us – Poétique

Evaporated

False humility
Yellow hands grasping
For something of substance
Just a shred of light
Whatever’s left

More than a typical night
A few more winks to spare
Funny how mornings we
Don’t have to be anywhere
It’s time to get up and
In days that require us
To be there we could
Lay down for hours

Garden is thriving
Thinking about what we
Do it all for why do the
Tomatoes grow
And who for?

Not enough books on the wall
To solve the crime
The birds in the yard spoke
Back and forth about a time
Chattering something of
Love and momentary lapse
Afterthoughts

Colored world in black and white
Any attempt to register the truth
Of the matter comes out in a
Sound of laughter and
Wishful thinking

Could’ve been more pets
Also kids school immersion
Lots of things we built towards
Caught it almost before the
Rest of the illusion shattered

No turning back
Freedom and pieces of my mind
Evaporating the us factor

Was it luck?
Maybe death or hard work
Living for nothing
Hoping for everything
While the birds click back
He did it for you!
I did it for us!
I did it for us!

Numbers

Longer numbers make you hurt more
Higher digits cause more pain

I guess it’s just a left with no choice thing
He said, “Like a river in all of us.”
Feelings or putting up with the day to day

Spider bites and champagne
None for me please

Anyways who’s counting
Seems like cold winter and a couch
Will baptize everything if there’s
Anything left to survive after
All the dealing bubbles to the surface

Every morning a coming of age
Every minute a question of haze
Lights that aren’t bright enough
And some that need to come down

Keep counting the days or
Just forget about them entirely
They’re bound to happen anyways
With or without us

Parts

I cried so much last night

I’m taking myself back
All the good parts
That I built up but then lost
I did them for you
Now I’ll do them for me!

Bring back the parts that I
Manufactured in the hope
That it would mean more for us

A disciplined construction in a
Scaffolding of emotional security
That will mean something for me

All of the experiences I wanted
To have for us but were impossible
Could be had even without you

My life is not on hold
A spirit that’s beautifully different
Must fly even without validation

The price we pay to leave the
Best parts of ourselves behind
Is an arm and a leg

Bursting

I never knew this kind of rage
Could live inside of you
To let something go that you
Love so much

I never knew this kind of anger
Boiling beneath you because I have
Never loved anything
Exactly in that way

The magnetism stretching your
Insides like a rubber band with
An electricity running through
Your gut all the way up to your
Tongue sizzling at the very tip
And all over the buds

Crackling inside

There’s only one time that
I feel like this

It’s when I’m
Losing the love of my life
Connecting the cosmos
Bending into the other side

Death

We are both bubbling
Not wanting to let go
But we know we have to move
Teeth clenched around the tongue

You’re such a fixture in my life

I look around to find the words
Of loved ones willing to be there
For me when you’re gone
This is the power of true friendship
This is the paramount message
Of our love

The ones that are there for us
When the love is gone

Just going through the motions
Sometimes that’s all you need
Maybe we do it and don’t know it
When he was particularly aware of it
He felt strange realizing that he
Was always doing it naturally before
But now it felt forced necessarily
Waiting for the light to change
Sometimes just running through it
Do we follow every rule and fail
Or are these simply guidelines
Oak trees and moss continue on
Creeping in rain like patterns
Mystical fens flowing on trees
And the random birds chirping
In the air relief from the cold hard
Winter that was approaching briefly
Before it arrived we all stood around
A fire and laughed about the
Doldrums of the past year
A Native American song was
Shaking the background and
He recalled how to be strong
Again but it was for himself this time
He was out of practice because
He was always doing it for others
Going through the motions
Reiterating structure
Humming in the us factor
Problematically difficult
When he was humming again
For one yet both sides of him
Stood ready for two of what becomes

Mien

Can our magic still hold
In the space of us
Our magical unfold
Our blanket of light
Did our stars disharmonize
What is our mien
What can we be?
We have so many lives
Before us and so much
Yet to be seen
How much is resting in between?
Seeking our own level
Together as water frills
If the wand is empty
If our hat has no more rabbits
What could we be
What shore will we
End upon
What grief do we have left
To glean if we have
Anything if we have
Nothing if we have
Everything we
Could ever need
Thin is the horizon
What is our mien

Beneath Us

I could create a post
About the gossiping stars
I could make a toast
To those lips and the heat
That your frame sends
Up my back as if I’ve been
Laying on a bed of warm crystals
Dreaming of fire
On a pillow of mercy
All my life
Our bodies look good
Glowing neon bright
Like towered searchlights
Scanning the sky
Alerting the planets
To our existence
In case our significance
Has gone unnoticed
By the twinkling lights
Our glittering skin
Blinding all the monsters
In sight with the fright
Of our love
Illuminate me
Overwhelm me
Cast your burdens on
The shores of my heart
I will consume your pains
Round them up and
Pitch them back out
Into a crimson
Shrouded explosion
Of reprieve
Dreaming of fire
On a pillow of mercy
With a bed of eternity
Beneath us

Back to Us

Why be so hard
Do you have your
Back to us
Tempestuously
The strongest one
No uncertain shame
In the notes
In the lyrics
Of your song
A test of wills
An attempt to
Fix my wagon
Enter onomatopoeias
Maybe mine
Sound like something breaking
Enter excuses
Or maybe
You really just don’t care
Like washing your hair
A way to show
How boring
Another moment
Is to bear
Anymore

You’ll get back to us
When you get around to it

Around Us

Swirled up swirled down
Dip your finger in me
And swirl it around
Maybe in Alaska there
Is less heat to go around
Maybe the moths are happier
Take off running
Into the distance
Into the sound
I have a clever way of
Balancing the ups and downs
I like to monitor the waves
Whenever you’re around
Detaching from my intergalactic
Outer spacial crown
King of the unknown
Master of all invisible forces
I spread my arms out like wings
Set to fly above the organ keys
Just a minute piece of
What’s left dripping
In the outer bounds of
Nature grass and earth
Ready to give birth to
New comings even if I
Do not have a womb
Too many questions
Not enough answers
Resting my head
Upon your shoulder
Just before bed
Is it all still left unsaid
Just a caraway seed
And a bubbling head
A nonsensical way
To relax into
The perfume that ascends
Around us

Between Us

In a lot of ways
I am incoherent too
That’s okay you see
Because you remind me
To be coherent of you
Your beauty
Your willingness to
Open up see is just
Unlikely for most or anyone
You ask me
How can I see you
Like it’s a crime
And yet I can’t define
How it is that I
Do see you
In every way
From across the moon
In just how you move
I hope my words are
Better that they
Elevate you
Poetry is just a fucked up
Game that all of us play
To say how much we
Love and how much we feel
I’m boring please love me
Wait do I say that out loud
Or am I lying if I don’t
Or tell me just tell me the
Thing it is that I am to say
Maybe I said it
Before yesterday
But I know if I said it
I should remember
But if I wrote the right words
If I express this in
Just the right way
Beyond all the text
What I wanted to say
At least I said this today
Before I read it again
You will always have this

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