poetry – Page 23 – Poétique

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Risk taking is also
Lavender dreams of being
Ivory streams of temptation
Pull the car over to say hello
To a random stranger

Doff the expectation
Of folding towels a certain way
Showing up for life everyday
In certain kinds where
Uncertainty belies

Lavender and gold
Love you with action

Like skipping rocks
Banana peels
Hopping one from the other
Tiptoeing around not to
Turn over any stability
Keep it same keep it solid
Remaining sumptuous
How can we breathe?

In out in out in out
Music in my head goes
In out in out in out
I need a water spout
Connected to my house
Which is my body

Like a rubber band that snaps
It is the complex thread of life

I will forgo all assumptions
That to be alive is any wayward
Thing or moment in any language

I am betrothed to that which
Comes in frequencies and feathers

Here the water pools in casual ways
Here the thunder claps on its own

We show up when we fox what we can
If even then we have to certainly
But not with tension in our hearts
Rocks crumbled in our brains

Here we show up as we want to
Everyday as we can

This is life the combat
We must fight not just to survive
But to be alive to play

Decorticate

He couldn’t get onto the plane
Or into the place he was
Trying to go

Tear down the room

I had his phone number
And his email stored in my phone
I stepped to the counter to
Help him get where he was going

In the end I’m not sure if it
Truly mattered they
Accepted it without
So many details

Strip it down
Shelling it out
Expose the inside

I handed back money
To another couple in line
Two hundred dollars and
A few more bills in change
As a gift to give later
Hold onto

They left me
Is it a jinxing
Hex me with a dirty eye

When I went to find them
In a giant market
To tell them they could keep it
They had already spent it
Like my trust

Intertwined

With no remorse
A disenchantment
Black magic

Is it too much giving
Do we resent receiving
Maybe we’re outjjnxed

Elucidation

I had to turn the tv on
To get out of my head
The pain of losing you
Won’t let me go

Even though I know
We share space in the ether
Essence of existence in between
I feel your absence everyday

My burning eyes
My burning eyes

Standing in the garden
Without you

Who knew that to
Show you love
Meant also to
Let you go

I will never outgrow you
If I’m getting older
Am I getting stronger?

Relationships come and go
But you are always with me

What I want to get
Out of this is
To be a better man
A better human

Until I see you again

Particle

At one point you
Wanted to do this for me
And now that we’re together
Forever you don’t care?

Where is the personal heroism
Trees stand tall for so long
Unbreakable song in the sky
How much practice will there be
One hundred years it seems
Or more in the afterlife

Write the language of plants
Find the grace to be
Existing harmonically
Ground absorbed beneath us
Light step forward
Dark retreat

Maybe we don’t feel amazing
To ourselves because we are

Once we find out
What’s hiding inside the box
Before you throw it away
Search underneath
In the inner pocket
A gift

We revel in what
Was almost lost

Look deeper before
You toss it into the emptiness

Radio

I know the plans
I have for you!
I hear you declare

Plans to prosper
Not to harm you
Plans to give you hope
A future

I will be thine always
Then you will call on me
I will come and implore
I will listen for you
You will seek me
And find me when?
With all your heart

Is there nothing more dangerous
Than to forget our own strength
Distrust our own feelings
What even of fervor

If we are angry
If we are full of malice
If I am capable of hate
I am committing
The most enormous crimes
And I need you
Because I hurt

So many words we don’t use anymore
We don’t have to ask for them
It’s just given to us

I hear you I see you
We are together
I burn for you

I raise my hand
Expose my palm
I solemnly swear

Some will not believe
That you came to me
Through frequency
Change the radio
As I hold your pillow
In full clarity oscillation
A crystal clear pause

Between two limiting
Frequencies we are
In the radio spectrum

Here plus
There equals
Together

Sur La Route

Is it a long car ride
Or finding our rhythm
Writing a song maybe
Singing it together

Long smiles
Short roads
Open fields

From the everything
Back to the everything
You give me everything

O to sleep through the night
Verily I will be peacefully
Before you in image
And in air

Just the energy of love
Keep my head on
Not screwed too tight
Just light enough to float

Cautionary protection
Guide us sings the canary
We have many birds to travel us
So many others we have loved

And there the outside is calm
And the wild is calling
And to want to be close
Is hanging at every corner
In the room

Are we adults now
When did we become this
With our hands ready
So many elements
At our whim
Coexisting

Less no
More yes

Senses

I can smell you
Even though you’re not here

I can taste the salt
At the edge of your neck
Even though I never have

Watch you grab the back
Of your head your fingers
Deep in your hair

Even this is art
To my eyes

The way you speak
Your ability to ask
For what you want

Like directing traffic
Unapologetically

There is a gap between
What we have and what is

But I can watch you from a
Different place and appreciate
You for all that you are

Whatever we think that is
Range of emotions

Watch the years grow by

Wings

Go the distance
Begin the journey

Running to scratch
At the thing that is
Going away
Before it’s too late

We are tousled
Left outside often
One eye opened
One eye closed

Life can be a gift
Or a disease

How we love it
How we live it

Partaking for goodness
Not with our head in the clouds
But actual genuine kindheartedness

Master plan of succession
Breathe easier live wiser
Laugh more smile often

Simple gages to engage
Remarkable emotions to
Behold instead of withhold
From ourselves a feast
At a table we have
Created to be
Elevated by those around us

What have we left
When we have nothing
But our best laid out in front of us
And no story to tell
How we got there

Both wheels turning
All eyes open
In need of rescuing sometimes
Or just to feel a little more
Appreciated and received

Can you see me?

Jouer

I used to want to come here
But I don’t anymore

Take a bite out of this fig
Find it healing just make time
For love and happiness

Orders coming in
Twisting buns atop your head
Falling asleep way before bed
Forgetting work make time to play

Packages call things to do
Knocking at your existence
Fight to take time
For yourself

Work can wait
Enjoyment cannot
You did a lot
You did a lot

Pet the cat
Walk the dog
Sing a song
Coasting a long

Time for fun
Time for love
Work is done
Work will get done

Better

I wanted to love you
How could you make me despise you

Real feelings shatter

Watch my body shut down
What’s the difference between
Gaslighting and manipulation

When the empath
Let’s you have your way
Will he then be forced to walk away

Let me be the fixer
No space

What’s at the bottom
Or did we already find out
Does it get any worse
Does it go any further
Will you have no limits
Forever stress

What you did to me
Will be hard to forget
What you stole from me
Only added to the weight

The security I had in you
Has been washed away
Perhaps ripped is a better adjective
That’s how it feels
I reestablished that security
In myself with how you left me

You believe you are the
Shiniest rock in the box
Our feelings don’t matter
What I thought would be my
Best choice for the rest of my career
Still hurt me in the end

When will I feel better?