Tag: Poem

Courtheart

Learning to love me
Is like writing a letter
On my body that arises
Humiliated to the point
That I must say thank you
Adjusting up

Let’s not be drunk and sad
But split open
Excited about the
Improbability
Like a fire
Crackling

Sparks dancing on
Our skin what then
Have we left to hide
Share the ground
With me

What would be left to
Protect me from
If they should
Fight through the
Gates of hell
To get here

Through all folktales
We can brandish the edge
Of ocean break like heaven
Still what would even
The stars hide their eyes
From if the lips of
Celestial beings should purse

For some existing
Everything is a ceaseless fight
Grab ahold of all the glitter
Just to die with it in your arms
What to be petty
Full of judgements not

Glistening on the floor
Delicious sentiments
For tomorrow

© GÄ

Numismatic

Sitting on her throne she hopes
That one day he’ll be happy
Redoutable fears
Rather than smeared in the
Emotional excrement of sadness

Owning his body he is
In charge of not simping around
Putting people on pedestals
Is a dangerous game

Excessive devotion
Self reciprocating
Only a crack in the door
Peaking through the
Crescent light
Lay down the laws
Of course to break them

Castrate the cruel indifference
Take hold of what is wanted
Like a knife to cut a piece
Of fruit if but to place it
On his tongue

Some sense of majesty
Would proclaim happiness
All the same at the corners
Of a curled up smile

Sensuality as money
More than silver
Some lover to pity
Or discover more than
What money is worth in
A bassinet of candlelight

Waking up is more rich
In the presence of such
Crimson bliss than
All the money in the world
Unparalleled unperished
Inner warmth
Très cher

© GÄ

Flailing

Something came
Into my mind last night
The head was covered
In fluffy white feathers
Like a rounded square
The dancing man says
Everything will be fine
Play a record
Watch the sun go down
Accept the uncertainty
Of your existence
Before you came into this world
The choice had been made
That’s philosophy
And in my Greek heart
I desperately need
Words to explain things
And in my Finnish heart
I know the snow
Will melt before the end
And in my French heart
Longing for romance
To fill this gap
But also
To distract us
A senseless life
At the decisive
Moment of contact
So we
Swallow the next years
Unknown events
Story of the future
Lament
Longing for music
Touch this hand
You will feel the
Vibrations of my heart
Produce a loving energy

© GÄ

Lastly

Tired of remembering
Waiting for the sun
To come in differently
Tuning out

Tell me more about the
Way of saltwater and it’s
Stinging substances
Against the lips
Dry mouth

How fortunate you are
To have the friend
Of best live twice in your life
Although they’re gone
Optimism shines
From the top dresser drawer

Piano keys are still wet
With yesterdays tears
Still the music is good
Even to listen for
Many years after
What an experience to revisit

If I could push lavender
Colored petals into my eyes
Only to see tranquil calm
Evoke gentle light from inside
Non sequitur moment
Invite a monkey to do it for me

Grasping at the edge of the earth
The rest is left to nothing
Cracked edges
Sacred treasure of life
Valiant dance to
Dignified death

Forgotten hands that
Once held the rest of you up
Resurface to replace the parts
That are no longer supported
Maybe we are relevant

© GÄ

Mismatched

Laying on the couch in the cold
Bundled under a blanket
She left the shower water running
Packing bags preparing to go

I’m dreaming of who to call
Who can I talk to
When no one is home
I’m running through
All the numbers in my head
I want to share the last
Feelings that I have left

I remember moving in here
I was safe I finally had a place
Not worried about where I was
Going to be waking up the next day
Not willing to give that away
To just anybody

Remembering the satisfaction
It gave to trust yourself
And what you did for your animals

Wake up to find out
You’re on a cold couch again
Looking down at yourself
With the warm lamp light
Casting a glow around your body
Dreaming of a fresh start again

Ready to give up on the old
Give into the new and
Finding yourself aching
For something

Give up on it all
So you can feel alive again
Numb from trying to do
The right thing and met
With the same results
Every time

Must be me
Ready to die just a little bit
Hungry to be received
In a different way

© GÄ

Snap

Poisoned by your needs to
Control everything take over me
My intentions were pure

Tension
Tension

Leaving no room for my wishes
Painfully charging like a steer
Through me go ahead my matador
Take my life as it would

Tension
Tension

I always thought you were the bull
In the China shop pushing
Your way around leaving your
Sloppy marks above ground
But now I am the torro
A rodeo for you to be free in
However you choose to be

Tension
Tension

The sanctity and safety of
What I might have felt has
Gone away and now I am
Left with myself
Not feeling empty but
Ready for change
If I move to Japan
Start over again
Does it matter anyway
It’s my turn to exist
Maybe a year from now

Relief
Relief

A friendship that convicts
Itself of being unprotected
By the elements of your
Outside forces and influences
So then I am wrong
But from all of this
We will be freed

That feels right

© GÄ

Detach

I can hear the echoes
Of a life happening
Outside the chambers
Of my ears and arms

I can’t seem to grasp
Hold of the outside
Overwhelming
Coming down
Crashing in and
Disappearing a
Host to show up
For you until you
No longer need me
Anymore this marks
The territory we tread
People can use you
Until they’re done
There is no other
Way to feel but
Detached sadness

I can hear the echoes
Of a life happening
Outside the chambers
Of my ears and arms

© GÄ

Lanterne

I wanted to do everything with you
But in the end I had to do it myself

Let’s stop being disappointed
Leaving me like this in the wind
I wanted to do it myself
But it was hard to
Do it without you

How could I
He really wanted it
It was already completely gone
I wanted to do everything with you

Firestorm
Firestorm

We had a great time trying
Grinding materials
Withered leaves
Repeated garden
Disappointing love life
Sprinkle salt around the edges
Almost consistent
Reason for no reason
Swallows are dancing

After midnight
I wanted to do everything with you
I will accept what we had
Next step
To do everything

With someone else

© GÄ

Hold Me

Did I cross into this place
Here by mistake
I’m being careful
Not to wake you
With every step I take
It’s like paradise
To watch you sleep so sound
I tiptoe lightly on the ground
Like a feather where I’ve found
This remarkable creatures touch
That stings my heart
No one would believe me
If I told them what I saw

This moment is a soft bed
Made of love
And my face is close enough to feel
Your breath breathe
On my cheek
This warmth makes silence
Difficult to keep
I’m so still and yet so weak
Why am I so afraid to speak

So you can see
How deep my love can go
Would you answer me
If I let me feelings show you
Over and over again
Over and over again
I can’t pretend that I
Don’t want to know
What it would feel like
If you would hold me

I don’t want to risk the beauty
That we share
On the level we already have
The chance to be aware
But I also can’t deny
The way I feel
I’m like a bird inside your cage
Calmly waiting here until
Our fingers and our bodies
Can unite
It never has to happen
But I’ll take the risk it might

So you can see
How deep my love can go
Would you answer me
If I let my feelings show you
How deep my love
How deep my love can go
Would you answer me
If I let my feelings show you

© GÄ

Outfit

Finding myself
Wearing some ridiculous
Lampshade to subdue the light
I cannot easily disguise

I wonder
If a love like that exists

I’ve seen that man
You know the one
Crying outside your window

Shouting “Take me back!”
Drenched from the rain

Always wishing one day he’d
Be asking for you until the
Moment that he did

Dreading what could come
With him and would come
If you let him in

Where was the charming
Poetic boy
Full of fire and indifference

Outside dripping with life
A chance taken for feelings
Granted on the inside

A scratch

Both parts succumbing
Never contending
Correspondent to the rare
Combination

A poetic knight
Shining disarming
A gamut for life
Cooked up in a soup
Made of ginger and dreams
One that I have been sipping on

A quiet observation
Coming and going
Looking out the panes of glass
Heart throbbing

Grasping at a future
Full of memories
Written once and for all
In a newspaper that will
Again be delivered
On the morning
Of a second birth

Fresh and ready
For intimacy

© GÄ