Decorticate

He couldn’t get onto the plane
Or into the place he was
Trying to go

Tear down the room

I had his phone number
And his email stored in my phone
I stepped to the counter to
Help him get where he was going

In the end I’m not sure if it
Truly mattered they
Accepted it without
So many details

Strip it down
Shelling it out
Expose the inside

I handed back money
To another couple in line
Two hundred dollars and
A few more bills in change
As a gift to give later
Hold onto

They left me
Is it a jinxing
Hex me with a dirty eye

When I went to find them
In a giant market
To tell them they could keep it
They had already spent it
Like my trust

Intertwined

With no remorse
A disenchantment
Black magic

Is it too much giving
Do we resent receiving
Maybe we’re outjjnxed

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Elucidation

I had to turn the tv on
To get out of my head
The pain of losing you
Won’t let me go

Even though I know
We share space in the ether
Essence of existence in between
I feel your absence everyday

My burning eyes
My burning eyes

Standing in the garden
Without you

Who knew that to
Show you love
Meant also to
Let you go

I will never outgrow you
If I’m getting older
Am I getting stronger?

Relationships come and go
But you are always with me

What I want to get
Out of this is
To be a better man
A better human

Until I see you again

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Particle

At one point you
Wanted to do this for me
And now that we’re together
Forever you don’t care?

Where is the personal heroism
Trees stand tall for so long
Unbreakable song in the sky
How much practice will there be
One hundred years it seems
Or more in the afterlife

Write the language of plants
Find the grace to be
Existing harmonically
Ground absorbed beneath us
Light step forward
Dark retreat

Maybe we don’t feel amazing
To ourselves because we are

Once we find out
What’s hiding inside the box
Before you throw it away
Search underneath
In the inner pocket
A gift

We revel in what
Was almost lost

Look deeper before
You toss it into the emptiness

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Senses

I can smell you
Even though you’re not here

I can taste the salt
At the edge of your neck
Even though I never have

Watch you grab the back
Of your head your fingers
Deep in your hair

Even this is art
To my eyes

The way you speak
Your ability to ask
For what you want

Like directing traffic
Unapologetically

There is a gap between
What we have and what is

But I can watch you from a
Different place and appreciate
You for all that you are

Whatever we think that is
Range of emotions

Watch the years grow by

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Wings

Go the distance
Begin the journey

Running to scratch
At the thing that is
Going away
Before it’s too late

We are tousled
Left outside often
One eye opened
One eye closed

Life can be a gift
Or a disease

How we love it
How we live it

Partaking for goodness
Not with our head in the clouds
But actual genuine kindheartedness

Master plan of succession
Breathe easier live wiser
Laugh more smile often

Simple gages to engage
Remarkable emotions to
Behold instead of withhold
From ourselves a feast
At a table we have
Created to be
Elevated by those around us

What have we left
When we have nothing
But our best laid out in front of us
And no story to tell
How we got there

Both wheels turning
All eyes open
In need of rescuing sometimes
Or just to feel a little more
Appreciated and received

Can you see me?

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Jouer

I used to want to come here
But I don’t anymore

Take a bite out of this fig
Find it healing just make time
For love and happiness

Orders coming in
Twisting buns atop your head
Falling asleep way before bed
Forgetting work make time to play

Packages call things to do
Knocking at your existence
Fight to take time
For yourself

Work can wait
Enjoyment cannot
You did a lot
You did a lot

Pet the cat
Walk the dog
Sing a song
Coasting a long

Time for fun
Time for love
Work is done
Work will get done

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Better

I wanted to love you
How could you make me despise you

Real feelings shatter

Watch my body shut down
What’s the difference between
Gaslighting and manipulation

When the empath
Let’s you have your way
Will he then be forced to walk away

Let me be the fixer
No space

What’s at the bottom
Or did we already find out
Does it get any worse
Does it go any further
Will you have no limits
Forever stress

What you did to me
Will be hard to forget
What you stole from me
Only added to the weight

The security I had in you
Has been washed away
Perhaps ripped is a better adjective
That’s how it feels
I reestablished that security
In myself with how you left me

You believe you are the
Shiniest rock in the box
Our feelings don’t matter
What I thought would be my
Best choice for the rest of my career
Still hurt me in the end

When will I feel better?

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Epoch

Cry of the peacock
You came to me from
The other side you
Made it safely new
And fresh you brought me
Kisses that I longed for
You were as shy as you were
Before and then so
Find me grateful
As I am I held you
Again now so soon
And saw you twice
Fresh and new your
Coat warm and glistening
Soft to the touch
Crossing through the
Membrane you made it
It’s a second goodbye
But a grand hello as they
Receive you back
Into the wonder
Earth will never be
The same without you
I love you

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Breaststroke

What for all this
Gashing at the internet
With full exposure
Force us all to see
We watch if we
Can’t avoid it

Love crawls out
From under a rock and
Like a thing that you forgot
Could exist you surprise
Yourself and greet it
With an honest hello

To sit down and drink
A cup of tea might be
Taking it too far but
Somehow there isn’t
Any anthem that’s being
Played to tell you not to

Later the sound of the
Lawn being mowed
Turns a few gears
Borrowing feelings from
The haircut the grass
Is experiencing

When do we agree that
We are all walking around
In a madhouse
Full of conmen

I’ve been thinking about a
Trip to the ocean
Go for a swim

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Doors

Gallant fireheart
Plugging into the unknown
Receptors to receive
You in the abyss
That stands before you

Cars moving fast
In front of you
Life is so much
Our attractions are
Unexpected and
Almost predestined

Anyone missing
Still turning the key
Doors open
Will we walk through?

Questions answered
More questions asked
Sweet fragrance in the air
Wish for that always
Advise me on how to
Meet you in the garden

What time
What direction
Can you feel my posture
Towards you
Angling

Multicolored flower bracelet
On your wrist

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