Heartchatter

Chest beats harder still
Electric rhythms unexpected
If I’m honest nothing to hide
Let it all out never outspoken
I want to give you so much
More than a slice
Nothing matters when you have
Something greater in life
No one knows that you don’t
They expect that you have
A million other things to do
No crushing dreams
What you didn’t think to say
Because whatever you are doing
Is outstanding
Stretching humility

Feeling alive where
Parts of us were dead
What is freedom awakened?
We don’t need to sound like
Savages on the way
Clear the headboard
We could tear the
Seams apart
Decorate the room
With your charms
It seems harmless
Simple is good
Adorn what embellishing
Basics will like a rug on the beach
Probably all that we need
Topped off in a concert
Of your eyes and a smile
To quiet the guise of
Vibrant patterns engaged in
Boundaries crossed that
Never needed our permissions

© GÄ

Palaver

Throwback to both
Immediately and momentarily
I was in control only because
I knew not to be actually
Pretty damn close to where
I was supposed to be
All my memories are here
Tucked inside my favorite
Pillow for the best sleep

What verdant dreams
Why do I feel without you
That I am lonely
Is this a message
That is only
A case of your love

My love for you is ready
To describe the most
Important thing it sees

In my eyes, your eyes, you rise
Cover me so sweetly
That I won’t get out of bed
Now how to tell you
I don’t want to be anywhere else

A place in my mind
I wait for you to find

© GÄ

(ЯEPEAT)…

Someone made a noise
They didn’t want you to repeat
Or hear by not making it
Loud enough for us
To conceal

What would I ask God
In this moment?
I almost fell completely off the cliff
I want to finish something
No, I want to finish
Everything
Now

Are there really any strangers
Who are we supposed to be
Avoiding?

It’s your turn
I’ve gotten a bit sloppy
Sharing more than usual
Slogging to connect with you
Deeper

At times I didn’t think I would
Make it here with or without
A cigarette or an excuse
Hungry for reality
Starving for a fantasy

End goal make something
Out of yourself time, time
No testing the system
No game playing, baiting, blind
Is there an order to existence

Being, a, uhhh
Where is my concept of being?
The cast would open doors
Happening but as it is now
Work hard to become last
Something for the wrong reasons
Kapow

Responsible heartache
Absent blank status
Rejection is security
Laying it out into a
Quilted unattainable
Devotion

© GÄ

Muditā

If I lived up to the
Loss of what everyone
Wanted to replace this with
I would have been
A miraculous man lest
My bones are sore
Perhaps I entangled myself
Beyond unraveling

Just like the canary
Singing at night
For the first time
Heart opened wide
Willing to share what
Wasn’t known in vulnerable
Moments enchanted by
A certain muditā

Altruistic joy
You share with me
What I feel too belongs to you
And to us a countess to
Compassion

Say what you mean
To mean what you say
Twenty seven minutes later
And we’re still arriving
In our favorite place
Together residing
In the other

© GÄ

Glowering

You can’t keep up with
This fire though you want to
Touch it you know you
Still can’t keep up with it

My head is clear
Clear as day
No need to say
Anything more about it

Free breath
Free air
I don’t care

No more scowling
No more glowering
I won’t vitrify my heart
Feels good to smack my hands
Dust it off
Batting it away

When we come back for love
We come back for ourselves
First things first

No more ominous
No more sullen showering
Have the moment
How does it feel
No glowering
Just glowing

© GÄ

Hermetic Dreams

A buffalo pushed the
Mushroom out of the way
Leaving only a question
Where would the others go
And how could we bring it back?

Hanging on by a thread
To our past like a history
Stood to remind us that we
Aren’t bitter like the angry giant

Baby blue starlings
Ariel view of a map
Complex atlas like chess
Moving the pieces
Precious animals there to
Guide and make room for

I don’t want to be vulnerable
With my emotions in front of
The world even though
Television normalizes this

A friend who sings visits
She enters my dreams
She has already red hair
She asks me to make it redder
She tells her friends about
My remarkabilities

It doesn’t matter if
It’s not a word

Make it up as we go along
Hermetic dreaming

© GÄ

Adaptateur

Who am I without you
Ceremony is so powerful
Stroke concierge to
Adopt my heart

Kill myself inadvertently
So much pressure
Greece first

What if I just live
Like I’m going to
Crash and burn
But then don’t !

Maybe I’m not a good loser
Pink Jasmine trained
On wires to make the
Most dynamic patterns

Arrangements floral
Minus the bitterness
More reasons to fight
To be alive

Radiant reasons
To die

Device impressions
Stenciled markings
On a historic heart
Sage me

Blue foresight
Push to defend
Playbook to guide the
Centuries

Compassion is bleeding
Wealthy hearts are
Lurking

© GÄ

Meaning

Maybe I’m keeping
A broken dream alive
What veracity!
Ode to truthful pleasures
The exterior is pristine

I think you would be proud
Of what I’ve become
And
What I’ve done

Garden flat
All though you may never have
Really cared about that

Neighbors said they
Liked the flowers
The garden is my sanctity
Does it also count
If it’s only me?

Attraction
Connection
Companionship
Something to do it for
An us factor to share
Are we holding onto
An idea for something

They were all contending
For his attention and love
But in the end none of them
Truly adored him

It was a trophy
Something to win
Someone could say
I got him!

What would it mean to
Genuinely love him

© GÄ

Stoïcismes

Courage, Justice
Temperance
Practical Wisdom
Restore the flow
Show Who’s Who
In life
Sometimes We Win
Sometimes We Lose
As long as you have
Done your best
There is literally
Nothing Else
That Can Be Done
Therefore, Feel Peace
About the effort
Accept the result
With equanimity
Mental and emotional
Stability and composure
Especially under stress
Or tension
General calm
Yet and still
If the result is good
Don’t become
Arrogant or conceited
It could always
Go the other way
Easily
Slip and fall
Crack your head open
Pulling your teeth out
In distress
If the result is bad
Don’t let it effect
Your sense of
Self-Worth
It’s the idea
Of what really is
Truly yours
And what isn’t
Achievement of Ataraxia
An inner tranquility
Resulting from knowledge
You have done everything
It was in your
Power to do
Let the chips fall
Where they may

© GÄ

Shift

Benignly seated in a
Self made throne of wonder
All I need is for you to be nice
Lassitude for love

Winsome in my youth
A true impresario
I would write the words
Conjure the terms
Wonder if love

Could ever happen for me?

How could it be that
In all of my dreams
I would hold onto
Questions but
Miss out on reality

Both girls resented his
Brilliance for what it was worth
Sorting out his resplendence
Divvy it up between them
Stretched from arm to arm
Fighting for or against
One another, who could tell

As grey as the sky remained
Some soothing comfort that the
Sun couldn’t bring and the
Distance memories that
Remained in the sheets of his mind
Laying in bed half awake
Half dreaming of what he
Had hoped to accomplish
What had died and
What was taken

© GÄ