Abeyance

Myrmidon passion
No fear for love really
I could start again
Anytime

Married myself
Ring on both fingers
Had one on each
For two others
Now for myself
What’s left
To burn

Keeping alive
That’s a thing right?
Aren’t we all doing that!

Think of a time in your life
When something important
Was hanging in the balance
Paused, unresolved, waiting…
Am I

Waiting to shape
The eventual outcome
Found in the “in-between”
A state more frustrating
Less like irritation
More like fertile thoughts
For reflection

There’s no overreacting
No overriding just
A beautiful abeyance
That swings in the air
Gives way like a pendulum
A sound or a bit that is
Hinderless to the ears

Feel you feel me
Deservingly quenched

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Begending

Our realities are made up
By the worlds we surround
Ourselves with and I find myself
Settling as a house might
Crackling and burrowing
Into the ground

Maybe I’m just tired
Of keeping up or possibly
Creation knowing full well
There could be more
In some other place
In some other way
This is not it
This is not all
That there is

Halfway mark
Feels like a dead end
Maybe all that can be
Accomplished is already
I’m not sure what will be
Longer or shorter
Revel in the new
Forget about the future
Fishbowl

When we scratch off
The top layers and
Keep finding our way down
Do we have a place to
Go or end up
Keep going
Start over
Keep going
Maybe nothing

Sweet voices
Of children
Just beginning

Today felt like
An ending
So early

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Flashing

She wanted me to braid her hair
I sat up in bed and began to braid
A single blonde braid down the
Back of her head and she needed
To find her friend so she left
I followed her out to wait
And found a very attractive man
Laying on a couch on the porch
Outside, asking if I could share
His space with him laughing he
Obliged I couldn’t remember the
Last time I laid on a couch
With a stranger and somehow
I felt like I had known parts of him
His story flashing a little before my
Eyes of his home and one of
His lovers kissing him outside
On the front lawn though I had
Never visited I remembered being
When she returned she brought
Me three nicely folded pairs
Of jeans and a pile of one dollar
Bills some torn and some folded
As I tried to count the money
I realized I wasn’t finished with
Her hair she had unbraided it
And she was happy and glowing
She said I needn’t finish, that we
Had completed it and she liked
It as I helped count through the
Money to determine a charge
I was distracted by some peacock
Feathers on the wall that I began
To braid underneath as one would
French not Dutch and you could
See the glimmer of the multifaceted
Colors clamoring back into
My eyes reflecting a myriad of
So many experiences as I
Finished the owner of the café
Walked by, and I saw my friend
Timmie whom it had been so…

…many many years I embraced her and asked her how she was.

She cried a bit and said
You don’t remember me you
Have forgotten me all these years
And I reminded her that it wasn’t
True that I had sent cards and letters
Thinking of her often her tears
Began to dry and her face changed
A bit and we both realized that
We didn’t know one another at all
And in fact we were new friends
I looked a way as her face had shifted again
As I turned back her skin had gotten
Much darker and she looked very
Different in fact her entire person had
Changed to he who was French perhaps
Caribbean or African I wasn’t sure
But I was excited to make their
Acquaintance he said in an accent
“Maybe your friend doesn’t speak
French haha!” He looked at me with
Small eyes pushed close together
And two tiny gold teeth in front
With crosses on them standing
Out a bit almost buck-like
I couldn’t contain my excitement
I said, “Tu parle le français?!!”,
And put my hand out to him
Enchanté ! He observed me without
Speaking and turned half of his
Face away and I exclaimed, “D’accord!”
Only if to say, you don’t want to know
Me?? Well fine then… twisting away
I ended up back at the table counting
The ones to give back to the girl
Who had taken out her single braid
Happily enjoying her wavy hair
Which was now also multicolored
As she lay on her stomach with her chin
Lightly placed over folded hands patiently
Waiting to receive whatever amount
I had come up with the number
Forty-five kept ringing back to me
As it were I was satisfied with any
Number or no number of bills
Overall the experience was
Plenty enough to afford the beginning

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Outline

Turn to face me in bed
Watching my fingers
Glide over your head
Hands in your hair
Kiss at your brow
Wishing never to get up
Just to lay here
Breathe your breath
Nothing left but
Our heart beats
Hovering above us
In the air
Like two kids in love
Not a care to be told
Only to hold
Not afraid of myself
Or loving you too much
Protecting each other
Romantic distinction
Take this time to
Be here to feel special
To love you and
Undress you
How many years
Has it been
How many years
Have we left?
In between the sheets
After we meet
Turn to face me in bed
Watching my fingers
Glide over you sweetly

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Bridges

I’m not one to burn bridges
I’m more into building them
People can die when the
Scaffolding collapses
Lose our friends
Relationships end
Being with someone
Can also be lonely
Just as much as being
Alone can also fulfill you
Main cables stretched
Out into the sky like
Horizontal arms
Wishing to fly
Or at the very least
Feel something
Spun and strung
Between heart towers
Stacking rocks
Twisting the sky
Steel anchorages
Water sloshing against
Our bedrocks
It’s never to late
To try

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Gauge

Settling into myself
Such a strange sensation
To be genuinely happy
Not over concerned
Enjoy the moment
Oh of what we’ve created
Lived up to and
What we’ve done!
When do we realize
And step back
Take a deep breath
And enjoy everything
That we are?
Will life surpass us
Before it’s too late?
Fall out of the tree
Of expectations everyone
Has been growing
For you with
Conference calls and
Calendars just a
Basic phone call
Where our personalities
Intertwined and there
Is no evidence that
It ever took place
No record kept
Except for
You and me
No second guessing

© GÄ

Earthwish

Tear myself away
From the memories
Total recall see it fall
From the back of my mind
Water the ground
A million times more
What are you running
Away from?
Are you afraid of the truth?
Flowers would bare only
Honesty each petal
Nature doesn’t lie

To have hope and feel
That it’s broken when
It’s just not enough
Is there ever enough
Are you too much to love?

Checking back
Never too tired to see
Mornings don’t have the
Mother behind the kind
Two birds would request
From the nest of a tree
Free from lithium batteries

Slow vibrations
In the earth rattle
A hard but delicate ground
Trembling a heart that
Craves response and
To be heard that’s the
Greatest escape

Saying things to people
Who end up being no one
Because they never affirm
Your words how devastating
Only to wish that the ones
We believe we can find
Hope in are also broken

© GÄ

Marked

Marked by the sun
Solar child
Red ring of fire
His law is sound
Bound to the universe
Within legal knowledge
Invariable occurrence
Of natural phenomena
Established principle
Recognized usage
In no uncertain terms
Having useful ends

In view capable
Of useful actions
Keeping possible results
In mind i
In essence or effect,
Virtual messenger,
Forerunner
A token of future events
Infusing new life into
A sun-kissed
Undertone

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Staircase

We step out
Beyond ourselves
To find forgiveness
In someone else
A different opinion
To be forgiven

I look to my heart
Tied to the universe
Married to the mother
And her children
The stars

Comfort my empty faith
How they cradle and bathe
My symphony of pain
How they give my whip rest
Arms of light about my chest

Forgive this human condition
Release your selfless victim
There is no worthy hostage
O, how the heart swells
With pure joy
When we free love

© GÄ

Aegis

We only see what
You want us to see hiding
Behind the computer screen
He didn’t feel amazing any longer
He was doing so many things
That he felt more numb and less fun
No one to tell him intimately
That what he did was super good
Or extra wonderful just himself
And his cat and his bird
The occasional neighbor
Would walk by the garden and
Say “oh how beautiful,
What a lovely place!”
Although it was nice
It wasn’t the same
He was hungry for love
And confirmation of his
Accomplishments from
A day to day someone
Who could look and confirm
That he was indeed amazing
No more scary stories on
Television life was scary enough
Surrounded by the love of others
He was still missing one more
Piece to the puzzle it was the
Beauty and daily ritual
Of the special kindness
Of another but no clue of who
When or where not impossible
But feels like a lifetime away
Time to start over in another
Place in another town in a
Different country further away?

© GÄ