Author: Geino Äotsch

Just a regular person.

Picture

Even without knowing you
Your smile comforts me
How can this be
If we
Have never met?

I envision a
Picture of my life
With you
Through your eyes

Professor
Poet of the heart
I can pretend
Learn how to be patient
In the possibility
From today

Mostly tomorrow
Though I don’t know you
Do the insides
Match the outside?

North of the equator
An image that aspires
To fulfill a passionate desire
Located on the
Continental crust of my future

A picture of what transpires
Yet make believe
If I don’t know you

To see our smiles together
Friendly

Will you finish with
A photo in my life?
I feel a tropical heat
Plateauing through
Your teeth

A beautiful smile
That comforts me
How is it possible?

How I would like
For us to meet…

© GÄ

Enchanted Loom

Climb through
My dreams the canvases
Claim the desire to
Understand you
Make it comprehensible
The subconscious
Turning
In my stomach
Feed my thoughts
Burning inside
Spinning wheel
Of flumes
My consciousness
It tells me everything
Left to my interpretation
Moonlit my throat
Swallows to see
Look inside the third eye
From my heart
I’m hungry to know you
What you want to say
Even my dreams
Can’t tell me
These kinds of
Things

In a Tuscan maze

I walk the Earths womb
Darkness and light
Quietly on tiptoe
In each sickness
Frightful not to know
Never knowing really
What I don’t
But I won’t put
Our book of secrets down
The wand is waiting
Overflowing with answers
For our love
Just at the forefront
Packed up
Like a chrysalis
Caught in your
Enchanted loom
Voodoo dust
A caterpillar
Ready to burst
Feet extended
Tongue curled up
Doorframe to window
Web strung resilience
A quilted heart
Swept away by your
Love broom

© GÄ

Little Heartbreaker

You love everyone
And no one at all
Do you still love me
I wonder

For what did we befall

I remember when
I was the best for you
Then I learned that
Being best meant
More than what I
Thought that I
Could do

I didn’t know
There was an expectation
One that I created
Loving you so much
Can do that I guess
Affiliation is
Indeterminable

Everyone is your best friend
I see everyone is the same
So who is special
Is there ever anyone?
What are the things you speak of
Grounded in?

What to believe…

You love everyone
And no one
Do you still love me?

The question comes up
In my pulse
When you walk by
Even though I know
There’s no definitive
Answer in any language

It’s easier to know that
If I step back I will hurt less
But I won’t miss you any less
Perhaps I’ll miss you more
I guess

And then again
There you are
Knocking at my door
Intertwined
In one another’s lives

Will you still be here in June
I often wonder if the sun
Poses the same face
To the moon

The morning after
We’ve seen so much
I watch you love
Any and all you want
It’s beautiful
To bear eyewitness to
Yet without any alliance
My heart feels broken
In this awkwardness
Defiant

Unsure
And yet I’m open
Because now
I can love you how
I want to
On my own terms
Even if you
Can’t return
It’s similarity

Wearing many hats
Jack of all loves
I’ll watch you grow
And maybe someday
We’ll know

If you appreciated
What I tried to give your
Little heartbreaking soul

Huh

© GÄ

Because Both

Because I love
With individual form
My concern supersedes
Any possibility
For something to be
More important
Than you

Your influence
Inspires my delusion
To enjoy the alternative
Ways I have to call
To dispose of my feelings
For you throughout
All different moments

Every shell and case
Has a different impact
All are capable of
Effect or none at all

Both

© GÄ

SOS

Be smarter than the pain
Above it all
The tentacles cannot
Take us
Into the pit

Witness this

What we put the self through
Above it all
If you allow it to get the best of you
It wins
And you are no longer

Forbearing

Sirens
Above it all
Signals of distress
SOS
Backronyms
To taking good self care

International codes

This is a tool
Above it all
To help make you aware
Save our ship
Save our souls
Si opus sit

Save Our Selves

Not to bludgeon yourself up with
Above it all
Squandered love
Dissipated desires
Want for more
Settle the score

State of emergency

Non reactory to things
Above it all
Emotions that are being
Displayed
Toyed with
Said only for you to react to

Find your own way
Above it all
Any unwillingness to rise above
Self infliction
Caused by
Social interaction

Cuddles demise

Mind the curves
Above it all
Focus is
Above it all
Bleeding heart
Above it all
Doesn’t it feel good to ascend
Above it all
What did we come here for
After all

© GÄ

Cheers

Do the best that you can
with the time that you have
You say

Love the hardest you can
Especially when you don’t want to
We can

If you tell the truth as you know it
You will never have to defend a lie
Because

We all make mistakes

The more
We admit our mistakes
To one another
The easier it is
To make them
In front of
Each other

Inside
You’ll find a song
At the bottom of a well
That is holding a place
For you in a heart

My heart
With total acceptance

Will you send down
Your basin
Jump off of the swing?
I’m ready for
Our best beginning

Cheers

© GÄ

Marriage

Laughing
Caring for our home together
Breakthroughs
Flowers are growing

Arguing
We antagonize one another
We repeat the same lessons frequently
Trees are snapping

Stressing
We have contention
When we need a simple resolution
Cookies are burning

Confused
We cannot feel as close
As you are with your family
Memories are evaporating

But somehow…

Loving
We find each other
In the middle of a mesmerizing pool
Maddened rapids are subsiding

Float with me

© GÄ

Be the Conductor

In the conduit of a journey
Exhausted rebirth in between
Redirecting over and over
From instinctual survival
We see the world as it is
Internalized by a

Singular perception

With a tendency to inflate
Bring back a humbled gait
One has much more to learn
Than simply rely on fate

An anthropological
Apollo brought this star upon me
But the hand that betrayed me is my own
How very old and human

A pause taken for overwhelming
Experiences of abandonment
Patterns of adaptation
Perhaps in
Avoidance to forget
Being forgotten

Even if we suppress or repress
Project distract disassociate
From the act
Any escape from dealing
With real life
Is still remaining detached
In a powerful default
Of energy

Unless we embrace it
How will we face this?

How do you feel inside
Do you feel empty when you are alone?
Are you trying to fulfill
These things on your own
Or in me…
Fear of abandonment
Can push you away
Codependency can
Play with your mind

To be on a diving board of

Disconcertiveness

Rewinding
For another persons belonging
Is alarming

Disproportionate amounts of space
Spring into a relationship haste
That leaves you hanging
Due to the death of a loved one

But
We can be alive together
If not for each other
Fight for the light
For whatever
We could have

Even as allies

The living
Looking forward
To what’s better

Symphonically connected
To the gifts that we discover
In this moment
Be the conductor

© GÄ

Quelque Chose

Quelque chose de libre
Quelque un qui souris
Quelque part ailleurs
Quelque fois ton visage
Éclaire mon cœur

Ôte les chaussettes amant
Donne moi une gouttelette
De ta lumière mortelle

Peut-être tu vas éblouir
Mon visage rougit quand tu ôtera
Quelque chose
Partagées tes vêtements avec la Terre

Les murs ne vont pas parler
Ferme la porte
Ouvre ta bouche
Ta fenêtre redonne le soleil

Allumettes de notre incendie
Nos cœurs prennent feu
Glisse sous le drap
Réveille avec moi
Une nouvelle personne

© GÄ

Total Darkness

Stand and shine
Even in blackout
As the person that you are
185 steps to the bottom
Glowing from the inside out
Stalactites dripping down
Not just the picture
A cave of wonders
Beyond what people
Want you to be
What do you see?
Show us all
The inner painting
What you’re about
A masterpiece
Even in total darkness
I can hear the walls sing
Residuals of your heart beat
Silence articulated
Discreet
In a gallery of praise
For the minutes and
The hours that pass us by
Black light
Nightness
Darkfall
Completely dimmed
Aware of my surroundings
You are the call
I listen for
In a blackwoods
Of wild perplexity
The rarest nightshade
Truly most handsome
Total darkness
Has ever seen

© GÄ