Poem – Page 58 – Poétique

Enchanted Loom

Climb through
My dreams the canvases
Claim the desire to
Understand you
Make it comprehensible
The subconscious
Turning
In my stomach
Feed my thoughts
Burning inside
Spinning wheel
Of flumes
My consciousness
It tells me everything
Left to my interpretation
Moonlit my throat
Swallows to see
Look inside the third eye
From my heart
I’m hungry to know you
What you want to say
Even my dreams
Can’t tell me
These kinds of
Things

In a Tuscan maze

I walk the Earths womb
Darkness and light
Quietly on tiptoe
In each sickness
Frightful not to know
Never knowing really
What I don’t
But I won’t put
Our book of secrets down
The wand is waiting
Overflowing with answers
For our love
Just at the forefront
Packed up
Like a chrysalis
Caught in your
Enchanted loom
Voodoo dust
A caterpillar
Ready to burst
Feet extended
Tongue curled up
Doorframe to window
Web strung resilience
A quilted heart
Swept away by your
Love broom

Little Heartbreaker

You love everyone
And no one at all
Do you still love me
I wonder

For what did we befall

I remember when
I was the best for you
Then I learned that
Being best meant
More than what I
Thought that I
Could do

I didn’t know
There was an expectation
One that I created
Loving you so much
Can do that I guess
Affiliation is
Indeterminable

Everyone is your best friend
I see everyone is the same
So who is special
Is there ever anyone?
What are the things you speak of
Grounded in?

What to believe…

You love everyone
And no one
Do you still love me?

The question comes up
In my pulse
When you walk by
Even though I know
There’s no definitive
Answer in any language

It’s easier to know that
If I step back I will hurt less
But I won’t miss you any less
Perhaps I’ll miss you more
I guess

And then again
There you are
Knocking at my door
Intertwined
In one another’s lives

Will you still be here in June
I often wonder if the sun
Poses the same face
To the moon

The morning after
We’ve seen so much
I watch you love
Any and all you want
It’s beautiful
To bear eyewitness to
Yet without any alliance
My heart feels broken
In this awkwardness
Defiant

Unsure
And yet I’m open
Because now
I can love you how
I want to
On my own terms
Even if you
Can’t return
It’s similarity

Wearing many hats
Jack of all loves
I’ll watch you grow
And maybe someday
We’ll know

If you appreciated
What I tried to give your
Little heartbreaking soul

Huh

Because Both

Because I love
With individual form
My concern supersedes
Any possibility
For something to be
More important
Than you

Your influence
Inspires my delusion
To enjoy the alternative
Ways I have to call
To dispose of my feelings
For you throughout
All different moments

Every shell and case
Has a different impact
All are capable of
Effect or none at all

Both

SOS

Be smarter than the pain
Above it all
The tentacles cannot
Take us
Into the pit

Witness this

What we put the self through
Above it all
If you allow it to get the best of you
It wins
And you are no longer

Forbearing

Sirens
Above it all
Signals of distress
SOS
Backronyms
To taking good self care

International codes

This is a tool
Above it all
To help make you aware
Save our ship
Save our souls
Si opus sit

Save Our Selves

Not to bludgeon yourself up with
Above it all
Squandered love
Dissipated desires
Want for more
Settle the score

State of emergency

Non reactory to things
Above it all
Emotions that are being
Displayed
Toyed with
Said only for you to react to

Find your own way
Above it all
Any unwillingness to rise above
Self infliction
Caused by
Social interaction

Cuddles demise

Mind the curves
Above it all
Focus is
Above it all
Bleeding heart
Above it all
Doesn’t it feel good to ascend
Above it all
What did we come here for
After all

Cheers

Do the best that you can
with the time that you have
You say

Love the hardest you can
Especially when you don’t want to
We can

If you tell the truth as you know it
You will never have to defend a lie
Because

We all make mistakes

The more
We admit our mistakes
To one another
The easier it is
To make them
In front of
Each other

Inside
You’ll find a song
At the bottom of a well
That is holding a place
For you in a heart

My heart
With total acceptance

Will you send down
Your basin
Jump off of the swing?
I’m ready for
Our best beginning

Cheers

Be the Conductor

In the conduit of a journey
Exhausted rebirth in between
Redirecting over and over
From instinctual survival
We see the world as it is
Internalized by a

Singular perception

With a tendency to inflate
Bring back a humbled gait
One has much more to learn
Than simply rely on fate

An anthropological
Apollo brought this star upon me
But the hand that betrayed me is my own
How very old and human

A pause taken for overwhelming
Experiences of abandonment
Patterns of adaptation
Perhaps in
Avoidance to forget
Being forgotten

Even if we suppress or repress
Project distract disassociate
From the act
Any escape from dealing
With real life
Is still remaining detached
In a powerful default
Of energy

Unless we embrace it
How will we face this?

How do you feel inside
Do you feel empty when you are alone?
Are you trying to fulfill
These things on your own
Or in me…
Fear of abandonment
Can push you away
Codependency can
Play with your mind

To be on a diving board of

Disconcertiveness

Rewinding
For another persons belonging
Is alarming

Disproportionate amounts of space
Spring into a relationship haste
That leaves you hanging
Due to the death of a loved one

But
We can be alive together
If not for each other
Fight for the light
For whatever
We could have

Even as allies

The living
Looking forward
To what’s better

Symphonically connected
To the gifts that we discover
In this moment
Be the conductor

Total Darkness

Stand and shine
Even in blackout
As the person that you are
185 steps to the bottom
Glowing from the inside out
Stalactites dripping down
Not just the picture
A cave of wonders
Beyond what people
Want you to be
What do you see?
Show us all
The inner painting
What you’re about
A masterpiece
Even in total darkness
I can hear the walls sing
Residuals of your heart beat
Silence articulated
Discreet
In a gallery of praise
For the minutes and
The hours that pass us by
Black light
Nightness
Darkfall
Completely dimmed
Aware of my surroundings
You are the call
I listen for
In a blackwoods
Of wild perplexity
The rarest nightshade
Truly most handsome
Total darkness
Has ever seen

Happy Birthday

There are many kinds of miracles
That happen every day
Big and small
Above it all
The miracle of friendship
Finding someone
Who listens
Someone who reaches out
To understand your heart
Will set them apart
As rare and exquisite
That’s you
That’s who you are to me
So Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to you
From me
And everyone
Who loves you
My friend

Always Friends

She inquires nothing
Everything systematic
All mapped out

Even her smile is planned

She’s already forgotten why
It doesn’t matter anymore
Just going through the motions

I am the serial wife
She says
The traditional wanter
Of impossible feeling
I am her over sensitive other
She doesn’t care
It’s just another
Something to
Ignore

To get over
To move on from

Head above water
A friendship wants to
Save itself
More important than
The title

If the fighting subsides
Then our hearts can reside
In a bowl of nourishing reunion

Our memories are our best assets
We will always have them to hold onto

This is our salvation
To rescue our love
For one another
Before it disappears
Forever

Making nothing into something
Always friends

To My Dreams

There is so much
I want to say
But I cannot find
The words today
I’m gonna leave it
All up to my dreams

I lay my head down
Fore I sleep
Thoughts of you
Will slowly creep
Into my heart
Dancing in and all around me

Now here they come
All marching high
Conversations
By and by

How could it be
You glisten me
Somehow
It’s difficult to see
The words I want
I think it’s time for me to sleep

So here I am I’ll close my eyes
Letting all the feelings rise
And leave the words
All up to my dreams