Sublimate

Alluding to the fact that we
Needed no work because we
Had everything we wanted
I went to the store just in case
Of course there is always the chance
Life is sketching you out a new
Possible future like having another bird
Since the last one that lived with us
For eighteen years long was now gone
On the way down the aisle
Everyone can hear them as
They were all squawking to say
“Take me home!” but I wasn’t ready yet
I fell in love with a multicolored character
Locating a paper to identify
What kind of bird it may be
I brought the tag with me to the register
Just in case I changed my mind
Feels like the walk of life remains
Also the walk of death sometimes
I thought I heard someone behind me
And then a few children came bustling up
Asking in Spanish:
“¿Me preguntas dónde conseguiste tus botas?”
I knew which boots they were talking about
Still the only word I could find was zapatos!
When I looked down the boots I had
Been wearing were now some favorite shoes
I’d forgotten about from ten years before
Their father was a handsome gentleman
He thanked me and ushering them along
I was pushing forward myself I had the
Will to give up but not the strength to
Birds behind glass calling
Children laughing at mass
Everything we work for trying
To find its way to a surface of meaning
Misled by the heart balling
Innocently enough on some
Rudimentary walk that would
Prove to be magnificently mundane
Still churning for an effort
To create a particular kind of delicious butter
Out of this unpredictable eternity and
Spread it onto toast for one last bite
There’s no significance
About doing or being nothing when
Waking up is so painfully useful!
Just in time to fall asleep again
Another opportunity to make sense
Of the senseless subconsciousness

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Candlelight

Dressed to impress
Let the mood soften this
Candlelight lit by the darkness
Ups and downs keep us
Spinning round knit to the
Unknown words on the tongue
Never heard or text before
Emotional suggestions of
Whole heart palpitations
Coming out from every pore
No way to really stop it the…
Want to be the complete self
In the moment but also look back
And realize how much of
It is high volume light vibration
The relief comes in waves
Whatever direction from nothingness
More passion when sharing the
Exact story saying the truth
So much more full than
Half moon coming in full sun
It’s certainly more memorable
That way even when the
Glowing is dimming

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One

Just going through the motions
Sometimes that’s all you need
Maybe we do it and don’t know it
When he was particularly aware of it
He felt strange realizing that he
Was always doing it naturally before
But now it felt forced necessarily
Waiting for the light to change
Sometimes just running through it
Do we follow every rule and fail
Or are these simply guidelines
Oak trees and moss continue on
Creeping in rain like patterns
Mystical fens flowing on trees
And the random birds chirping
In the air relief from the cold hard
Winter that was approaching briefly
Before it arrived we all stood around
A fire and laughed about the
Doldrums of the past year
A Native American song was
Shaking the background and
He recalled how to be strong
Again but it was for himself this time
He was out of practice because
He was always doing it for others
Going through the motions
Reiterating structure
Humming in the us factor
Problematically difficult
When he was humming again
For one yet both sides of him
Stood ready for two of what becomes

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Rebound

Veneration in a holy smoke
We elevated ok the first round
When we almost lost you
And here we are again
Hanging in tight for dear life
I remember bike rides and
Blue blankets rocking you
Into a second existence
This is your third or fourth
I almost feel shame for
Encouraging you to do it
Over and over so I’ll let you
Lead the way this time
Maybe it’s just a fever
I had new ground to stand on before
Everything that was holding me back
Was finally done and I had
Ten thousand horses behind me
Thunderous hooves to beg and to
Plead for you down on my knees
Don’t take him yet I careened
To the gods and they listened
Keeping up after three years time with me
Emotional investment is real
Once you check out I can
Love on but only as the light unfolds
Only as the story is retold
Only as your temperature goes down
Let’s sleep on it until we know
Day one again in the morning resounds
Om dreams imagining sleep

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Clouding

Immense emotion after all this time
Watch the rain unwind stretched out
Into little pieces like tears on a plain
Gravitating towards the west side
You can watch the cold air billowing
Beneath your nose and the shadows
From the light above cast slick images
With the movement and the sound of
Just being present in the elementary
Shock of unknowing things such as
Later today or tomorrow or ten years
From now but we still somehow charge
Ahead different from a time like the
Ancients who were savage and didn’t
Know if they would wake up alive or dead
But a similar consciousness to note
We are still humans creating challenges
And obstructing ourselves to feel
Some form of life coasting through our
Veins in the wet country of darkness
Seeking light and other forms of life
Will I remember to be a mad scientist?
Will I remember to have fun?
When the rest of the world stops
Following all the rules
Don’t forget to open the door for someone
Be kind to your neighbors when bombs
Come down from overhead in an
Apocalyptic thread unlike rain
It won’t matter if we’re dead

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Still

I had a dream last night
That I held you; scooped you up
While you were dying again
I watched you breathing slowly
I remember when your
Aptitude was faltering like this
Fading before my eyes
But still hanging onto
The breath of life
We find ourselves aching
From stress but keep moving
Of course I can’t really tell
But the shivers seem abnormal
I want to ignore the way that
You’re sleeping but
Maybe your heart is overworked
Some part of you is giving out?
I would never be ready
I’m not sure how to
Handle the exit approach
I saw you looking confused
Earlier today
So much to celebrate and then
Nothing is too great
If you’re gone
I could sing you a lullaby
Wake up alone
If I fall asleep will you still
Be there in the morning?

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Synthesis

How pastiche!
Fetching after ourselves
Like we do when it hurts to remember
And also when it hurts to let go
Holding on at both ends
Maintaining the broken soul
Patching the holes
Only becomes remarkable
After you’ve been doing it
On your own for sometime
Creating our own mysteries
Hiding things from ourselves
Resonating with independent
Thoughts preparing for death
In ways that we actually cannot
Hair stands up on the back of
Your neck to warn you
An end is coming with
Coffee or no coffee
It’s out of your control
Ants march on
Some of them die
Others return
Is it an exchange of another
Soulhouse where the
Reincarnation keeps repeating itself?
How does the army
Keep going headstrong
Or headstone one way
Or the other we meet the
Meaning of both at some point
A copy of ourselves
Next timeline déjà vu

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Rerun

Who’s inventing anymore?
We just reuse stuff over and over
Because I did what I wanted
Not what they wanted…
“I’m not a dummy!” he said,
Are you in it for love?
We all have different ways uh talkin’
If you ain’t in it for love
What’s the point?
Don’t throw doubt into my head
Seems idiotic but
Everything is cycling over and over
Structure unlike structure
Sequels instead of originals
Hear the inner voice say
Don’t wait! (Many of us)
Won’t get the chance again
Follow the heart jump
Say the uncomfortable thing
Now that liberation is
Part of the picture why boy do ya
Question yourself
Be a man! Damnit!
Grow some and say
What no one else will say…
That’s the way you invent something

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Wins

Pondering the hurtles of everyday life
The black and white of not over analyzing
It is what it is no matter how you look at it
The end result is also the only result in the end
Like running through an obstacle course
Of used up tires careful not to trip
We slip one foot into each hole and
Quickly quip the other foot out carefully
The more we perfect the rhythm
The better we are at it
He begs to question is life
What it was always going to be
Or did he have something to do with it?
Having others around can make it easier
Having others around can make it harder
His perception was only his perception
It doesn’t mean anything to be caught up
Or cavity free because ultimately
It will come around and there it is again

Someone to celebrate the wins with
That would be nice no one there to
Cheer you on that you got over that hump
I remember some elders mentioning
“Must be nice to be so young, just over there having all the fun.”
Like someone had ripped it away from them
We don’t really understand this
Consciously at the time and why would we…
When we’re busy enjoying our lives!

Before and after a pandemic
There were dreams to read more
To finally settle the scoreboard
To do all the things that
We never finished before and wanted to
But they didn’t get done
We kept doing what we wanted
What we were drawn to; fun
Eventually the box is checked
The circle is complete
After weeks and months of defeat
Life is the extreme version of this
Loud jets in the cloudy mist
He ends up on the other side of
His epidemic still wondering
When will he finish everything
And with whom will he
Celebrate the wins?
Cold air fades out

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Forklift

We can adjust a reactory behavior
By doing the opposite thing
Experience it and then do not respond to
Any reaction for the experience
Something is changing the way
Your body is processing the status
And the world around you
For instance like glass breaking
Or a tea bag opening in your cup
Becomes mundane
So if it is a choice
Than the thought is
Open Opened Opens
It doesn’t exist to be bad in our mouths
The taste we have the longer we’re alive
The more memories we plant
The more joy the more leaves
And the more pain we record
I can feel it pumping
Underneath the skin
Living in the body with
A conscientiousness that begins
Says why don’t you unfold your self
To everything you’ve always wanted
Red circle and emotional pallets
Laughing out loud alone
Basic lifestyle familiarity on the couch
Forklifting the universe
He spills the tea

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