Poétique

(ЯEPEAT)…

Someone made a noise
They didn’t want you to repeat
Or hear by not making it
Loud enough for us
To conceal

What would I ask God
In this moment?
I almost fell completely off the cliff
I want to finish something
No, I want to finish
Everything
Now

Are there really any strangers
Who are we supposed to be
Avoiding?

It’s your turn
I’ve gotten a bit sloppy
Sharing more than usual
Slogging to connect with you
Deeper

At times I didn’t think I would
Make it here with or without
A cigarette or an excuse
Hungry for reality
Starving for a fantasy

End goal make something
Out of yourself time, time
No testing the system
No game playing, baiting, blind
Is there an order to existence

Being, a, uhhh
Where is my concept of being?
The cast would open doors
Happening but as it is now
Work hard to become last
Something for the wrong reasons
Kapow

Responsible heartache
Absent blank status
Rejection is security
Laying it out into a
Quilted unattainable
Devotion

Gein-za

Confucianismes love
Beyond the family there is
A lifelong journey
A certain…
Wherewithal

Undoubtedly we
Wish to carry with us
One greater goodness
Without themes of life
Bearing witness to our
Unforgettable scars
Bleeding internally
From the heart

Homesick, lovesick
Wanted only by ourselves
In the memory of needing

Stamping away at the ground
A perfect sun outlined
In the tacky edges of
A magnetic appeal
Forcing the heavy lids
To erode and rise against
Bitterness

I’ve hoped to catch the moon
In a yellow river of grief
Woven together in rippled
Sacrificial numbers of disunity
Maroon prophesies
Dripping from my lips
And ancient light
Echoing from
Our wrists

Celebrate the basis
For a lifetime lived
Friends departed
One final kiss

Muditā

If I lived up to the
Loss of what everyone
Wanted to replace this with
I would have been
A miraculous man lest
My bones are sore
Perhaps I entangled myself
Beyond unraveling

Just like the canary
Singing at night
For the first time
Heart opened wide
Willing to share what
Wasn’t known in vulnerable
Moments enchanted by
A certain muditā

Altruistic joy
You share with me
What I feel too belongs to you
And to us a countess to
Compassion

Say what you mean
To mean what you say
Twenty seven minutes later
And we’re still arriving
In our favorite place
Together residing
In the other

Torpor

Ennoble my depth
Did you think I would send
You away?

Heartbreak immaculate

Jeopardize our everything
Knowing your worth
A heart full of historical
Love?

Just to give you a chance
To enter the Sagrada Familia
With peace in your heart
Calm soul

Farrago I would never
Want to let you go
Call me back into the bed
Meditation in my head

Hold me down begging
Myself never to ever
How to leave you
Let you go

Parting ways was
A deepest sorrow
Every tomorrow
Is fully missed
Without your
Kiss

Did I give you the
Best send off
Receive the request
Correctly?

I held you close
Even down to bones
And strong we were
Holding on
Emboldened by
Our love

When to know the right
Time is never knowing

Honoring the moment
I am empty full of
The most beautiful
Memories that only
You could gift me

Selfling

She took it upon herself to
Make it painful for the rest of us
A priority and a duty
To disturb the peace
It brought her joy
To purely destroy

This one wouldn’t tell me
Anything on her own
I had to catch her
In the act

Her secret life
Didn’t include me
Although I told her
Everything

Kiss her head and
Off to bed is
Poetry in motion

Ending of a dark period
After one year long
Self imposed restrictions
Waking up bathed in
Self confident permissions

Ready

You make me feel like
You see what I do as important
Like I’m smart or something
How do you do that?
Not giving everything up
One breath at a time
I can taste our future
It’s hard to believe

Apologia if I sound unrealistic
I always wanted to be more
Interesting than I am
I’m not absent of confidence
Just wanted to grow up
In Greece or France
Speak a second language
Fluently not bits and pieces
Not levels to herald but flow

I was taught to be happy
With what we’ve got
That’s the spot
This whole capitalist shit
Is not where it’s at
It’s in the beating heart
Of your smile
In the moment that I
Tell you that you’re beautiful
And you receive it

That’s the magic
I want to wake up to everyday
That’s the potion
I want to drink
That’s the weed
I want to smoke
That’s all the drugs
That I need
That’s your love

Distortion

I feel weird today
Very strange like I
Just woke up from a
Full night of drugs
But I don’t do any drugs
So if this is how it feels anyway
Then maybe I should

What’s the trade off?
How to go on fueling inspiration
How important is the truth
Upfront it’s much more interesting
To just go along with everything
If you really want to get to know
The person inside you’ll
Find out later

What’s the truth?
Even if we speak the truth-

Does anyone give a shit
About honesty until they
Really know you

And even then
How much do they
Truly care?

I read graffiti
On a dumpster today
SPEAK TRUTH

If you ever find a way
To get out of the system
I’ll follow you there

Bigger

I loved this about us
A vibe that was undeniable
No need to test the waters
Curiosity in my lap
We had it all
No looking back

In obeisance I bow down to you
To remind me of the good
All things beautiful like a flower
I drop my chin to the ground
In the glory of your morning

Retrospecting back at life I am
Honored to be in your inspiration
Blue eyes he said
She recalls your flamboyant
Nature floating around
Speaking your heart

What paucity are we weaving
In and out of these smaller than
Grand scheme moments
In one lifetime, one timeline
Did I wake you?

Did I give up on love?
Did we less it up?
Or was it the safest thing to do
Can it be bigger?

I miss how you loved me
Even though we were broken
I still dream about you
And what we once always knew
Oh, how we wanted together

Glowering

You can’t keep up with
This fire though you want to
Touch it you know you
Still can’t keep up with it

My head is clear
Clear as day
No need to say
Anything more about it

Free breath
Free air
I don’t care

No more scowling
No more glowering
I won’t vitrify my heart
Feels good to smack my hands
Dust it off
Batting it away

When we come back for love
We come back for ourselves
First things first

No more ominous
No more sullen showering
Have the moment
How does it feel
No glowering
Just glowing

Ruinous

It was a deleterious dinner
Every night was a fight
Fill your belly go to bed
Injury to the head
Intrusive thoughts

Protection
Protection

This was the medicine
To create the circle of
Guidance and keep the
Bad ones out

Like a gang for love
Not a group for pain
Stay away grab your stake
The vampires come to prey
On your beautiful light

Lights out!
Lights out!

No peace for you
If the world wants to
Beat around in your noggin
It breeds no permission
For stopping

Grab your tool kit and run
An ankh and a bracelet
For transmission

Abhor mistakes
No broken hearts
No shattered ways

Humble in love
Remove the piece that
Doesn’t fit, that’s it