Distortion

I feel weird today
Very strange like I
Just woke up from a
Full night of drugs
But I don’t do any drugs
So if this is how it feels anyway
Then maybe I should

What’s the trade off?
How to go on fueling inspiration
How important is the truth
Upfront it’s much more interesting
To just go along with everything
If you really want to get to know
The person inside you’ll
Find out later

What’s the truth?
Even if we speak the truth-

Does anyone give a shit
About honesty until they
Really know you

And even then
How much do they
Truly care?

I read graffiti
On a dumpster today
SPEAK TRUTH

If you ever find a way
To get out of the system
I’ll follow you there

© GÄ

Trickery

You didn’t know she would be so clever
So innocently you are watering the flowers
The garden is your wishful thinking
And then behind your back she
Makes moves to ruin your life for you
You still befriend her and send her things
That she absolutely does not want
But you continue and you never know
That all along she was conniving behind
You and she was planning your demise
Revenge against what you took away
Yes even tarnishing her wishes
She was plotting to kill your happiness
Because for you to experience joy
Made her feel like she was dying
I was only the one she used to see
Her plan through and I didn’t even
Know that her animosity was so strong
That it could cut up also the slightest
Most innocent part of me but
She made it easy to dice because our
Traumas were the same and the history
Was to blame for everything you did
To me you did also to her and it
Made it too perfect to run the blade into
A cavity that was waiting to be
Leveled out like a massacre for love
That was lost on her front porch
Where you left all those memories
In some hot sudoric town in Florida

© GÄ

Veritas

Wrapping my head around new feelings
How much can I hold onto my own
Cerebral functioning in the presence
Of another who gives me want for
Emotions outside of my own self
My body is swollen with love
I have so much more to give after
Time spent being in such a presence
I believe we could solve the riddle
Of life together you are as strong
Or stronger than me consciously
I turn to you I agree I listen I bow
In empathy I believe you behold the
Answer before me I hear you listening to me
What is the difference between
Passionate love and friendship radiating
They are very different but somehow
Feel the same both traveling through
The body like a surge of electric joy
Likened to an energy boost from a drink
Although intangible it can be felt
He knelt before the moment to behold
It in its glorious wit and charm but
Also felt disarmed by his own mistrust
Not comprehending what the journey
Could become or wise for letting it unwind
On its own unraveling tenderly soft
And quiet because the trumpet he heard
Was loud and boisterously calling out to say:
“Don’t miss the chance like you always do!”-
But there was no need to rush or fumble
Where were we all going to anyway?
As if an apocalypse was heading fast
To hit our town in a cluster of
Asteroids but still nothing could stop the
Fussing or rushing to meet the moon and
Stars on time before the sun came up
One last chance to polish the throne
To stand at the foot of truth and still
Beg to be understood no not even then
For the question of love and friendship
Left him in a chaotic frenzy of ecstasy hoping
A fragment of foresight and wisdom
Would fall down from a crack in the sky
By way of Aletheia daughter of Zeus
She would definitively know what to do
Even when the earth shakes we still
Come out of the quakes wondering

© GÄ

Félicitations

If what seems obvious to me 
Is still questioning for you
Then it’s transparent to me
We will never find the truth
Two ions charged in the same way
Repelling one another
I can’t break through with you
Or complete the missing parts
Collecting dust
Because you’re already full
Mechanically the gears are
Clunking and grinding
What is clear in our stance
Is all the clarity we needed
All the focus that we’ve had
In our long elated past 
Is clouded by a privilege 
Exultantly
Unfortunately for me 
A privilege I don’t have
To wake you up
Stretch out to see what 
You are missing from me
Opening your eyes to the 
Reality of an invisible pain
From my perspective
You are blinded by your gains
You are surrounded by your 
Everything you ever wanted
Playing out the way you planned
And for you I am pleased
How delectable

© GÄ

Well

Better than fair, less than good
Biking at night without a light;
A haunting truth suspended;
It is a willingness to escape you
Wrapped up in the innocence of finally knowing it.

To care for is to participate, when you are engaged,
With my heart, with my silence, with my words,
I stand before you bleeding thoughts
Out on the floor, though they fall silent.

My heartbeat full of rage,
Towards your diabolical sneers

Around you I am not who I am truly
You admonish my sweetest charms,
Upon my back a belly of hate streams
Like a prism into the open air
I race to abandon myself from your selfish squinting glares

To listen to love, is to hear something traveling far behind you
Your suffocating surroundings
Are noisy like the shackles
of your lying breath.

With my heart on my sleeve I zap you
With light to outweigh your darkness
Until the breeze of the multiverse
Blows your house of selfishness
Down to Hades

Love is a tool, to be near
Fake people can use it as well

Paradoxically grossed out by your nature
My skin crawls away to become salt
On a beach that will satisfy
The appetite of the dugong
I sacrifice the same death to feed love—
To escape you in a sea of hope

A green hunger, like a carnivorous plant
Chomping away you stand before the rest
A class of your own a mouth full of teeth
Sharp fork bladed tongue to dismiss me

Publicly you feel luxurious
Yet you fortify me, make me whole
With your embittered commands

To truly love I take the risk to turn
The volume of my heartbeat up
Aficionado of sagacity I crawl on top
Of the boulder that crushes your
Provocative insult to truth
By way of extinguishing those around you
The finish line, the last bite, a fight for the light; I am not your crime

© GÄ

It’s the Truth

If there are
No more requests
I’ll let you go
For now
I don’t want to
Slap myself
Or wear a sign
Around my neck
That says
Don’t manipulate me
With the obvious
Love story
Don’t allow me
To manipulate you
By sending charming
Hearts to hopefully
Make myself feel better
Or to convince myself
That you love me
Even if I
Made a mistake
Because I know
That you love me
I’m just really bad at
Telling myself that
It’s the truth

© GÄ

For Later

If a good lie
Can make people happy
Then what can
The truth do
Maybe we touch too deeply
Maybe our fingers get smaller
Perhaps our feet get colder
Do you know?
If a good lie
Can make people happy
Why should we
Tell the truth
Maybe our hearts
Get a little taller
Maybe our lives
Intertwining enthrall us
Perhaps our lips are
A bit more glossy
Do you know?

Kissing your heartbeat
Is better than missing out
On your truth

If a good lie
Can make you happy
What will our truth do
Will it console you
Would you feel better
If I untold you
If this is true
Then I will be your best storyteller
We can save the truth
For later

© GÄ