why – Poétique

Labile

Easily altered his mind was
Tinkered with over time and
In the end he couldn’t remember
What really happened and
What didn’t ineffectual

Just to be loved and cared for
Turned into what can you
Give me do for me work for me

Nobody told me that what
You experienced was war the
Opposite of love

Meant for Hollywood
Born in the woods
Not much to write home about
Talented kid

Where did the rest of it go
All the good for nothing but stone

We had friendship
Somehow forgotten
We hand kinship
All of that vanquished
By the darkness

That couldn’t love what
That couldn’t accept
That wanted the worst
For the rest of us

And he woke up smiling
Remembering a different time
Washed over by forgiveness
In a way that no one needed to
Discover remission
Uncover compassion
Disasters of a plague

Family can do that
That’s why we make friends

Bleuté

Shadow runner
Thoughts are half asleep
They are perfectly rested
In the slits of my eyes
No disguise
Inimitable

Why would a mother say
She couldn’t comfort you?

I painted your hair blue
Only on the edges
A little duller than cerulean
Ironed the hair pin straight
Like China dolls

When I came back there were
Bits of blue all over you
I was cleaning the stains
How did it get here?
Over there, everywhere

I was looking for red velvet
Strands of hair like the fabric to
Braid in and you found the orange
Only two bags left in the aisle

All this dressing and beautifying
To make a person feel special

Why would a mother say
She couldn’t comfort you?

Why then a boy
Seeking a woman
To comfort him in a way
His mother didn’t do it?

It’s like one of your lives going away
We take a hit and there is Zelda
No getting it back that part is over
Oblivion to a proper transparency
Desperate as hungry hyenas
Yet it is written on the leaf
Underneath where the light shines
Through pinholes the stars bathe
In the absence of all eternity
Even for extraterrestrial beings
Who hide in our peripherals
It’s a different kind of work
When we close our eyes
Are you afraid to wake up
Massalia calls to the abandoned
La ville de Béziers asks to be
Unforgettable too the stoney
Bridges are like archways
Traveling through the minds
Of our ancestors into us
The dog barks and my thirst
Is unquenchable although
There are gallons of water to
Appease the yen pines for
Something even more to get
Closer to the folklore of the
Ultimate pinpoint if to dagger
It out and make one last attempt
To touch the base sink the target
Sending out an SOS

Why Not?

Why do I take a beautiful moment
And make it less because I didn’t do more
Do I have to be aware of what I
Haven’t done as if my body knows
I’m giving up on a moment just
To settle the score with it
Alternately missed at being special
Just as it is. A remarkable thing.

Work until I die that’s the vibe
Why sit around in one place
My spirit was not built like this

Beating at the drum of
Yourself because to do more is better
A tally is kept and you remember
You forgot something or did it
Incorrectly I’d rather celebrate the
Accomplishments of getting to
Where we are now because
There will be discouraging
Even seemingly evil hurtles
Along the road to wake up to
Everyday what I could’ve done
Is a crime that supersedes
The purpose of what most would
Hope to acknowledge as

A meaningful existence

I Wonder

How many times did you
See me when I wasn’t looking?
How long are you gonna keep
It to yourself?
You still continue to
Refuse to make it better
You excel at that
Not just with me
But like with EVERYONE
You did me bad
No remorse in your smile
Par for the course
Of course
Why did I have to
Find out this way
I guess I’m glad you lied
About the forever friendship
Part of the story
You could have just
Told me that you’re no fun
Surly disheartening
No more restarting
All that is left is the
Disorienting likes
On posts of things
You seem to care about
More than a few words
Or simply reaching out to me…

Why You

Why you make me
Want to do
Unexpected things for you
Why you make me
Want to switch
Rearrange and change
What if I become dumber
When I’m around you
What if I become an idiot
When I’m with you
I think I do
I lose my brain a bit
When I’m around you
Forget things
I always knew
Why do I become dumber
When I’m around you
I lose track and sight
I have a goal set
In my mind
I try to focus
And yet even things
That I have known forever
Slip like stars
Out of the sky
Why you make me
Want to why

The Question

I remember us as we were
Best friends in an oblivion of lust for life
Running to the beach every Sunday
Finding a reason to wake up together
You loved the time we spent together
The ideas that I shared with you
Willing to fly to any height
And once we reached the top
Of the never ending gift of forever
You found a way to say
Do it my way

Step by step innocence
Bringing me closer and closer
Never knowing that I would lose my Friend
And gain someone
Who wanted to control me
Out of fear for losing me
I’ve seen your kind before and left
Watching what I wear, when I sleep
Who I talk to and if you cannot control it
You take the friendship away
And punish me by removing yourself
Entirely from the picture
Temporarily erasing
The dream

I know you
Here I am again praying to resist the urge
To want to escape from you
Through some mind altering substance
It’s always the last card you can pull
Push me over the edge to get your way
Make me vulnerable enough to stay
The way you want me to

Is that how you want me?
Is this what you want from me?
We are moving at different paces
Different speeds
Different marathons
And you say you can’t receive me
Is it because
You’re too busy receiving yourself?
Am I just fucked up enough
For you to love?
Do you want something better?
Or should we always stay the same?
Never to blame
Always right
Forget the insight
Just continue to be
The same person
That no one will ever get to?
Yes I’m talking to you

What do you do
When you don’t have to track me
Like a wolf after prey
She is ready to find you
To control you to protect you
From yourself

Do you see me for who I am?
Can you glorify that?
Can you lift it up
Without wanting to possess it
To take credit for it?
Must you receive recognition
For everything you do?
Is this relationship just an opportunity
To get it right for yourself
And if it’s so
How is controlling me
Allowing you to see clearly?

You are the question I cannot answer
The flame I cannot light
The dance floor I cannot find
Always hiding in the dark
Behind the trees
Catching everyone off guard
Including yourself
Wouldn’t it just be easier to open the door
When someone knocks?
Hiding from it all including yourself
In the tide amongst the rocks
There is a wall to get to you
And many have refused to climb it
Those that have tried
Are met by more bricks
You continue to build the closer I get

Every color changes
Every pathway ends
Every cloud floats away
I want to breathe your essence in
But you keep it caged so well
That letting go feels like death to you
Just like the bird
You let escape from our home
I can find you too
I can catch your spirit
And bring you home too
If only you could set yourself free
Just enough to believe
Can you answer why
This is the question
For me

Why Do You?

Why do you tear me down
When I need you to build me up
When will your insecurities
Stop stealing all our love
Why are you so reckless
With my feelings
Why are you so clumsy
With my heart
It’s like you have no awareness
At all for the fires that you start
What about the moments
You’re tearing us apart
It’s no wonder I don’t want to be touched
When you constantly hurt me this much
This song should really be called
It’s All About You
Your insecurities fly away
With all our feelings
On a plane

I just need a cloud to rest
My heavy heart on

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