Author: Geinos Äotsch

Just a regular person.

Just Some Words

I want you to say
You didn’t want it that way
To reach out on your own
To say you even miss the place
You used to call home
(Wishful thinking)
I want you to wish
You would have said
More things like this
But you didn’t
But you would’ve
(Broken dreams)
I want you to want to know
What I want you to say
Meet me at the table
I always wanted you to
Sit at with me
That you will be there
(Lunatic thoughts)
I want you to admit
That it was really good
That it was
Something you betrayed
Something you left behind
Something you threw away
Something you did
(Idealism hurts)
When you made the decision
Not to be kind
But to remind yourself
That you were always right
I want you to say
You were wrong
That you lied
To yourself
About how right
How good
How deeply
That I loved you
(Love is blind)
And to understand
That all I ever needed
Was to be acknowledged
For your crime
Not showing up for me
(Not reading my mind)
In the way you said
That you could
Or at least
For you to wish
You wanted to
I want you to say
You didn’t want it that way
To reach out on your own
To say you miss the home
I built for us
(That you abandoned)
I want you to wish
You would have said
More things like this
But you didn’t
Because you couldn’t
Hear my side
The sound of
(Your own voice)
To yourself was
More appealing

© GÄ

To Another One

Like a dark tide
Wading low out in the distance
There was no comfort
To keep me on the shore
So the dark blue
Electric feud
Calls no one
The bleak empty sea
Of our past memories
Swept away with today
In a boat of irresolvable
Friendship
Not even the
Illuminating scent
Of our past
Could be unsunk
Whatever moon was meant
Whatever time was spent
Whatever sun descends
On the horizon
Of what we once possessed
We will no longer commend
For what we cannot apprehend
To close the door on one love
Is to open up the heart
To another one

© GÄ

Knock Knock

It feels like it’s ending
Counting petals
My pillars are crumbling
Point blank
I can sense the
Softness of your skin
Between your fingers
Are you hiding
Underneath the bed
Another forest somewhere
I’ve yet to tread
What will it take
To find you
Rebel to myself
Sweating profusely
Not from panic
Drenched only in my
Thoughts of you hard knocks
Maybe I’m enjoying it
A little too much
Though I’d prefer
More than a cool breeze
To take me to my knees
More like your heartbeat
Knocking at my door
Any clue what time
You’ll get here?

© GÄ

Happy

Science and love
The wayside above
Requisite hardware
Is missing I swear
Underneath my back
Rescinded ruptures
Earthquake in my core
Full disclosure
These might be the
Erotic overtures
The devil warned me about
Would you tattle on me
If I told the world
That I loved you?
Embezzle my heart
Runaway from the start
Uncompelled to get up
Even by my own right
Needful sprawling around
I find my body is
Spread out all over the ground
Grassy floor mouth open
I watch the stars trickle out
Dancing up around your eyes
Orange moon changed tune
Sprite bones and a spark
Fold our fingers in between
Glossy melancholy dreams
You make me happy

© GÄ

Beneath Us

I could create a post
About the gossiping stars
I could make a toast
To those lips and the heat
That your frame sends
Up my back as if I’ve been
Laying on a bed of warm crystals
Dreaming of fire
On a pillow of mercy
All my life
Our bodies look good
Glowing neon bright
Like towered searchlights
Scanning the sky
Alerting the planets
To our existence
In case our significance
Has gone unnoticed
By the twinkling lights
Our glittering skin
Blinding all the monsters
In sight with the fright
Of our love
Illuminate me
Overwhelm me
Cast your burdens on
The shores of my heart
I will consume your pains
Round them up and
Pitch them back out
Into a crimson
Shrouded explosion
Of reprieve
Dreaming of fire
On a pillow of mercy
With a bed of eternity
Beneath us

© GÄ

Unsure

How did you break into
My chambers glistening ants
Feasting on my heart
Solitary path lambent
With somber strides
Gliding up my legs
An enterprise of sacred light
Despite the solo climb
Remains a less treacherous
Vine to propel and travel on
Widespread enveloping
The sky before we die
A theater of mystery
And a mouthful of clarity
I am defenseless
Against your wishes
I wear our shared emotions
Like a coat that I can
Take on and off
Too much to handle
To cold without it
It could be a windfall
Of feelings to be catching
Before we truly know
What it feels like to be in pain
If it’s in the absence of a love
We are unsure how to feel

© GÄ

Love Again

There could be more
There could be less
At least two reasons why
Inherently decided
To remove the training wheels
Also say no to the fast track
Mitigate me
Greatly reduced
Microcosm
Seduce me
To endure the
Problematic existence
Up the staircase to the end
Down the hill just to begin
I can’t strategize the
Missing puzzle piece
Buried under a pillow
Somewhere other than here
There could be two of us
Taking this moment in
Two new people looking
Out the window together
Surround heart sounds
Seduce me again
I have an inkling
This is the best beginning
No need to play pretend
If we find love again
Lightening strikes twice

© GÄ

From Doom

It’s how the story goes
The most beautiful self
You cannot share the rose
Too beautiful for the world
When your flower arises’
Hands take lead to heed
And in stolen demise
Tear away at the stem
Your vibrant arms
Your flower of life
They hoard for themselves
Your beautiful light
Those fiery petals
Rising up towards the sky
Are twisted off and pocketed
In a burglars surprise
Reach out to protect you
I will arouse what you gift
To require your safekeeping
Before the bandits of life
Twist off the remaining love
Snap off your precious sight
Come round ringing
The kissing bells
Circular fire blooms up
Stepping over the devil
As you light up the room
Impeccable love to stand guard of
From doom the flaming wings
Of the angel uncovered
Exposed you are to me

© GÄ

Sun Rise

I can see the sun rise
In your eyes
What a bittersweet flame
Warms the heart
But cannot chase the parts
That are deeply reaching
Like stretching for the sky
To feel the blue
Inside but not to actually
Touch it
I can see the amber light
Glowing round the edges
Of your eyes
Your ivory smile on the
Ridge of my lashes
So close to feel the warmth
Just far enough away
To befriend the breeze
Whisking over and around me
Highlights of gazing yellow
Fluorite gemlike streams
Glistening wet your eyes
Are shining in the night
And though the outside whites
May be reflected in
A moon like serenade
A quiet horizon of gold
Remains in flames
I can see the sun rise
In your eyes

© GÄ