top of the world
No need to push the positivity
It’s there it’s in me and I’m
Reassured that I can accomplish
Almost anything and then a ton of bricks
The clouds roll in it’s like
I can’t get it one hundred percent right
It’s unrealistic to think that
Anyone could it happens every time
I’m tracking and then backtracking
A reason to celebrate something
Comes in to knock me down and
To remind me that there are more
Obstacles to overcome get me down
You need to clean harder NOW
You need to watch your time NOW
Be smarter you are overstepping NOW
There is no leniency for error NOW
My incompetence is evident
Because I don’t have all the facts
And I become emotional when the truth
Is new the facts have changed I’m going hard
Showing up strong and still
Find another person another
Law another rule that wants to
Say unfortunately for you
This doesn’t translate
So show up better next time
But also be prepared to find fresh air
The clouds will always roll in unexpectedly
But they cannot stand in front
Of our opportunity to keep blowing
Disconcertion from despair

Musicheart

Trying to break my flowers
What’s your astrology?
Can I get the digital code
To your heart ‘cause
I don’t care about your phone

What would it take to
Open you up
Do you have a cause
That I could orient?

Metal vibes and hard hearts
Won’t get you too far
But I’ve got a car
If you want a ride
Outside of this
Whatever this is

It could be heavy
I can also picture it soft
At least ninety ways to get there

May be sixty exits
If you need an escape
I have this thing for music
And also you

So many words but not
Enough verbs on the planet
In any language to say it all
So I stand and stare
Looking for twitches
Bright lights shine down

Black and blue clouds
Overhead alive pupil’s glimmer
Piercingly blue and
Black from shadows
Of numinous moonlight

Wake up tomorrow with you

Statue

Remembering to smile in moments
Especially with people that don’t do it
Albeit in the exception of who I am
Don’t freeze smile back meters
From your face eyes sparkling at me
Smile smile smile don’t forget your head
My heart is in my throat I’m in awe
Of this moment when you are captured
Here with me there is no other time
Observing your hands I notice no ring
Also the shoes on your feet
I see the locs underneath your hat curling
Around the edges of your neck
I see you working but you smile at me
Don’t freeze smile back at him
Broken to behave apparently
How did I forget how to be instantaneously
Most undoubtedly appropriately
Creating yourself as the best life
There you go speeding down the
Highway of life Lundi à Vendredi
Grunting out loud side swipe
Punch the air run my hand through
My hair and think about it being yours
Pretty like a statue

Zombieland

People going through the motions
Foreign countries living in a different
Existence than what I am used to
Love doesn’t always mean more
Love can mean lessening what
You have achieved taking steps
Backwards is not a sign of
Happiness what is the sacrifice
Made worth if your life is falling away
Did it all happen for love or at the cost
Of something much more important
Your security your job your
Everything you worked so hard for
Your home your friends you’re
Gone gone gone is the song
You can sing even if you try
The crocodile finds a way to
Put the love bird back into the cage
Until you’re ready what’s the rush
If everything you want and need
Is being forced what is the trust
Of a mountain we are climbing
To discover the other side when for now
You can sit back to back with a tree

Bed

Blanket wrapped around
Hair falling down
Difficult to make eye contact
Through his strands
Walk the streets alone
Her silence is like forever
All the money that can be made
But nothing here for them barely a chip
To be found cold hands cling to the
Gates of iron bars fenced in
On the outside there is a prison
Although they are free
No escape and no house for you
What is humanity
But two houses for other people
And one house no one lives in
The gap is wide and how we
Upload our future as we all
Tap away at our computers
And our phones oh my
How sad still so many have no
Pillows to rest their heads
Empty buildings where no one sleeps
How do we exist on this planet
With all of it unconsciously
How do we do it absently if not
Crying ourselves to dream of
Another time another place holding on
Hanging into the abyss still swirling down
Down down we twist into nothingness
Grappling onto another moment in time
Worth rise to offer another bed
Another hammock for another head
Another roof over another place for
Someone to rest in a world that takes
Not even enough earth to have a place for
Dirt floors or just a bed for everyone
What is a trundle worth if not one for all of us