Geino Äotsch

Gravelife

Are we standing in a graveyard
Of light or the underbrush
That caught fire to clean
The forest in our hearts out

Climbing to the top of
Every building
Shouting out fearlessly
We still have more life to live
We still have more love to give

Is the sound of traffic
Rolling by before our eyes
Emptiness or the beginning
Of something grandeur
Something big
Something that says
Live, live, LIVE!

What we thought was important
May not be what we believe now
But somehow the truest
Parts of ourselves
Are taken down
Off the shelves and
Placed into a quiet action
Ready to spring at
Any given moment

We are all connected in tragedy
For the first time
We are all realizing just how much
For all of us that wanted this
Connectedness we never asked
That it should come through pain
But then again the Multiverse
Knows best

The sun continues to go
Up and down
Down and up
We find new ways to fill our cups
Somehow what seemed
To matter before has shifted
The consciousness
Of life is found bright
Underneath rocks and stones
Vibrating deep in our bones

Is this a grave yard of life
Or catastrophic breath of death
Each role takes its turn
Each frequency finds its home

As we find a home in one another
Whether it be at the end of
Valiant sight upon the green
Looking over the serene magic
We imagined to build these things
The knife has light
The drum has passion
Casting rays of heat
Through drops of rain
Like the tears of our
Ancestors on some greater plane

Standing in a graveyard
Full of life with a beating chest
Pumping vibrantly
Looking back
Looking forward
With so much more to give
Live, live, LIVE!

Hold That Smile

Like you mean it
Don’t let it slide
Make it wide
Last awhile
So brilliant

Don’t second guess
If the other person
Really means it
Keep the edges up
Curved full of love

Beamingly pleased
Smile like you mean it
Watch your eyes sparkle back
Through the window
That reflects in the
Eyes of the soul

We don’t have to
Fake it till we make it
This is your moment
So hold on to it tight

Make it bright
Until you drive away
Until you turn the corner
Until they walk away

Hold that smile

Love Me

I woke up
With tears in my eyes
Crying for you
Opened deodorant left on the bed
Scrambled in your head

Why didn’t I love you more?
Why didn’t we spend more time?
Life is so distracting
How do we forget what’s important
Until after someone dies

In my dream I didn’t want
To make it in this life without you
I couldn’t imagine it

But
Grandpa was there
To hold me
Even though he was
Gone before you

I guess the missing never ends
And there’s really never enough time
So the time we had is perfect
And the time we have is
Left up to us
At my altar
In the garden
You’re still a part of me

In every flower
In every tree
You rescue me

No matter where you are
No matter where you went
I know that you just
Love me

Angel

I think I met an angel tonight
I asked him for a cigarette
He gave me two
And asked me if I wanted to talk

I told him everything
As he helped me off the bus
I fought my tears
And as we started to walk he said

You are lost in your own world
You cannot break free from the life
You have known
You are lost in your own world

As my tears began to dry
I forgot how it felt
For someone to be so nice
Will I ever be alright?
He said

You are lost in your own world
You cannot break free from the life
You have known
You are lost in your own world

Have you ever wanted to die?
It’s so strange to think that I
Could go from wanting to die
To wanting to be alive

She is lost in her own world
She cannot break free from the life
She has known
She is lost in her own world

Steam Rises

The severely fractured
Community rebuilds itself
As the steam rises
Off the roofs of each house
Off the tops of our heads
Releasing anger
Before we lay down for bed

What a beautiful prison
We have made for ourselves
In uninvited confinement
This is your home
Look around
Much better than
A cardboard pillow
On the ground
Surrounded
By bars

Certain losses are irreparable
Not so much as lothario
But sleeping on the back porch
Is only a fools errand
If you don’t like the stars
Are you a stargazer?
Pole perch for love
A pending warning sign
Free the doves…

In a rocking chair of forgiveness
We smile with lips of
Relentless upheaval
Resilient retrieval
Catching the tears
Of strangers
Who are our sisters and brothers
On the street

Rest your head on me
Let me be your shoulder
Of confidence
Beneficence for
A moonlight blanket
Caressing you in a
Pendicle sleep

Take my hand as we
Walk together in splendor
The value of what we become
The difference after the mystery
Subsides in the wake of a tide
That seems unbearable

I have a makeshift wagon
That can get us through
Any part of town
The lights are on
Traveling along an
Emotionally solid ground
Steam rises as we
Find our way
Back down

Ange

Je pense que j’ai rencontré
Un ange ce soir
Je lui ai demandé une cigarette
Il m’en donne deux
Et ma demandé si je voulais parler

Alors je lui ai tout dit
Comme il m’a aidé à sortir de l’autobus
Je me suis battu contre mes larmes
Et quand nous avons
Commencé à marcher il m’a dit

Tu es perdu dans ton propre monde
Tu ne peux pas sortir de la vie que
Tu as connus
Tu es perdu dans ton propre monde

Alors que mes larmes ont
Commencé à sécher
J’ai oublié comment il s’est senti
Pour quelqu’un de si gentil
Pourrai je jamais me sentir bien?

Avez-vous jamais eu envie de mourir?
C’est tellement étrange de penser que je
Pourrait passer de vouloir mourir
À vouloir être en vie

Elle est perdu dans son propre monde
Elle ne peut se libérer de la vie
Qu’elle a connue
Elle est perdue dans son propre monde

Chainmail

There are no chains
Upon my heart
There is no restraint
For what flourishes beneath
The powerful beat
Of my inner
Rum pa pa pum
Would you like some
Of this endlessness
Bitterless love?
No shackles no tethers
None can trammel
The hamstrings
Of my sensitivity
I dream you concentrate
On me my love
I fancy an incubus
Of lust will welcome us
Onto the veranda of
Our daymares
Bathing in the sun
Moonlight resolves
Our nightmares
One by one
I kiss this pear
In remembrance of
My imaginary flair
For you
A make out session with fruit
A dash of patience
Cupped with mastery
Will do
If I wrote you a letter
Would you answer?

For Us

For everything we’ve fought for
For ourselves
For our loved ones
For our animals
For the kindred fire
That burns between us
Even for those that didn’t
Necessarily love us
We fight through the tears
We ask questions like why?
Is this punishment?
Let it be said that
All of this is happening
For us not to us

Debauchery

I don’t mean to be a screwball
I don’t mean to be a nut
I don’t mean to cause a raucous
I don’t mean to make a fuss
I’m just trying to lend a hand to
Have a little bit of fun
I’m just trying to unwind you
With a trumpet and a drum
You can bring your favorite person
You can stay in bed till noon
We can have a little soirée
I’ll cook all your favorite foods
First we’ll skinny dip at midnight
Hang our clothes on crescent moons
Dance like nymphs amongst the forest
Ride albino caribou
Why not next float down the river
Redirect the stratosphere
Meet the dolphins at the mouth of
Where the ocean’s crystal clear
Watch the comets kiss the mountains
Write love letters in the stars
There’ll be no more second guessing
On our rocket trip to mars
Then after we return
From our galactic weekend cruise
I’ll slip you into bed
And rub your head all afternoon
I know it’s rather comical
Indeed it sounds unlikely true
But don’t be skeptical my love
I’ll pick you up at half past two

Fever for You

You send chills
Up my body and
Into my bed
A magical place
Where I suddenly
Remember everything
I forgot to do
You’ve got such a
Nice glow about you
Lanterns hanging above us
Swinging about
Rockabye love
In your arms
Albeit likely
Virtual for the time being
But you’ll be here
Coming around the later
Clock hour
I’d wait all night for you
Waitin’ for you is a tease
And a blessin’
You keep me guessin’
Suppose that makes me
Hotter for you
Like I’ve got a fever for you
Can’t hardly tell the difference
Between honey on bread
Or your lips on me
There’s a certain music
That plays in my head
When you’re around
Different than the tune
I hear when you’re not around
That song pines a bit
I’ve got the incense lit
Watching it draw shapes
Around the room
Reminds me of the shape of you
The way it lingers in the air
It hangs like the memory
Of your essence when you leave
Even though I know you’ll be back
I always play like it will be
The last time I see you
It makes my passion ride deeper
Faster in the way that
Jumping hurdles gives you
A kind of high
Like you can do anything
Every time we jump another
I feel my blood rise
I even want to bust out cryin’
Just a little at least anyway
To know that we have this
Somebody take my temperature
The doctor says I’m fine
Maybe their’s just no thermometer
For a sickness of this kind