Geino Äotsch

What Love Is

If you were my moon
I would serenade you
Like the reeds serenade
The Betwa’s shore

If I serve you humbly in love
My heart has many colors
I can show you how the light
Can be much more
Casting through in hues
You may have never seen

One droplet of the ocean
One droplet of serene
One single ray of light
Can hold an entire body
Of meaning
A colorful night
With you

Now is the time to find you
While the world is on hold
To place different hats upon you
Dress you with the closet
Of my love

There is nowhere we have to be
Even the kitchen is a journey
We have every meadow
Between our chests
Every fragrant scent

If our heads are peonies
How would our petals kiss?
This is how you make me think
That this is what love is

She barks at the air
Contradicting her truth
She screams at
Water lilies when they’re
Not looking at her
Talk talk talk
Blah blah blah
How much of what she says
Is actually true?
Spitting over here
Vomiting over there
Words of yuck beguiling truth
All bubbled up
While she’s combing her hair
Talk talk talk
Blah blah blah
Where does any
Of this get you?
Shouldn’t you be exhausted
What will this all
Boil up to?
I think it comes from defeat
Seeking air from the grave
She only wants to be heard
Over and over she
Repeats herself
And asks for you to
As well
Repeat repeat
Because she cannot hear
What you say
She’s busy thinking and
Talk talk talk
Blah blah blah
Who knows what
Goes on in there
It doesn’t really change
Just wait for her to
Pop off like fireworks
If it’s quiet for too long
The signs are already there
Wait for it
It’s just pretending
If you think it’s
Getting better
You can hear her from
A mile away
And it’s the same
Standing two feet away
The tone doesn’t change
It’s just always yelling
But that’s her normal
Talk talk talk
Blah blah blah
There is no formal
Presence but to wear
A mask that parades
For others
What is classy to boot?
Just wait you might
Get lucky one day
If she knocks at
Your door
She’ll masquerade
For you too

Lashes

My eyelashes are wet
With the circumference
Of my desire for you
The empire I inspire for you
Although the iceberg of my
Patience melts slowly
As I sketch the outline
Of your drift
The existence between
My headphones rings
Like a distant
Church bell in my head
A century of crickets
Chirp in accolades of us
A line used to join our staffs
Carrying simultaneous parts
Along the stream of light
That blinds the funeral
For our love in a weighted
Ceremonial harbor
Floating up into
A resurrection of butterflies
After the wet chrysalis
Drips from each strand
Of our lashes
Synchronized into a pool
We kayak through
Together as the milk of
Our tomorrow feeds
The pasture of every beast
That bellows and bleats
Rejoicing in the favored
Emotions we have championed
Out above the surface
Of our bodies that
Meet the horizon of
Blue and green
I’m not afraid
To show you
Who I truly am
You are more mouthwatering
Than any dish
I’ve ever had

Not So Distant

What is beautiful
When it floats past you
A glimmer of hope
Or the smoky essence
Of a dream that you
Have been waiting
To appear to you
In waking life
Before your eyes
Would we know it
I think I do
When I look at you
To find the words
Only a picture
A fantasy
So far away
Like you
But real
A connection can be made
Regardless of the
Distance
Turning over in my bed
Thoughts rolling in my head
These sheets are empty
Yet so full
Miracles of touching you
In my sleep astrally
I heard your voice
You said a name
Was it a place?
Should we meet there
I’ve never been
I opened up my atlas
To determine just how
Far you actually are
It’s a village
An actual space
I’ve never heard of it before
But you made sure
I understood the words
Never to forget
The name
Repeating it again
And again
I woke up with your voice
An echo of your words
Arresting my lips

Striving

Feeling defeated I
Sow in peace reaping a harvest
Of belief and wonder
Everyday striving
Reaching for goals
Steadily climbing
All of my life
Never really stopping
Except to take a deep steep
Slow and long breath
For the loss of a loved one

Getaway

Want to
Getaway with me?
Where would we go
What would we do
Will we come back here
Or should we just stay
Wherever we arrive
I could meet you there
Maybe you’re waiting for me
Maybe it’s just that easy

When all of this clears
When the fog lifts
Let’s have a new beginning
Almost anywhere will do
Is there a countryside
That’s calling you
Or perhaps an ocean close
We could dive into

I’m not sure that
What I’m doing now
Will end up like before
In fact I’m quite sure
That everything will be different
And in a way
That’s more than okay

It might take some time
To find our sublime
Something simple
Some special treasure
That we build out around
Our hearts
And it starts
With new beginnings
We could climb up to the top
We could repel ourselves down

There’s no right or wrong way
For us to find our space
To create a place
In a cove beneath
The stars close by
To where we park the car
Maybe horses will
Join us on a ride
Maybe we don’t need more
Than a shack next to the shore

How much do we really need
Yes indeed
Just each other
A place to make our food
My lover and my friend

See you when we get there
A playground for our hearts
Enough to keep us going
I’ve got a little saved up
I can continue to make money
Honey I’m not afraid to work
But let’s not do it all the time
Cause the goal is to find
A space where we can be
I’m not afraid to leave
If it means that I can getaway
With you

Rain

The rain is falling
Can you feel it wash away
Your cares of yesterday
Like a bath of
What we look forward to
Tomorrow together
Into a stream
Of ghosts
That will no longer
Haunt you
Into a puddle
Of bullies
That will no longer
Taunt you
Into a creek
Of pain
That will no longer
Harm you

Let each trickle
Find it’s way
With gravity
Power down
Rushing into
The sewer to
Remind you
It is safe
To start over
Again

Think When

When we think about matter
Do we wonder if we do?
How much how often
Is what matters
Important
To you?

Leave it to the open
Spaces that we crave
Quantum hurtles
Electric steps between
A new mentality

How much does it matter?
What is matter anyway?
What matters to you
What matters to me
Let’s sit and
Watch the palm trees sway

Back and forth
Wave to wave
Hazel clouds
Yellow sky
In the matter
Drifting by
In the matter
Sifting signs

What’s the matter?
It doesn’t matter
It’s evident and sometimes for
Matters of the heart
A matter spiritual bliss
Is also chanting for

In the matter of these things
Can we change matter?
What about
People who matter?
Is there more work
For us to match up
To this matter?

It doesn’t matter

When we think about matter
Do we wonder if we do
How much how often
Is what matters
Important
To you…

Someone Loving Me

I awoke to someone loving me
Wanting me in every moment
Feeling it as I am
In my dream

I remember his face

I lie in bed
Looking into the sky
Waking up just enough
To see the grey
Through the crisscross pattern
In my window

Pushing past
The modern obstacles
Of an everyday morning
I made it into my path

On my way
I found
Four ravens
Blackbirds
Eating
Pecking in their
Pleasure us treasure
Of leftovers

One flew
For protection
To a roof nearby
The other three
Remained

The Universe

The Universe
Is a great gardener
Nurturing and fertilizing
My development

The Universe is
The source of
Recognition
That I am
Not in this
Alone

Realistic expectations
For the reason
To be available
Is arriving in
The moment
You open your
Eyes

Just be there

Author: Geino Äotsch