Broken Phone

No one calls
To check on me
No carriage
Comes to ride
How long before
They find me
What if I have died
I almost got
Shot once
Tending
To a rose
What happens
If I end up
Face down
And no one knows
(In a flowerbed)
No one calls
To hear
The sound
Of my voice talking
Maybe it’s a choice
Maybe they think
It’s stalking
Maybe I’m in Italy
Maybe I’m in Spain
On a colline
In the French country
Stuck in a window pane
Just to look at
Online posts
Nobody really knows
No one calls
To check on me
Existence is a joke
An image is a picture
A heart a
Human life
Pick up the phone
And call me
Or find a pen
To write

© GÄ

Chevalier

Dark embittered thoughts
Early morning on the rise
Laying with my ruminating
Trying hard not to disguise
Their uglinesses
Face it to face it!
Where is my dauntless knight
To shield me from the
Mornings’ fright
There are so many
Bones to pick
I am only one person
My narrator
My storyteller
Where do all the scenes
Rise up from
Is there one thing?
One thing only
That can wash away
The droning
The haunting drops?
Is there something unspoken
To empty out this brain?
Fountains of roses
Waterfalls of comfort
How can we reach around?
Where is my knight!
Rescue the harmed ones
Deep in my dreams
Float out of the chaotic
Nightmarish scenes
Open my eyes to
One more morning
One more day to be alive
One more day to be untied
Rattle all disturbances
I’m ready to fight
For my joy
Bring me my knight!
Shining armor
Made of magic and steel
No more bones to pick
No more stones
No more sticks
Maybe the astral light
Delivers me to you
Riding in with strong winds
Galloping against grievance’s
Castles not coffins
Bliss has brought sadness
A gift of deliverance
A kiss goodbye
For whatever forever
Might look like
To a knight
To a best mate
To an erasing embrace
Of blue harbored drama
Start anew
To see my reflection
In your eyes is
To feel the freedom
From my minds’ misdirection
Dark embittered thoughts
Early morning on the rise
Laying with my ruminating
Trying hard not to disguise
My instrument of forgiveness
Wield your sword
Within the veil
Sever morning and nighttime
Where is my dauntless knight
Shield me from the
Dawn of fright
Your strength erupts
The bubbling of my heart
Unbroken and protected
Behind your chainmail
Cotte de mailles
Translucent perception
Face it to face it!!
Visually perfected
My storyteller
I wake up
To the distraction
Of your smile

© GÄ

80’s Hair Metal

Love is a drug
It’s choking me to death
Love is a drug
And I can’t get out of bed
Love is a drug
It strangles me inside
Love is a drug
All the sleepless nights
I can’t take it no more
But I still want you baby
Love is a drug
Can’t stop thinking ‘bout you baby
Love is a drug
And it’s driving me insane
Love is a drug
If I go on like this baby
Love is a drug
I’ll be losing all restraint
I can’t take it no more
You’re the reason I’m saying
Love is a drug
(You know it’s true)
Love is a drug
(It’s after you)
Love is drug
(No place to hide)
Love is a drug
Get me off this ride!

© GÄ

Unknown

The unknown is not scary
The unknown is definite
The unknown is moving
Like a song
The unknown is changing
To be open to be wrong
To accept the possibility
Of anything
Is to evolve
Into the unknown
We cannot
Prepare the self
To lose even your most
Treasured possession
For what is left
Your best friend
Your favorite pet
Nothing is permanent
To discover the purpose
Even to dream of living
To the centennial year
Receiving forgiving
Is not confirmed
No control
No confirmation
Water pours out
From the end of a hose
Until it does not
The future is unknown
We cannot see
What we do not know
The unknown is unsettling
The unknown is indefinite
The unknown is still
Like a rock
Do not be overcome if
To wake up to what you have
Is gone and so long
To know also that
What is present is good
It will not matter what you’ve got
How much or how little
The unknown is riddled
With uncertainty
What is real
What is not
Find your home in yourself
The world bets on a guess

© GÄ

Archaeology

I want to make love to your voice
Nearly stardust in your chords
Grandiosity of creation
Alas not in a hurry for excellence
To be patient is to call out
To greatness

Like a lost tomb my heart
Lies untouched and undisturbed
By the chance of grave robbers
Heart stoppers and passion killers
To be dusted off by the echos
Of the most exhorted breath
Of love

Inside glimmering caves of hope
A buried light that was protected
For a journey into the outer realm
Of indicative miracles
There is a galaxy unhinged
By a romance that is promised to
Puzzle and cure us in
Strange and beautiful ways

Hands wrapped and intertwined
Bodies spooning and charged
In a metaphysical light
Our sound together as one breath
Inhabits momentary shelter
When bound together in ancient
Tether stretch and reach
Around the bend of
The last universe
Left intact with rosy splendor

Up down in out push
To reach you from behind
And carry you further than
The distance of a possibility for life
An existence filled with love
Excavated by your touch
I can once again
Feel love

© GÄ

Anymore

Are you evil
With all your friends
Or just the ones
You want to miss the most?
Devouring all innocence
Hungry for more hearts
A secret cave
For killing love
Black eyed
Black heart
Ignorance plays
A solitary part
A bit like getting
Shot in the ass
I just wanted to connect
But I was met
With a world
That was too busy
A face that was
Too pretty
Your absence
Makes you guilty
To the murder of
Our friendship
Your silence is a
Criminal impersonation
For the deceptive one who
Used to plan their
Destination into my arms
Pretend to be there
Pretend to charm
But what you really end up being
Is alarming if you think about
What we used to have
Think about love
The meaning of flowers
Funny how nobody wants
To think about that
Anymore

© GÄ

Now Somehow

To feel like
I’m a kid again
Hanging out in my house
The sanctuary that I dreamed up
As if my mom or dad
Would come around the corner
To surprise me to tease me
To feel again like I did
As a kid
Taking my socks off
On the couch
Pushing my bare feet
In between the cushions
Old tv shows returning me back
To the place where I can
Pretend that I’m on the divan
That I was on so many times
Before when I was young
Kool-aid in wine glasses
Fantasizing the future
I created the space how can I
Have it again in this
Grown up body
When I was there I looked ahead
Here I am now looking back
In this grown up life
I want to feel the freedom
That I did as a kid
As the adult that I am
Now somehow

© GÄ

Just Some Words

I want you to say
You didn’t want it that way
To reach out on your own
To say you even miss the place
You used to call home
(Wishful thinking)
I want you to wish
You would have said
More things like this
But you didn’t
But you would’ve
(Broken dreams)
I want you to want to know
What I want you to say
Meet me at the table
I always wanted you to
Sit at with me
That you will be there
(Lunatic thoughts)
I want you to admit
That it was really good
That it was
Something you betrayed
Something you left behind
Something you threw away
Something you did
(Idealism hurts)
When you made the decision
Not to be kind
But to remind yourself
That you were always right
I want you to say
You were wrong
That you lied
To yourself
About how right
How good
How deeply
That I loved you
(Love is blind)
And to understand
That all I ever needed
Was to be acknowledged
For your crime
Not showing up for me
(Not reading my mind)
In the way you said
That you could
Or at least
For you to wish
You wanted to
I want you to say
You didn’t want it that way
To reach out on your own
To say you miss the home
I built for us
(That you abandoned)
I want you to wish
You would have said
More things like this
But you didn’t
Because you couldn’t
Hear my side
The sound of
(Your own voice)
To yourself was
More appealing

© GÄ

To Another One

Like a dark tide
Wading low out in the distance
There was no comfort
To keep me on the shore
So the dark blue
Electric feud
Calls no one
The bleak empty sea
Of our past memories
Swept away with today
In a boat of irresolvable
Friendship
Not even the
Illuminating scent
Of our past
Could be unsunk
Whatever moon was meant
Whatever time was spent
Whatever sun descends
On the horizon
Of what we once possessed
We will no longer commend
For what we cannot apprehend
To close the door on one love
Is to open up the heart
To another one

© GÄ